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I didn’t plan on posting anything until May, but I have been doing a lot of writing for the past 6 weeks. I haven’t uploaded anything on here since December 31st, and I can’t lie I do miss uploading blogs but I still do be around from time to time to give feedback on other people’s blogs. Now I’m still on break so I won’t upload anything else until May but I have wrote this story I wanted to share with my bloggers. I need your help and I want to get you involved with this story by helping me come up with an ending.

You don’t need to answer this question in the comment section, but why do you think I wrote this story and what is the lesson behind this story?

For those of you that have Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, etc, when you see a picture a bad chick, thick in all the right places, caramel complexion, sexy pose, how many likes and comments do you think she get based on her picture?

A lovely woman with a nice shape
and a gorgeous face.
Want to take her on a date.
Bring her back to your place.
Have sex on the 1st date
with a condom to keep you safe.
Most men think of looks
but I see beyond the pretty face.
The vagina is a snake
gifted wrapped as a present
on Christmas Day.
This lovely woman is a celebration.
Smile is bright and gorgeous
like Christmas decorations
in a white neighborhood.
Proud to express your manhood
as she aggressively takes
charge of your wood.
Cooks and clean,
rubs your back,
and massages your feet.
Affectionate in all the
right places.
Sending you nudes
only a daily basis.
A lady in public
but a freak in private
which really means
a bunny rabbit in public
but a rat in private.
Seems all innocent
in the front
but hiding the fishing rod
behind her back
to reel you in.
Trapping you in her bullshit.
She starts off with
“Your different compared to the assholes
I been with!”
“I’m so lucky to have you!”
“What do you think our future kids would be like?”
“It don’t matter what we do, as long as I spend time with you.”
This is how it is in the beginning.
Sounds lovely but for every beginning there is always an ending.
As time is moving, mood and tension is changing.
My mom and I got into an argument and she kicked me out.
Can I stay with you for a little while?
You don’t really want to but you allow her to stay.
Make some closet space
for all her outfits and high heels,
but at least she says
I will help you with the rent and any other bills”
Start to feel a little better, because you can use
the extra cheddar.
Helps out only for the first month.
Home cooked meals on the regular.
Without being asked, she packs your lunch.
Good sex and blowjobs, you receive a ton.
In fact receiving so much, you barely get to sleep much.
One day you come home and she is on the couch crying.
She just got laid off , “What am I going to do?” She won’t stop complaining.
You feel bad and tell her not to worry.
You being all charming, telling her that
she is smart and sexy and how she will
one day land on her feet.
You also tell her not to worry about paying rent
so she could focus on looking for a job.
You have sympathy for her because you know life is hard.
Never enough flashcards
to prepare you for when you loose your job.
Next day you come home and she is
on the couch watching TV.
Day after she isn’t home because she texted you she is at the library
and she didn’t tell you she left a lot of dishes
in the sink.
Day after she isn’t home again and she didn’t leave you a text message.
Your bedroom is a mess, clothes all over the bed,
perfume all over the dresser, lipstick all over the chester.
Now pissed off, you head to the bathroom
and it smells like marijuana .
So now you call her and leave a voicemail “Where the fuck are you, get your ass back to my apartment I need to talk to you”
She comes and says “I heard your voicemail, why do you have an attitude?”

I will write a part 2 and continue this story but I was thinking of ending this story in three ways

  1. Have the ending where this guy eventually gets her pregnant but find out the baby isn’t his and he kills the baby
  2. She sets him up to get robbed by some street guys
  3. They get into an argument and they get into a fight and he accidentally kills her and now trying to cover up the murder

I want you to comment below and either choose between the three on how I should end this story or if you have another clever way to end this story comment below. I am open to all ideas.

After I write part 2, I will edit this and add a tittle. I purposely didn’t add a title to this story yet. I will upload part 2 in May. I have a lot of good poems coming in the future.

It may take some time before I reply if you choose to comment below because I’m so busy so I apologize ahead of time for late responses to comments

See you all in May

Chase The Money Not The SEX 

I am not talking about all women in this poem

 

 

 

Money and sex is our satisfaction.
Making money is our passion  but having sex is a infatuation.
Money attracts girls but the broke men  don’t  understand this,
So instead  they seek what’s between the legs and chase it.
This is time wasting.
More money you obtain  the more you’ll seek  pretty faces,
with the tight curves exposed thru the tight dresses.
But money comes 1st so don’t  mix pleasure with business
because pussy  can be poisonous  like the tongue on a python.
Hustle hard and stack bread and let the paper grow long.
Paper grows long then the women  come along.
Women aren’t so simple but yet they aren’t so difficult.
Chasing paper  minimizes   female issues.
Paper is the key to using reverse psychology  to breaking down a pretty young lady easily.
Women minds are complicated like a Macbeth novel, keeping a simple man up all night like a night owl.
Paper  will simplify a  woman’s  mind  because  paper   is like spark notes.
Women will understand your language  when you provide them the c-notes.
Paper is their  dictionary to understand a man word for word,
because women  can’t  comprehend the mind of a man who’s poor,
but this is absurd.
Broke man  and a wealthy man talk to the same girl exchanging same words.
Broke man can be intelligent with excellent  vocabulary but  she will ignore him completely.
Wealthy men can be ignorant with a first grade vocabulary but she will let him smash in a heartbeat.
Chase after the wealthy to be 1st place like she sprinting in a track meet.
So lesson is don’t  chase the pussy, chase the dream because  the dream provides the money and money provides the pussy.

 

I want to wish you all a Merry Christmas tomorrow and family always come first. Sometimes family will get on your damn nerves but in this world family is all you got, remember that 

I have been uploading for 24 days straight and tomorrow I am taking a break from uploading.

My next post is December 26. If anyone of  you want to send me a link of a post of yours, send me the link in the comment section and tomorrow I will gladly read and give feedback on your post

Also comment below in quotes if you have a deep question that you think about constantly that you want me to blog about and I will upload it in January.
Also comment below if there was a line in the poem you didn’t agree with or want me to explain

 

 

 

I Will Never Forget My 25th Birthday (Part 2) This is a very long blog personal blog

I sure some of you have noticed  I have been posting a lot blogs for the last 3 days. For the month of December I plan to go all out with my blogs and I will be posting a lot of rel – eatable  content. Tomorrow  I will post a poem “Suicide thoughts” and it’s a deep topic to discuss. Now please for those of you that don’t know me, please click this link Who Am I? . It’s an autobiography of me to learn more about me so you can understand this story. Also please, please read I Will Never Forget My 25th Birthday (Part 1) before reading this blog. I hope you all enjoy.  This is a very, very long blog so I will understand if you get bored but I wanted to share my story because I know a lot of people been heart broken before and I like to break things down for you bloggers to picture what I went through. Also this is a very long blog, so if you don’t like reading long blogs you will get bored reading this.

April 2015

Next day is Sunday and I’m still thinking about the previous night. She text me “Good Morning” and I replied back but I wasn’t in the mood to communicate with her. Throughout the day she kept texting me and I just kept replying back but I wasn’t really feeling the vibe after what happened the previous night. After a while, she noticed that I wasn’t really in the mood so she asked me “Are you okay?” I replied back “I call you later” When she got off work, I called her and I asked “Do you still have feelings on me?” she was a little hesitant and said” On certain days I do, on certain days I’m not in the mood.” Now that I’m wiser looking back at it now, I should of just wished her luck and moved on, but you live and you learn. So anyway when she told me that, I asked her “Well what’s gonna happen between us in the future? She responded “I’m not sure” So I said “We can’t remain friends forever tho, either one day we will get back together or we will go our separate ways.” Now I don’t remember what her response was because this was like 3 years ago but I said what I said to her because I guess I was trying to put the pressure on her so she can really figure out what she wanna do. I felt like she got too comfortable with receiving relationship benefits on a friendship level. I also asked her over the phone why she didn’t want to kiss me and if she was uncomfortable and she told me “Oh no I was just tired and I wanted to go home.” I felt like she was bullshitting because even if you tired if you really into somebody even if your tired wouldn’t you still kiss that person?(just a question to think about)

                                                                     May 2015

Fast forward to May, me and this girl still are communicating but probably like 2 or 3 times a week. At this point I’m focus because I started working 2 jobs so I was busy everyday. At this point I started talking to other girls to get my mind off my ex because at this point I didn’t know what was going to happen between me and her. My ex and I would text about 2 or 3 times a week. I won’t lie I still had feelings for her. Now back in April when we saw the fast furious movie I did tell her we were going to see Avengers age of Ultron in May but after I tried to kiss her and she slammed the car door on my face I was like fuck that (for those that don’t know what happened when we saw fast furious go back to the top of this blog and click on the link and read the 1st part). So it was the beginning of May and we texting back and fourth. I mentioned I couldn’t wait to see the avengers movie. She said when do you plan to see it” I said maybe this weekend”
then I asked her “Do you plan to see it?” She said ” I thought we planned on seeing it together but I guess you don’t feel like driving to queens.” Lol I played it off and said ” Lol my fault I forgot you know I’m a old man I forget simple shit”. She called me an old man. I didn’t forget, I was playing it off because you see, this girl barely kissed me, and we haven’t had sex in months. Now me and her are just friends at this point so I wasn’t really chasing the sex but at this point I’m like if she comfortable enough to hang out with me, comfortable enough to her allow to pick from work, I even gave her money twice(now this was my fault because I volunteered to do this) but whenever I try to make a move or bring up my feelings she goes cold. So now I’m like you know what, I ain’t going out my way for her no more unless she gives it up. So later when I was in school, we was texting back and  fourth. Don’t remember how this started, but I said to her “You can’t say my name lol ” but we just joking. She said “Yes I can lol”. I said “You can’t say my name unless we having sex and I know you not trying to take it there” She put “Lmao but can still say your name”. I said “Lol why well are you going to have sex with me?” She said “No, but I can still say your name” I said “Alright fine, you can say my name while having sex with another guy” She said “No that would be very rude of me to say that” I said, ” Well it’s very rude for you to say my name”, I don’t remember her response but after I left class I gave her a call. I decided that either we get back together or I go my separate way.  So called her and told that. I asked her if she wanted to work things out and get back together. She said she wasn’t sure so I told I will give you 2 weeks to think about it.  The following week she got the nerve to ask me for a favor,something to do with her car. I made up an excuse though, I didn’t do it. Some other things happen during the month of May but I can’t remember everything because it’s been so long. This took place over two years ago.

                                                                June 2015

So now we fast forward to June. Both of our birthdays were in June. Between May and June we barely spoke. I was on the verge of just cutting her off. At this point, I still had feelings but I was starting to get use to not hearing from her. I felt like I started healing. I felt like I was getting stronger or at least I thought I was. So anyway it was  the middle of June  and it was her birthday. It was 9AM and I was contemplating on rather or not if I should text her “Happy Birthday”. So after 10 minutes of being in deep thought, I decided to text her “Happy Birthday” and she said “Thank you!”. From that day until June 22, we slowly started communicating here and there but not often. So now fast forward to about 4 or 5 days later this girl texted me ” You okay?”. Once in a blue moon she would text me this if we haven’t spoke in a while. So anyway, I texted her” I alright wbu?” So she “I’m good” I said” Is there anything you wanna talk about?” She said” Are you seeing new friend?” I said” New friend? do you mean if  I’m dating somebody new?” She said “Yes!” I said “No, but why did you ask me that?” She said “No reason” I said” for real stop playing why you asked me that?” She said” I just want to see you found someone to replace me that’s all”. Now I  don’t know why I said this looking back at this now but my response was” Nah, nobody would ever take your place”.
She responded” Aww 😚😚
So she asked me” How is work coming along?”
I said “I’m just busy you know staying focus working two jobs?” She said ” That’s a lot, but if we was to get back together, how would you have the time?” I said”Good question, but I can make time.” Now I was just thinking to myself maybe she does want to get back together but I still was on my guard because I still didn’t trust her. I somewhat had feelings for her still, but I was healing little by little.  So fast forward to June 22, she texted me ” How you doing?” I said” I’m good!”  We was going back and fourth and she I told her that my supervisor was letting me leave work early. She said” Why?” I said “because it’s my birthday” She said “Omg I’m so sorry Happy Birthday!”  I’m just like “lol thank you”. One minute later, she gave me a call and said she apologizes for forgetting my birthday then she said let’s hang out. I said I’ll let you know. I wasn’t sure if it was a good idea. So  I asked a co-worker for advice. The co-worker said I should let her take me out for my birthday. So I took his advice(looking back now I should just went with my instincts instead of taking this advice)

                                                                   July 2015

For those of you reading this, if you don’t like what your hearing and if you feel like this is a fucked story then I wouldn’t recommend reading the rest of this story because it does get worst. So now it’s July and I wanted go to a buffet. I picked her up and we went to the buffet. I swear I was not trying to make a move or anything I just wanted to be a simple date that’s all. So we at the buffet, and we are talking. She seemed really excited to see me. Around this time, I was listening to K love trying to change my ways and become more positive. So anyway, I can’t lie, my feelings started coming back, she seemed really excited to see me, plus she just got her license so I was excited for her. She wanted to register for college (now what I am about to say was so foolish, so stupid, so navie) and she owed the school 1000 dollars.  I was working two jobs, I had money, plus I was listening K love radio station, so I was feeling positive and I felt like God was looking out for me. I love helping people so I offer to help her pay for college and I told her she only have to pay me half back by December. She really appreciated it. So after the buffet I was planning to take her home, but  she said she wasn’t in a rush to go home. We decided to go to the mall to pass time. To my surprise, she started holding my hand while in the mall. Now that’s what got me because we haven’t done that in months.  Now think about this, 3 weeks prior, she asked me if I was dating anybody else, if we got back together how would you have the time,  and she started holding my hand, now wouldn’t this lead you on?  So we head back to the car and I was feeling the moment and I tried kissing her. She started pulling back harder. So I’m thinking like alright she just playing hard to get. It’s been a while since like months since  I got close with a female and I feel like this was a good opportunity. This time I didn’t care I was coming on to her. But when I got closer the second time, she said “I  don’t want to get turned on , it’s been a month since I been turned on” I paused for a second because I’m like what the fuck that got to do with me and why you telling that. So I asked her “You had sex a month ago?”  she said “Yes”. Let’s think about this, all along for months I made effort to show her that I care, I gave her money like twice, picked her up from work, went to church with her family, contacted her on a daily, never pressured her for sex up until this point, and she fucked someone else like wow. I was shocked because I let my guard down. In the back of my mind since April I had a feeling she was messing with another guy. I knew it and I tried my hardest to move on but she kept leading me on and I tried so hard to give her the benefit of the doubt. Now I can’t remember what my response was, but I drove her home in silence. I went home pissed of. For the men that’s reading this, I’m sure you can understand how I felt.  So anyway she texted me “I’m sorry I didn’t mean to get you upset” I called her and told I think it’s best we don’t talk for a while.  I couldn’t even go to sleep that night. Every day I kept thinking and thinking about this bullshit. I couldn’t focus at work , I couldn’t focus at school , I just kept replaying this shit in my head. I could not let it go.  So I went to God and I prayed. I too realized  that back in October I broke up with her through a text message and I will briefly explain that at the end of this blog. So I prayed and I talked to my mom and she started praying for me. After about a week , I decided to text and ask her why she did what she did?(I know I should of just left her alone) When you love somebody it’s very hard to move on. In fact, when the person you love breaks your heart, you blame yourself and that’s what  I did. Now I can’t remember everything but since I was trying so hard to forgive her, praying to God still,  I decided to forgive her and I texted whatever happened on my birthday let’s leave it in the past and just move on. Now at this point I wasn’t trying to get back with her anymore, but I thought at least we can be civil and move on. The reason why I blamed myself because sometimes I feel like I overthink a lot of things and I create situations and problems  in my head worrying about every single thing and I was trying hard to change that at that time. So I figure maybe I’m just thinking too hard and I should just let this go. So anyway, after I texted her that, she told me thank you. So we started talking a little and I’m slowly letting go what happened then she got the nerve to text me ” You still going to lend me the money?” In my head I’m like you gotta be fucking serious. I’m like what the hell. I should of cursed her ass out. I responded “I don’t know I will think about”. I didn’t plan on lending her money. I thought about it and  I asked myself, why should I lend her money?

Before I continue with the story, I will briefly explain something real quick so you can understand my though process at this time. I apologize for this long blog, but I am trying hard to break everything down so you can understand this. I am going to be completely honest and this is not easy for me to admit this but I think it’s important for you to know this. When me and this girl got together, this was my first relationship and I was inexperienced in all areas. I repeat, I was inexperienced in all areas. So we got together and I was embarrassed by my inexperience and I felt like I couldn’t keep her with her. I had problems staying hard. Truth was I never admitted to her, but I didn’t know how to put on a condom. So I couldn’t maintain an erection. I was extremely embarrassed. So I decided to go unprotected. Still couldn’t keep it up. This shit was in my head all throughout the day. Since I was inexperienced, I use to compare myself to other guys. I was felt like she was going to leave me because of that.  I went to urologist and he gave me cialis and it worked for me. Since I didn’t know how to put on condoms, I just went unprotected. I got addicted to having sex unprotected and I hated condoms. So anyway there was guy she use to date before me and I thought she still had feelings for him while she was with me. Let’s just say because of my lack of experience was the reason why I felt like she still had feelings for the previous guy before I came into the picture. There’s a lot more to say but I feel like I probably already gave you guys a headache so I will leave it here.

 

So back where I left off with the story,  I was thinking about lending her the money but then I thought to myself, what if the guy had sex with was a from the past? Next day, I texted and first thing I asked her was “If I lend you money, will you promise me to pay me back in December?” She said “Yes” Then I asked her ” Remember when you told me you had sex a month ago, was that guy you had sex with a new guy you just met or a guy from your past?  She said” Someone from the past” When I heard that damn, I can’t describe how painful that felt.  The reason why it felt painful because here I am, nice, respectful gentleman, doing everything in my power to be there for this girl and yet she fucking somebody from the past when she clearly tells me that all the guys from her past were trash. W got into an argument and she told me ” I don’t know why you making a big deal, it’s my life and I wasn’t even dating the guy, it was just a fling thing.” I wanted to punch her in the fucking face.  I can’t lie, I went to the bathroom I called my mom and I was in tears.

 

 

This experience changed me. To this day I haven’t been back to church ever since. I stopped listening to K love, I lost respect for women. I was hurt for months until I went to the strip club and I just started paying for sex. Real talk. Believe it or not , the strip club was my healing factor and I was watching porn like crazy. What happened was strip clubs and porn desensitized my mind. I didn’t trust any girls. I only wanted strippers but I wore a condom though I didn’t smash a stripper raw, I ‘m not that crazy. I realize that strippers make bad decisions but they are friendly people that accept you for who you are. A few of them I was getting to know them and I realized that they have a lot potential to be great. Now some people judge strippers and think they are stupid hoes, let me tell you something, strippers make poor decisions but they are warm hearted people(most not all) trying to earn a living and even though they caught a lot of bodies, they will make sure their clients use to protection because they want to catch nothing. A lot of these girls out here getting pregnant fucking every nigga raw, they ain’t no better than the strippers. But eventually I did get bored with the strip club but it did help me though.  As time move on, I started to talk to other females and I realized I had more in common with other females than my ex.  I realized my ex wasn’t for me. This was all a learning experience and you know what, I thank her for breaking my heart. She taught me a lot and I forgive her now. If we was still together I would eventually been miserable. I accept myself for who I am and that I am just an over thinker. Not giving a fuck healed me. Now if I don’t get hard in the bedroom, I don’t give a fuck, if a girl gets upset and think I’m lame then go fuck another nigga it don’t bother me. I realized that being single was the best decision ever. Someone on twitter use to tweet everyday ” I’m glad that I can wake up and not get cheated on” lol I don’t know why but that’s funny to me. I started saying that lol. Now for women reading this, I know there are some good women out there I know,so I didn’t take my frustration out on all women but some of you are fucked up, just being honest. Another lesson I learn is you can’t always trust a christian that lives by the bible day in and day out(no offensive). Some Christians are good people so I’m not placing all Christians in this category, but be careful because some of them will hurt you in the worst. Some of them will just receive from you and will not give you anything in return. I respect church members and it’s a great honor to see them worship God but the one thing that use to annoy me with them was they are so nosy. Like they would always try everything in their power to  try to get me involved in the church activities , they don’t accept no for an answer. For example, they say, “come to the Friday night service, you said you don’t work on Fridays you not doing nothing so come on down” it’s annoying when they do that because it’s like they trying to trap me into coming but all this does is push me away further and further. Like I said I wasn’t perfect because I broke up with my ex through a text message so I’m not trying to appear innocent.  If you would like to hear more about why I broke up with my ex, through a text message and the events take took place then comment below. If you read this long blog from start to finish appreciate you because this took a lot of thinking to write this. I love relating to people that been heart broken because I know how it feels.   I heard this in church once

 

“We all have gotten hurt by somebody and we all will hurt somebody”

 

I Just Have To Ask Why

I didn’t plan on blogging right now, but look at this blog as bonus blog. From time to to I may just surprise you with a bonus blog.

I want my blog to be like a video game and just picture as the secret level or cheat code.
A bonus blog is just extra content and mini blog for you to look at while I work on my primary original blogs. I Just may upload bonus blog from time to time 

Men:
1. When you just started talking to a girl you just met,  why lie and say you not talking to other girls if you really are?
2. If you cheating on your girl on a regular basis then why get mad as soon as she is having lunch with a male co-worker?
3. Most women do want men to lead and take charge but why do you talk to your woman as if she is a child and you trying to be too dominant?
4. Why do you lie by any means neccessary to get pussy?
5. If you love having sex with different women, why cheat instead why not remain single?
6. Now I can’t lie because I kind see where men are coming from on this, but if you want a threesome then why not just try to get a threesome while you single instead of asking your girlfriend/wife for one?
7. If you a one minute man, why do you want a threesome?
8. Why you say “These hoes ain’t loyal” or “can’t trust these hoes” if you having sex with hoes unprotected knowing that they had sex with other guys?
9. Why have sex unprotected and get a girl pregnant if you have no chance on taking care of your kids?
10. Why do you expect your wife/girlfriend to give you head all the time?(head is good but most girl don’t want to do it all the time)

For the women

1. Every time when a rich or famous man cheat, why is the reason because “niggas ain’t shit”
2. If your looking for a relationship, why would you have sex with a guy you barely know that didn’t claim you yet?
3. Why do you say you want a big dick if you know you can’t handle it?
4. Now I can understand if this was all this time but why do you get mad if your boyfriend/husband falls fast sleep right after the 1st round of sex?
5 Why do you  want to try handcuffs and a  blindfold during sex? (I think this is crazy)
6. I have seen this on Facebook and twitter, now I don’t judge but if you don’t have a car, don’t have a decent job, still living at home, why do you think your ready for a baby?
7.Why do you try to trap a man into becoming a father just to get childsupport , don’t you think it’s better to be married to a man you love 1st so your child can have both parents in his life?
8.Now when giving head, why do you get mad when a man errupts in your mouth when you know sometimes when a man climax he usually have no control or the will power to control it?
9.When you having sex unprotected, why get mad when he doesn’t pull out but yet you refuse to take plan b or any type of contra- eptive  method?
10. If your man cheated,  why take him back? and why get mad or fight the girl your man cheated with if you don’t know the girl personally?

“we can’t change the world unless we change ourselves”

I had no intention on uploading a post today but after reading It’s just another choice …. comment  on my post Do I Perfer Strippers?Women Got Me Fed Up  it motivated me to write this post. Her comment was so sincere and so honest so I give her my appreciation for writing this blog . I am going to be straight forward and truthful in this blog and check out her blog when you get a chance. Now the quote “We can’t the world unless we change ourselves” came from biggie smalls in the Notorious B.I.G. movie that came out in 2009. I applied to this quote to women. In this blog I am going to talk about the women’s mindset in this blog and I am not placing all women in category.

Now before I talk about women, I just want to say I already wrote a blog What About Men? in which explains my definition of men that are trash so I’m not being biased in this blog. I came across a few blogs and some tweets on Twitter for the past couple months. Now I notice this trend about men being in “Men are trash”, “Men ain’t shit”, “Niggas ain’t shit” category. I have read blogs ,tweets, and other stories on social media explaining the reasons why men are placed  in the “Men are trash” category. Now in my honest opinion, I honestly think  this is very useless when women do this  because complaining about men on social media does not solve anything. I don’t  get offended but it’s just why go on social media and complain and start a trend “Men ain’t shit” because someone broke your heart? Social media don’t give a fuck about your problems but I get it, you upset and you want to express yourself and that’s fine. But when women say “Men are trash” some men will get offended because that trend make it seems like men as a whole are all trash that’s why some  men actually respond and say “not all men are trash maybe you messing with the wrong guys”. Now what get’s me annoyed though is when women say “Men who say not all men are considered trash because real men understand we are not talking about them”. This logic make no type of sense whatsoever. I will break everything down.

The reason why I think it’s useless when women complain on social media because majority of them are doing that for attention so other people can comment on their post, tweet, etc. Now when a female gets her heart broken, I understand how she feels and yes its going to be natural to say that “Men are trash” I get it, but still no reason to go on social media and promote this throughout social media. Complaining about your problems does  not do anything but make the problem worst, its how you go about solving them. To solve a problem is to learn from your mistakes. Now this is where the “We can’t change the world unless we change ourselves” quote come into play. A lot of women  will complain and expect to receive some type of sympathy when a man breaks her heart but just like how men hurt women, women hurt men too. I’m a man and I got my heart broken before, I’ve gotten ignored before, but how would you  women feel if I was to go on social media and say “Women are bitches”, wouldn’t you get offended? Wouldn’t you think I was talking about women as a whole?  I’m gonna be honest, some women are bitches but not every woman in this world is a bitch and nor will I ever call a woman a bitch. When I got my heart broken I was angry and yes I did say “These hoes ain’t loyal to my friends”, I did say “Women are fucked up”, I did say “Never trust a bitch” but I did not go on social media to complain about my women problems because, 1) social media don’t give a fuck and 2) not every women is a bitch, not every women is a hoe. I spoke to close friends about my problems, I went to a therapists, and most importantly I thought about all the mistakes I’ve made and realize that I didn’t use good judgement. So another words, I was trying to learn from my mistakes. Women should do they same instead of starting this “Men are trash” trend. Now I know some of you are thinking “Well its different with women because women don’t get the type of respect as men do” and that’s true I understand that. But if you women want they same type of respect, if you want men to respect you, ya have to learn to respect each other. Men do call women bitches and it has to stop, but women as well call each other bitches. Hell women refer to themselves as bitches. You know how many times I heard women say “I’m a bad bitch” when referring to themselves? A shit load of times. Another thing that women do is slut sham. Men as well slut sham, but women do it more. To be honest, it be the sluttiest women that be quick to judge other women. Women have  to raise their standards a little higher and use better judgment. Majority of women seek men with men with money,popularity, and fame.  Now there are a select few of women that do want a honest, working man that will treat a woman like a queen but majority of them will ignore the good guys. Most women won’t admit this but most of them think good men are lame, boring, cornballs, etc so that’s why they seek the popular guys. Women will string the good men along, use him,  and ask him for advice regarding men(this is a big one). I swear women do this, they have that one guy friend that they not really into but will call him or text him as soon as she needs advice regarding the man she is chasing.  The man she is chasing as usual is playing games ignoring her and she calls and ask for advice  to the good guy. The good guy obviously knows the type of guy she is chasing doesn’t have good intentions. So good guy gives advice to this girl and she listens. She even goes as far and say that she appreciates the advice that was provided, thanks the guy  saying she appreciates him, and says that she is done with the guy she is chasing. But guess what, like 2 weeks later, her and that guy that she supposedly said she was done with are talking and  hanging out again. For those of the guys that’s reading this and wondering why this always happens? Well I won’t go to deep into the reason I am going to provide but a lot of times  good dick will interfere with a woman’s judgment in a negative way.  Another thing I don’t understand is women will give up the pussy to the worst type of guys in a heart beat. Women will give up the pussy to a guy she never been on a date with, but yet expect him to commit. Now why would a guy take you out on date and spend money on you if you already gave him some pussy? It’s one thing if you just want some dick which is not a problem, but if a guy calls you out your name, doesn’t spend time with you, haven’t claimed you as his girlfriend, never took you out on a date, why would you give him pussy? More than likely he will eventually end things with you, telling you that he seeing someone else or he will just completely ignore you for good. Let me tell you a little secret,  8/10 times when he said he started seeing someone else, the person he seeing was his girlfriend before he met you. You was just a side chick all along. But a lot times side chicks don’t know that they are side chicks until it’s too late. So yes women get hurt bad because of this. But if women use better judgement, a lot of them wouldn’t be in this situation. But anyway the women that do end up in this situation, only a small portion will move on and learn from their mistakes. Majority of them, make more bad decisions. Some women will get jealous  and try to destroy the relationship between the fuck guy and his girlfriend by blowing his spot up. Usually they not blowing up the fuck guy spot up because they are looking out for is girlfriend, they blowing his spot up because they are jealous of his girlfriend.  Some girls won’t even mind being a side chick anyway and will purposely try and get pregnant by the fuck guy to trap him or hoping her getting pregnant will make the fuck guy wanna leave his girlfriend.  Some girls will try to find a new guy to talk to ,to make the fuck guy jealous and this is stupid because the fuck guy don’t care. Besides even when the side chick gets a new man or string somebody else along, more than likely she will still let the fuck guy smash.  Another thing is(and this is a problem for both men and women) a lot of ya are having unprotected sex. Now yes I know unprotected sex is better than using protection so yes I get it, an unexpected pregnancy happens or you catch an STD, shit happens nobody perfect, but a lot of women don’t learn their lesson and will still fuck guys unprotected. These type of actions is why some women have a hard time finding Mr Right. Usually(not always) these are the type of women that go on social media and say “Niggas ain’t shit”. Another thing I have to add, when women finally do get a good man, they give him hell sometimes. Like he can do everything right, be a gentleman, spend money, take her out on dates, all her friends like him, he’s intelligent and it still won’t be enough.  These type of guys have a harder time and go through more bullshit. These be the type of guy that gotta wait like 3 months or more to get the pussy. Now everything is not about pussy, it’s not  I swear. One  more thing is, if a guy treats you like a queen, make sure you having a good day, knows when to give you space when your having a bad day, knows when to communicate with you, compliments you, somewhat attractive, and shows that he wants to be in your life, why do you got to think about it? Why does he got to be in the friend zone ? Why does he got to wait forever just to have sex with you? You see ya too busy complaining about the trash men, but ignoring all the good men. Now do you understand why good men say “Not all men are trash” because good men go through so much bullshit.  Here’s another thing, a lot of men that are trash were once good men. What happened was your typical good guy got his heart broken really bad which turned him into a savage. When a man gets his heart broken it’s because he didn’t see it coming because the girl he was dealing with seemed like a sweetheart that changed and switched on him. With women, a lot of times the guys ya deal with that break your heart, he gives obvious signals that he is playing games or cheating but sometimes ya do ignore the signals hoping that he will change or that you can change him. Let me tell you something, you can’t change a guy that’s not willing to change himself. Another thing ya complain about is fuck guys just wanting to fuck and fuck guys  being disrespectful and I understand where ya coming from. So why is it when you find a guy that has a good job, respectful, eloquent speaker, not afraid to make decisions, plans ahead, affectionate, and not afraid to brag about you to his friends and family, why would you leave him or cheat on him if the sex is not good? Now as a far as leaving him this one is tough one because I know nobody don’t want to settle with somebody with wack sex and sex is important so I kind of understand why a woman would leave but at least give him time to improve and see if he is willing to get better first. But a lot women will break up with a guy in a heart beat if the sex is wack. Women do judge men harshly if he is a one minute man or have a small dick. But truth is  some of these women ain’t  all that that in the bedroom neither. A lot of ya can’t even handle a guy with a big dick, some of ya aren’t the best when it comes to giving head, some of you aren’t all that developed. Now imagine if your boyfriend broke up with because you can’t give good head? Imagine if a guy broke up with you because your ass and breast are small? Doesn’t that sound very shallow? At the end of the day it’s like this, Good sex will make a unhealthy relationship stretch, and bad sex will healthy relationship crumble. As fucked up as it sounds, this tells you how powerful sex is. Sex should not be more powerful than loyalty and commitment. Another thing that I heard is they say the best dick come from a broke man or a man that ain’t shit and a nice guy always got wack dick. I don’t know how many of you heard of this, I heard of this  quite a few times. This logic is a little ass backwards. The only way you can tell if a man is good in the bedroom is to actually have to sex with him and get to know him and understand him in that department. Another way you might be able to tell(and even this is not guarantee) is if he knows how to dance or if he exercise. Sex is about rhythm and dancing is about rhythm so more than likely he probably knows how to move and have control of his rhythm providing spectacular  strokes. That’s why Jamaican are very good in the sex department lol.  A man that exercises makes his heart healthy which will increase blood flow to his penis which gives him firm erections that can help him to last longer in the bed room.

I’m provide an example of a TV show. For those of you that watch Power, you know James St Patrick AKA Ghost and Tasha St Patrick. Ghost cheated on his wife and he was wrong no doubt. A lot fans criticized him for cheating and called him a dumb ass for cheating. Now a lot of people think Tasha is a ride or die. Tasha is not a ride or die I don’t care what nobody says. Tasha cheated too. In fact she technically cheated first. Look at season 1 episode 1 and you’ll see what I’m talking about. Ghost is a drug dealer that’s trying to go legit but Tasha doesn’t want him to leave the drug game. She isn’t loyal to Ghost, she is loyal to his money but yet she is a ride or die which makes no sense. I won’t go too much into but if you watch season 1 of power you’ll see what I’m talking about.

We do have trash men such as Donald Trump and Bill Cosby. But what about Black Chyna? What about Scottie Pippens  wife? In fact I gonna say something reckless. For those of you that watch porn(don’t judge me lol) it’s a lot videos you’ll see women blowing another guy while on the phone with her boyfriend. Quite a few videos.  On the Maury show , some women come on the show swear they know who the father of her baby is but get sad when she finds out the dude she thought was the father is not. Now I’m not trying to judge but why would you have unprotected sex with more than one man at the same time? At least wear a condom.  Just another thing, I gotta question for the men, have this ever happened you know where you was speaking to a female for a little while and  ya was getting close then all of a sudden she stop responding to your text, then all of a sudden like 4 months later  she text you “Hey stranger”? You see what they do is they string you along until her ex start acting right again so she’ll forget about you, then once they stop talking, they hit you up and think they can just come back to you like nothing ever happened.

My point of this blog was to show you that just like men, there are trash women as well. Women play games as well. The problem is society portrays men as trash but never bring up the dirt that women do. This is for the women that say “Men ain’t shit” when men say “not all men” it’s not because we are guilty(not all of us) it’s because we know the bullshit that good men go through. When ya say “men ain’t shit” it does sound like you are speaking about men as a whole. How would you feel if men started a trend and said “Women are bitches”? You know goddamn well you would not like it.  Just to say this, yes I know women aren’t treated equally like men and it’s unfair. But there are times when things do work in your favor and men are at a disadvantage.  Court for example, the judge normally favors the women over the men as far as child support.  Single mothers get  a lot of credit and they deserve all the credit because being a single parent is hard but what about single fathers? Single fathers don’t get as much credit as single mothers do. Females are coldhearted  just like men. In fact I know females that told me they rather be around guys because it’s too much drama with females. Women are spreading this “Men ain’t shit trend” but females don’t even respect each other. Females don’t get along with each other. Now men should uplift women, but how do you expect men to do that if women don’t uplift each other? One way is on March which is women’s history month, both women and men should uplift each other. Women want men to uplift them but it women have to uplift each other as well. Women need to hold fuck boys accountable and stop making it easy for them to get pussy. Women need to acknowledge and admit that women hurt men too and that both men and women are trash. Stop blaming men for everything.  I highly wouldn’t recommend women spreading the “Men ain’t shit” trend over social media because the trash men aren’t the ones that say “not all men” , they are usually (not all) liking your status agreeing with everything your saying or just laughing at you because he know he gonna get pussy from somewhere else so he don’t care if you think he is trash. As I stated previously, you are not wrong for feeling like men are trash when your heartbroken, but seek therapy,  allow yourself to heal, mentor to teenagers to not make the same mistakes that you did, realize that a relationship will not give you happiness if you not happy with yourself, when on these dating sites try to focus for one guy at time, maybe even two but not highly recommended to talk to more than 3 different guys at once, stopping depending on the online dating is the only solution to meeting people, learn to be more friendly in person, and put God first in everything you do. Think of all the choices you made, now ask, if my daughter made the same choices I did, would I be proud of her? Remember “We can’t change the world unless we change ourselves.”

I Will Never Forget My 25th Birthday (Part 1)

I just want to let you know that  tomorrow at 6AM, I will be uploading a Christmas poem so make sure to check that out. On Monday December 3, I will upload the answers to the riddle I posted yesterday Who Can Solve This Riddle? and it’s an interesting riddle. For those you that watched Nickelodeon as kid, you might be able to solve my riddle.  I just want to thank all of my followers and God bless you all.  Before reading my story, I will advise for the ones that don’t know me to read Who Am I? to understand what type of person that  I am and I think that will help you make sense of this story. If you have any questions about the story below please comment below

 

 

I will never forget my 25th birthday. 2014 – 2015 I was going through depression. In October 2014, was the first time I got my feelings hurt and went through serve depression and it was over a girl I use to date. But I might as well start from the beginning and this is a long blog just to give you a warning.
Now in October 2014, that was the year that I had lost my great grandmother and also the year that I have lost the love of my love. Now I will admit, it was mostly my fault in which why things ended between us but I had good reasons into which why I broke up with her. 1) because I didn’t want to get her pregnant and 2) I felt like like she wasn’t really into to me like she said she was. So anyway to continue, we broke up but remained friends. While we remained friends, I still had strong feelings for and deep down wanted to be with her but still was satisfied with being friends with her. Throughout the friendship from December 2014 until July 2015, I received nothing but mixed signals from this girl. At first I feel like she wanted to be with me, but then on other days I felt like she wanted nothing to do with me. I am going to talk about all the bullshit I went through for 7 months.
In December 2014 me and my ex was texting. Now my dad told me that he was going away for 3 weeks. So I told my ex, I am happy because I will have the house to myself for 3 weeks. Her exact words were “Nice and you better invite me over to your house”.
I responded “lol nah you can’t”. She responded “Why not lol?” Now at the time I was naive and I thought alright maybe she does wanna come over. So fast forward 2 weeks later on New Years Eve I texted her ” Since you off tomorrow do wanna come over?
She said ” What time?”
I said “At 2, but it don’t matter what time.”
She said “She said well if it don’t matter the time, then I will let you know.” Now in the back off my mind I felt like she didn’t wanna come over because if she really did then she just would of said yes. Next day comes by and I didn’t hear from her. I wished her Happy New Year and she wished me Happy New Year and she never even mentioned come over to my place or anything. So I assumed she was hoping that I didn’t bring it up or hoping I forgot about inviting her over. Even though in the back of my mind I knew she was avoiding coming over to my house, I didn’t make it a big deal though,I let it slide becuase I figured maybe it wasn’t best that we have sex anyway since we just friends.
Fast forward to February 2015, so me and my ex were still friends texting on a regular basis. I wanted to hang out with her before school started in March. So  we were on the phone talking and it was a Sunday. Over the phone, I asked her “Since I’m going back to school soon and I’m gonna be really busy do you wanna hang out this Friday ?” She was hesitant and said “I’ll let you know” So now in my head I’m like wtf like it’s either yes or no you know if you free on Friday or not. So we texted throughout out the week. Now Friday comes and for second I thought about asking her again if she was free for Friday, but then I’m like nah, she said she would let me know so the ball is in her court. So we texted throughout Friday and she never mentioned or got back to me about hanging out for Friday. So now I got a little irritated. So what I did was I purposely waited until two days to bring up the issue. You see, what she was doing was she she says”I’ll let you know” because she really don’t have interest in hanging out with me but she don’t wanna be straight forward she rather string me along. So I decided wait two days because I knew she was hoping I would forget. So two days later which is a Sunday I texted her “You never got back to me about hanging out on Friday” She says ” I was waiting for you to mentioned it” So I said “When I asked you to hang out and you said you let me know” She said”Oh I did, oh I’m so sorry it’s just that I’ve been stressed out this” basically she was giving me bullshit excuses.
Now let’s fast forward to April 2015. I was texting her and I was a little tipsy. She knew I was tipsy so she ask  me do I still have feelings for her. Now I honestly don’t remember what my response to that question was because this happened like three years ago, but one thing that did cross my mind was the fact that as soon as I told her that I was tipsy then she wanna know if I had still had feelings for her. It’s funny because when you tipsy or drunk that’s when the truth comes out. She thought she was slick lol. But anyway this was when the fast and the furious 7 movie came out and I told to her that I plan on seeing fast and the furious movie and your invited if you want to see it. So basically I was leaving it up to her because I was going to see the movie regardless. So she said that she wanted to see it. So I said to her well alright just remind me on Saturday so I won’t forget. I purposely said that to leave the ball in her court because I’m not really trying to chase after nobody too hard. On Saturday surprisingly she texted me ” So we still going to see this movie right?” and I said “yeah “I will pick you up at work.” So I picked her up at work and we go see this movie. The mood was alright for the most part. So after the movie we walking towards my car and I tried to kiss her but she wasn’t feeling the mood. I kissed her for about 5 seconds. I tried to get closer but she stop me, went in the car and closed the door on me. You have no idea how that felt. Like we texted everyday, I was going to church with her family on a regular basis, I would  pick her up from work, and a  week prior she asked me if I still had feelings for her and this is what I get in return. I got pretty pissed off. So on the ride back home it was quiet in the car. I dropped her off home and I was tight. I came to the realization that maybe I should just move on because at this point I felt like there was another guy she was messing with.

I will stop it right here because this is a long story. I know this is confusing and hard to follow and this may seem unorganized but this happened a while ago and I’m trying to remember everything that happened. In case you guys are wondering why I was angry and confused is because throughout the months when my ex and I broke up,  did try to get back with her back in November 2014, but she told me that she needed a break and time to heal because she been heart broken before and I understood that but we agreed that we will remain friends. But as the months went by, I started to think to myself like if she needed time to heal then why are we friends? Either we should just be together or just go our separate ways. I now know that when you  need time to heal from a broken heart you should not remain contact with your ex. For those of you reading this, if you think this is bad, it gets much worst but I will upload the rest of the story next Friday. If any of you are annoyed or pissed off with what was said in this story, I highly recommend you not to read part 2 because it get worst. That’s all I’m gonna say. Part 2 will take place from April 2015 until July 2015 which will lead to my 25th birthday.

How To Please the Ladies

I just want to let you know that on Tuesday I will be uploading my next blog “A challenge in your marriage ” which will talk about a clever way to strengthen your marriage but it will not be easy. Make sure you check that out. I will be posting Tuesday at midnight. I want to thank all my followers that support and take interest my blogs and God bless you all. I hope you enjoy reading this blog. Have a wonderful day â˜ș!

For every man that have a lady

I know you love her
but are you getting bored lately?
Listen to me,
take her out on date
and spray her favorite cologne
on your face.
Go to a classy restaurant
have her  wear a dress
and tell her you admire her shape.
Wear a suit
with some alligator shoes.
Open the car door
and make sure she has leg room.
In the car
tell her you love
the smell of her perfume.
When going inside
the restaurant
open the door for her
and let  her in first.
While waiting to be seated
converse with her
and laugh with her.
Once you are seated
and situated
make sure to be
a gentleman.
Never use your hands
that’s what the knife and fork
is for.
Eat with style
while you flirt with her.
Order some wine
and make a toast to her.
To many more years
and tell her you love her.
You now pay the check
getting ready to leave
and it’s  raining.
She don’t have an
umbrella.
Have her stay in the restaurant
and pull the car to the front
of the restaurant.
Open the car door,
let her in
and let her
listen to whatever she wants.
So finally you made it home
and open her car door
and hold her hand while
leading her to your home.
A quiet night and you two are alone.
Turn on the stero
and play a R &B song.
Ask her if she enjoyed the dinner
and when she speaks,
listen to her.
Then ask her another type
of question.
It can be any type of
question as long as
it’s appropriate
and just think for
a minute
so you can dwell on
how happy and harmonious
the relationship.
Now as she is talking,
cut her off
by going in for a kiss.
Catching her off guard
and being romantic
at close distance,
the women love this.
Slightly touch and caress
but start from the hips.
While doing that
kiss her neck
and just embrace
the sound of her moans
while still listening
to R&B songs.
Tell her that you
love her and tonight you will
open up to her.
Show her that you are a freak
and don’t be afraid to take the lead.
Man up and
rub  and her feet,
but only for a little while.
I’m a tell you a little secret
she been wet for miles
since the resturant.
Give her everything she wants.
She been telling you
all along she want to use
a blindfold.
So out of your
back pocket
pull out the blindfold
and cover her eyes.
Get the rope
from the basement
and tie her hands.
Now slightly and gently
take off her pants,
but do it slightly.
Don’t do it fast,
don’t act like a rookie.
Take her panties off
and finger the cookie.
Use two fingers and
finger her deeply
like a ‘come here motion’
to stimulate the g spot.
She is begging you
not to
stop.
Now ask her
“Are you ready for me
to eat the box?”
She says oh yes please
do me now!
So now guess what you do now?
You tell her to hold on
you going to get the
whoop cream.
She says  hurry please.
But forget all that,
leave her like that
to suffer
Go to your room and go on Xbox live
and play NBA 2k live
and leave her there for hours.
Then text that you love her
and happy anniversary.
This right here  my friends
is how you please the ladies
Tease them
until you don’t need them.

Please comment below and tell me how you would love

to have a anniversary date like this â˜șâ˜ș with your significant other. I challenge all the men to try this

This Is For The White Women 

Before you began to read this poem, I just want to say that I wrote a blog two days ago Solve The Riddle And Fill In The Blanks. If you interested in solving my puzzle to complete my poem then go to my “Solve My Riddle And Fill In The Blanks” post and see if you can fill in the seven blanks to complete my poem. On Monday I will reblog the poem with the answers to the blanks. So come and help me solve my puzzle. If you get at least one answer right, I will personally reblog a post on your blog and I will write a mini poem giving you a shout out. Do you think you can solve it?

Enjoy reading this poem

I’m a black man
that love women

of all races.

Just like black women 

I am too obsessed.                                       

with white women.

My world mixed with
there’s.
Let’s share.
Let me sex you
right.
I wanna play
In the snow tonight.

Give you
a blizzard because
you will receive alot
of inches tonight.
Give it to
you rough.
You can handle
the sex I’m providing
as your all over
my back scratching.
Pull your
hair
and slap your ass.
I will
sex you anywhere
Let’s make it fast.
A quickie anywhere.
You appreciate real men
like myself.
I appreciate you too.
I don’t care what others
have to say
This between me and you.
Travel the world.
Live free girl.
Racism in America
don’t have to
stop us from
being together.

We can handle
any storm
no matter the weather.
I’m your Derrick
and your are my Sarah.
I will save the last dance
for you
and we can dance forever
.

Slow dance and slowly move
to the beat.
I’m obessed with you skin color
and it’s white like a person
who takes good care of their teeth
.

Let’s not keep our relationship discrete.
Ignore the jealousy
from others
because you are my everything.
We are both different colors
but we are  created by equal
by God Alimghty.
We are look alike in God’s image.
You are my strength
I’m your Popeye
after he eats  the spinach
.

Or I can be your fried chicken
with dark meat
similar to fried chicken
with white meat
even though they look different.
But it don’t matter
All chicken are a good source of protein
.

I supply our relationship  with the protein
to keep it healthy.
Let’s go to a black church  on Sunday
and sit right next to me
to show the members
that black and white are united together.
Let’s go to the alter
and worship together
and get anointed with oil
by the pastor.
Demonstrate courage and equality
in the society
and pass it on to the members
that black and white are united together.
Let’s go to a white church the following Sunday
and sit right next to me
to show the members
that black and white are united together.
Let’s go to the alter
and worship together
and get anointed with oil
by the pastor.
Demonstrate courage and equality
in the society
and pass it on the members
that black and white are united together.
White is beautiful like Cinderella
and you skin is smooth like
the coat that’s on Cruella
.

I’m Pongo and your Perdita
white skin and black spots
We are Dalmatians
and we will produce
lovely mixed children
.

To all the white women reading this
I wrote this for you.
You are beautiful and it’s unbelievable
and this is coming from a black dude.
I love black women too I really do
but I love white women too.
I want to learn more about you
and I want white women to learn about
black men too
There are black men that will
go above and beyond to protect you
and pray for you.
Don’t fear us, alot of us are peaceful.
Black men are the seven dwarfs and we will
rescue you
from evil.
There are demons and witches that follow the devil
and he wants to keep us separated and sergerted.
But  accepting God is the way to enter the kingdom of heaven
It’s written in the bible it’s  not secret.
There are people that are secretly racist
from bith races.
I’m talking about both black and white faces.
When God determines your final destination
do you think he make that decision based
on your face?
He looks in your soul and heart.
Together let’s unite tonight
Read this quote and this was
said by a man that was very smart
and if wasn’t for him where
would we be in life
Read this
“I have a dream that one day my
four little children will one day
live in a nation where they will be
by the color of our skin, but by the
content of their character.”

Do I Perfer Strippers?Women Got Me Fed Up 

Listen to me
I’m not selling a dream
I’m not a company
that sell products
I’m here to tell you
I had enough.
I mean why should
I try?
What’s the point of being nice?
I appreciate them
but they don’t appreciate me
Why can’t you understand me?
I’m done I rather just be single
I done with Christian mingle
or any kind of dating site
I’m headed in a new direction in life.
I thank God for my allowing
my heart to be broken
because now I have access
to many women.
Women are complicated
but strippers are simple
Not looking for commitment
anymore
because I became exhausted
from being ignored.
Tipping the strippers
while I’m getting drunk
and for extra money
I can get a quick fuck
I mean why take a woman
on a date?
Where I can get a stripper
easily that has a nice shape.
Why do I have do to dress up
and impress a woman
where I can pick a stripper
of my choosing.
Spend money on date
where I’m not
gurantee another date
where I can sex from
a stripper as long as I
pay.
The process is simple
just busniess
and I don’t need to meet
her parents or kids.
Oral sex and intercourse
but of course I’ll be protected.
I have no choice.
Strippers aren’t that reckless
they too don’t want any type
of infection.
I met plenty of strippers
a little ratchet they can be
but they accept me easily.
Very friendly and
easy going.
No attitude unlike these
other girls.
Don’t ask for
much unlike these other girls.
With strippers I can
wake up everyday
and be proud becuase
I know for a fact
that I’m not getting cheated on.
Strippers and jerking off to porn
until dawn
while I listen to ratchet songs
I don’t mind being home alone
on A Friday Night.
This is really the life.
I be telling guys all the time
yo don’t sweat no female
 because they give mix signals
that be confusing as  hell.
Strippers are straight to the point.
You ask me why am I acting like
this?
Simple nice guys get dissed
and women chase the men
that treat them like shit.
So now I turn into a piece of shit.
So I guess now I am
in the “Men Are Trash”
category.
Don’t bother me
because I’m still gonna
get p*say.
Listen  I am about
to end this
but what I am going to say to you
is most important and potent.
When you reading this
remember this
I once was a nice guy
maybe a little shy
but I use to be the guy
that would spare a woman’s
 life
The type of guy
that would step front of a bullet
as a scarfice.
I use to love women more
then my own life.
I use to treat them like queens
let then have their
way.
Eventually they use me
and eventually I get played.
They take my kindness
for weakness
leaving me weak
like I caught a disease
So I was the nicest guy
that turned mean.
Being a gentleman
dont’ always get you the p*ssy
sometimes it make you look
like a p*ssy
Believe me.
The guys that act ruthless and mean
usually get the most p*ssy
Now for the women reading this
it’s not all about p*ssy
I swear it’s  not.
But sometimes I been
more than patient
providing love and affection.
I want to commit to you
but you say you gotta to think
about it.
I think shit
what can I do
to prove  to her I’m a gentleman?
So many unanswered question
leaves me in confusion
until I’m draining every ounce
of energy out of me
while you just lying to me
stringing me alone
like a viloin
while fucking a different
man that’s not looking for a commitment
while I put in all that fucking
work to show you I’m different
from other men
and you said yourself
I’m better than all
the other men
from the past.
Fuck this
Fuck commitment
Paying for sex
is my mission.
I jerk off to porn
for the rest of my life
I’ll still get my nut
because you women drive me nuts
Ya women can have the shitty men
because when they break your heart
again and again
I will have the last laugh at the end.

I wrote this poem for all the nice men that get taken advantage of.
Just like women, men get heartbroken too.
There are alot of men that are trash but let me tell you something, alot of men that are trash were once good men. Men that actually respect women and would do anything to make a woman happy. But guess what, when we  act nice and act like a gentleman, some women will take our kindness for weakness. When I wrote this, I was describing how I was feeling when I got heartbroken. I’m not gonna lie, I was angry and it changed me. Can’t lie I was so broken and angry I almost had a grudge towards all women. So every word I wrote is exactly how I felt. At one point I thought women were the problem. I thought women were the sneaky ones. I thought women played too many games and it wasn’t worth it to treat them good. I thought marrige and having a family was a waste of time. But I was hurt. As time move on, I started  healing more and more. I realized that everybody get hurt. We all hurt people because we been hurt and we take it out on everbody else. It took me a while to realize that there are good women(not many)that appericate good men and it’s wrong to hold every woman accountable for what one girl did. A heart break will change you.


My Personal Thoughts On Cheating

This is not a poem becuase I wrote a poem “Who Cheats More Men Or Women?“about cheating already. This post is  sharing a page in my journal and in this journal, I will discuss my opinion on cheating. This blog is very long so if cheating is a topic you are not interested in, then you may want to exit this blog because you probably will get bored reading this. I didn’t plan on writing a blog about cheating but after reading a blog yesterday about cheating, I had  thoughts on my own about cheating. 

For some reason, I really am trying to understand why people cheat on their spouse/signficant other. For those of you that read my “Who Am I” post some if you already know that I am an over thinker and cheating is one of those topics where I really over think. Since I’ve been blogging for the past two months, I’ve came across alot of blogs on failed relationship stories, heartbreak stories, and cheating stories. In this blog, I will discuss and breakdown cheating in different ways.

    Now why do people cheat? So many different ways I can break this down. So many ways to look at this. People are like snowflakes, no two people are alike. We all unique in our own way. Everybody comes across different situations along their path so the outcome of a bad situation will be either a good one or a bad one. But what are some of the common  reasons why people cheat? People will cheat when they feel neglected from their partner which leads to loneliness. People will cheat because they are taking advantage of their partners trust. People will cheat becuase they are pressured from their peers to do so. People will cheat becuase the relationship is long distance and they know for fact they can get away with it becuase their partner is like 75 miles away. But a very common reason why people cheat is becuase of sex. Sex is powerful. For the love sex is the root of evil just like money. Sex is almost as powerful as money. Money too will make person cheat.
“I seen wives turn whore for the right man” quoted by Tsu Surf (for those of you that don’t know, Tsu Surf is a battle rapper). When I think of this quote, automatically money and sex comes to mind. I really believe the two most important reasons why people cheat is becuase of sex and money. Last but not least, another very common reason why people cheat is becuase people can’t let go of the past. This reason I will discuss in detail in the second to last paragraph of this blog.

   Now I am going to talk about why people cheat. Well first of all, men and women cheat for different reasons. Many people believe men cheat more than women. I feel like when a man cheats, he is automically placed in the “Men Are Trash” category but why is that? When women cheat it’s a different story. I’m not saying that people are accepting women cheating, I’m not saying that at all but when women cheat, alot of times people will say ” She was wrong for cheating but she should at least picked  a random guy instead of her boyfriends brother” or “Well she was wrong to cheat but you can’t judge becuase you don’t know the whole story.” Now why is it different when a woman cheats?

First of all let’s talk about cheating men. I am a man so this will be easier to talk about. It’s simple, men glorify other men cheating. For some reason, when a man treats his wife/girlfriend like a queen, sometimes other men will bash him calling him pussy whipped. He looks like a sucka among other men. In the previous paragraph I stated that sometimes people are pressured to cheat from their peers. This is common with men. I’m going to tell you a quick short story. There was a guy I use to work with who was faithful in his marrige. He told me and the other male co-workers about how he was at a bar and he was approached by a young sexy girl in her early twenties on Halloween. She was giving obvious clues that she was into to him and she asked him ” What are doing later on tonight and can I have your number?” His response was “I’m sorry but I am happily married.” When he told us that, alot of the male co-workers were laughing at him. Their response was ” Yo you did some sucka  shit. Why the fuck did you tell us that? Yo for now on, I’m going to call you ‘Theodore Huxtable’.” To myself I’m thinking like “Why are they laughing at him, he did the right thing? He choose to faithful to his wife.” On top of that, him and his wife were having problems but yet he choose to remain faithful. I brought this story up to show you an example of how men being faithful are looked upon as soft or weak men . So sometimes men will cheat to  for the respect and positive attention he will get from his male friends. Another reason why  men cheat is becuase of sex. Sometimes men get bored of having sex with the same person. Sometimes men are addicted to girls that are promiscuous. Sometimes men just addicted to busting an nut(ejaculating) in whoever by any means neccessary. Another quick story I will discuss.

I don’t know this guy   personally but a friend of mine use to be friends with this girl that was a little on the promiscuous side. This girl was engaged to this guy and she was in love with him. But things went sour when the guy got her pregnant. He pressured her to get an abortion. She didn’t want to but she gave in. After she got an abortion, the guy broke up with her. He broke her heart in a million pieces. She lost the love of her life and a baby. Fast forward a year later the same guy that broke this girl’s heart had a new girlfriend. But even though  he had a new girlfriend, he still remained in contact with his ex fiance and eventually he started cheating on  his new  girlfriend with his ex fiance. What made this really bad was, when he was cheating, he wasn’t wearing any protection. In my opinion I think he cheated becuase the sex was probably better with his ex fiance then with new girlfriend and he was addicted to the sex , I believe he was taking  advantage of his ex fiance promiscuous ways  becuase he knew he can get it any time, and he didn’t plan on leaving his new girlfriend so he probably figured he can have sex with his ex fiance for the time being even but since  didn’t plan on getting back with her and loved his current girlfriend he probably figured in selfish that he wasn’t doing nobody no harm. So this story is an example of how powerful sex can be. Good sex lead to cheating. Another thing that’s common in men unlike women is that a man could love his wife and kids with all his heart, never have plans of leaving his wife but will still have sex with numerous women. Prime example of this, look at the movie “Baby Boy”.

   Now let’s talk about cheating women. Unlike men,  majority of the time women cheat when they are not sastfied with the relationship. Some women want money, some women want male company, some women want spectacular  sex, some want all three and probably more  Men usually tend to only put forth the effort to make a relationship strong and healthy in the beginning. Once he gets comfortable(another words once he gets the p*ssy) he will gradually decrease putting forth the effort(especially if he knows he hittin the p*ssy good). Women love good sex but after a while women will feel like the sex is becoming reduant. I believe good sex will make the average woman patient towards men that don’t put forth the effort but after a while women will get fed up. So sometimes when women get fed up they have 2 options, either break up or cheat. A select few will break up but majority will cheat but alot times cheating is not intentional. Women get approached more often then men do so in my opinion, it’s easier for a woman to cheat. Most women don’t wake up and say “Hey I am going to cheat on my man today”, cheating is a bad decision that usually is made when a person is at the wrong place at the wrong time. Another common reason why women cheat is  they secretly still have feelings for their ex.

       Half of the time when women cheat, they will cheat on their current partner with their Ex from the past. I believe that most women have that one guy in the past that they can’t seem to let go no matter how hard they try.  Being stuck over an ex is like being addicted to an fatal attraction because most likely her ex is usually an asshole that treats her like shit. For the men that’s reading this, do you ever wonder why do women seem to go back to the same no good men that treats them like shit? Well it could be that she is in love with him and can’t let him go. It could be maybe because he has money and just only interested in the money. She could be lonely and is afraid of being single or it could be possession where she doesn’t want nobody to have him. All of these reasons are common reasons why people go back their Ex but another common reason in which people don’t bring up is  sex. What I’m about to say is something I think the average women would agree which is,  it’s not hard to find good sex but it’s rare to find a guy that’s spectacular in the sex department. I’m talking about the perfect size penis, big and thick but not too big, nice lips, nice body, very good with hands, very experienced, able to last a long time without cuming, knowing when to go back and forth between short and deep strokes without having to tell him. The type of guy that possess theses qualities in the bedroom are hard to find and if the average girl find him, she don’t want to let him go. Women do love spectacular sex, but the problem is the men that are very skilled in the bedroom are usually(not all) shitty men, assholes, douche bags, etc because they only have sex to offer in a relationship and nothing else. So this makes women very frustrated because even though women love sex they do want to feel appreciated. Now those you of reading this, are wondering what does this have to do with cheating? I will explain.  If sex is all a man has to offer then this can cause alot of problems. Now for the women reading this, have you ever had a boyfriend that you argued with all the time and you knew the relationship was unhealthy and you would leave him but after a couple of weeks past you end up going back to him? If you did go back to him, was one of the reasons going back to him was because the sex was spectacular? After breaking up with your ex, have you ever quickly jumped into another relationship to help you move on? When you got your new boyfriend, was you happy or was you starting to miss your ex boyfriend twice as much? If you was missing your ex boyfriend what was it about your ex boyfriend that you was missing? All these questions that I’m asking one after another do you see where I’m going with this?

Women(as well as men) will sometimes search for a new soulmate when heartbroken just to be happy again. They think finding a new boyfriend is their escape from the past. But 95% of the time when your heartbroken it’s because you still in love with your ex so your ex will be on your mind constantly. So because of this, women will compare their current boyfriend to their ex in every area and it will be almost impossible  for the current boyfriend or any guy for that matter to compete with the ex.   
So now all it takes is a phone call or text from your ex for her to cheat. After that one phone call or text, she will start to miss him more and more. More than likely  the no good ex will sweet talk her feeding her bullshit lies talking about he miss her and he wanna see her again. Now she will play hard to get and act she don’ t miss him telling him she’s found a new man  but the ex could see right through that bullshit lie and will use charm and persuade her more and more. The more he persuade her, the harder it is for her to resist until she finally gives in and meet up with him. In her mind she thinking “We just gonna talk for a half an hour and that’s it.”  Once they meet up, she will be a little hesitant and nervous because deep down she misses him but yet still don’t want to make it obvious. The ex will try his best to make her comfortable and he will move closer so he can make his move. Slightly touching her, complimenting her on her looks which makes her so  vulnerable to the point that sex is on her mind. She will remember all the times her and the ex had sex in the past and how good and experienced he was. Sex will began to conquer her mind and control her body making her horny tricking her into thinking that no man can ever compete with her ex. She is now stepping back in familiar territory and she has now found her comfort zone. The ex will read her body language and take advantage and make his move. All it takes is one kiss. Once the ex kisses her, 9/10 times she will completely give in and stop resisting which leads to cheating. More than likely she will have sex with her ex and realize that maybe she can work things out with her ex. Great sex will change a person’s mind in a heartbeat. What I just explained is a very common reason in which why  women cheat but I feel like most people don’t bring this up or don’t want to admit it.
        I’m going to summarize this blog and talk about how to avoid cheating. Alot people automically assume if you cheat you trash. On Twitter every I’m reading a tweet about your automically trash if you cheated. Everybody on Twitter swear they are loyal. I’m gonna tell you this, most people cheated at least once but most won’t admit it. The ones that didn’t cheat sone of them haven’t been in a situation where they had the option to cheat. It’s easy to avoid cheating when your approached by somebody you have no feelings or attraction for. But once your in a situation where your approached by someone your attracted to or started developing  feelings for, is it really easy to avoid cheating? Cheating is dead wrong never an excuse regardless but it’s not always easy to resist. Also people need to stop judging people. If someone cheated and you don’t know the whole story or situation, then you can’t automically assume the cheater is a piece of shit. Get the facts first before you determine that. There are a select few of people that never have and never will cheat no matter what. For those of you that avoided cheating (especially when the person was attractive) you definitely have my highest respect.  For those that find it hard to resist cheating, well here some tips to help you stay faithful

1.  Don’t be selfish breakup and move on if your unhappy in your relationship
2. Never let your peers pressure you to cheat because if you cheat and you get caught and your signficant other leaves you, those same  peers of yours that encourage you to cheat will not be there to support you
3. If you still have feelings for your ex, do not get into a new relationship until you are completely over your ex.
4. Once you break up with your ex, delete his/her number and move on. Don’t answer their phone calls.
5. Don’t cheat if the sex is wack. Communicate with your partner and try to work with your partner. If the sex doesn’t improve at all then you break up with your partner, not cheat. To be honest I don’t even think that wack sex is a good reason to breakup with your partner but it’s better than cheating
6.Now sometimes cheating does happen on spur of the moment and if it does, at least wear a condom. The worst thing is to have an affair and not wear a condom.

I will repeat this, cheating is wrong no matter the situation. If you got cheated on, don’t ever give your signficant other that cheated on you a second chance. Cheating is wrong but some cheaters are worst than others and sometimes when we don’t make scarfices or put fourth the effort in a relationship to make our signficant other happy, you can lead your signficant other to cheat. We all want happiness but some of us just look for happiness in the wrong place at the wrong time.