My First Open Mic Experience

Last year in June 24, 2018, I went to an poetry open mic night at the bowery club in NYC to recite “Should I Go To An Open Mic“. It was such a lovely and yet nerve wrecking experience. I have always hated public speaking(especially when my family is around) but I had a few reasons why I decided to overcome my fear and go to the bowery club

Reasons I decided to overcome my fear

1) I was procrastinating for 2 years and being lazy

2) The weekend of June 24 was birthday weekend

3) I need to branch out more and let people hear my poems.

Reasons Why I Was Nervous

1) It was my first time ever performing at an open mic event and I had doubts I wouldn’t be good enough

2) My girlfriend volunteered to come with me to show support and I really wanted to go alone lol.

How I felt After I recited my poem

1) I felt like a super standing when I got a big round of applause from everbody

2) I realized that performing at an open mic event is nothing to be nerevous about.

3) I became more motivated to improve my writing skilss as a poet.

Moral of this post is to let everbody reading this to know that being nervous is nomral. It’s normal to to have doubts. Sometimes we might procrastinate. Sometimes we might make excuses to get out of things. Nobody is perfect but if you really have a dream, don’t nobody stop you from achieving it. Fight your negative thinking and don’t be afraid to fail because being afraid to fail and living in fear could make you regretful for missing out on an life time opportunity.

To Tiffanee:

I don’t know if you will ever read this or not, but I just want to say thank you coming with me to my first open mic experience and supporting me. I thank you for celebrating my birthday last year and being in the crowd, being my biggest cheerleader. Ever since I met you, you always believed in me and saw the best in me. I am here to let you know that because of you I am working harder than ever to accomplish all my dreams and be a provider for you. I love you so much 😁😁

If You Was An Animal, What Would You Be?

Full of patience

I wish for a lifespan

that extends

like Great Wall of China.

I pray for mental endurance

to keep my mind healthy

like a ocean.

I’m 1 out of 1000

and luck is my blessing.

I don’t drown, I’m swimming

towards a greater blessing.

Learning to slow down

and smell roses.

Learning to represent peace

while expressing deep emotions.

Strength and determination

to overcome every obstacle

and every challenege.

I carry the world on my shoulders

but my neck has the strength

of a mountain boulder.

Weather gets colder

but mind yet choose

to become wiser.

Been identified as being deep

like the sea.

If you was an animal, what would you be?

True Love Is Scarfice

Check out this post  ” A heart for God”   because this post is powerful and it encouraged me to write this poem in the comment section.

 

Being romantic and doing nice things can be a disguise
since it doesn’t guarantee love all the time.
But it can be all lies disguising negative energy as positive energy.
When we lack money or have empty bellies,
we fall victim to bullies that work for the serpent
that use tactics to kill you with kindness.
They shine a light when you are living in darkness.
But the problem is the light is to bright
you have to cover your eyes and now walking blind.
They telling you and promising you all types of romantic surprises
telling you want you wanna hear.
Act friendly and sometimes volunteer
a helping hand when its to their benefits
but turn into a completely different person
when scarfices arises then promises turn into excuses.
Left you to dry struggling.
Now feel abandoned.
Tears are leaking, heart is broken,
for feeling stupid
for following bullies that follow the serpent.
If you are reading this and this poem is relatable to you
read this post and know that this was meant for you
because nobody loves you more than Jesus
So before you follow a stranger you don’t know,
think about the consequences and always pray to Jesus
because Jesus made a scarfice
that no human will ever have the strength to make.
Promises break and humans constantly demonstrate their true ways
when they are face with a sacrifice that they don’t want to make.
So moral of this is, Jesus is the way
to paradise.
Jesus love you so much that if you follow him
he will provide eternal life.
So another words this is relatable to your life
because love is more than romance
true love is about sacrifice.

 

Be sure to catch tomorrows post “I am in Love With My Seductive Next Door Neighbor(Part 2)” but please please read  Part 1

After tomorrow , it might be awhile until I upload my next post so I will be taking a short break after tomorrow so after tomorrow I will see you guys in

 

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April 

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I am brave like a knight

for not being afraid

to walk the streets at night.

My best friend “Corey White”

loves to wear white.

I prefer black because

white gets dirty early.

My other friend “Earle Lee”

is trying to accomplish his dreams

like he is Martin,

but my other friend “Lawrence”

resembles the celebrity “Larenz Tate”

and thinks negative like the charge of electrons.

Gotta get him to come outta his shell

like he is a valence electron.

The day that happens, that moment

would be shocking like electric.

My other friend “Carmen”

loves southpark and her favorite character

is Eric Cartman

because he is off the wall like Denis Rodman

and Carmen will defend for her friends like Pippen

and my Scottie dog as well come to my friends defense

like an American army in ww2 helping Russia.

Plus as man I have girlfriend, I am gentle with her and I never try to rush her.

In the morning with her hands, she feels my Woodie poking through my sweats

and now she feels horny

and the mood is intense like a setting in a erotic story.

I’m excited like Andy playing with my Woodie.

I pull out the sex toys

but she grabbing the head of my penis

screaming out “fuck me”

I am gentle with her as she catch the strokes.

Rub her breast and I lightly start to choke

her as I pick up the speed of my strokes.

Giving her a workout, I’m sweating and the sweat from my forehead drips

all the way down to my sweats.

Her legs up in the air

while I’m whispering in her ear,

talking dirty while giving up

full custody of my kids

and I felt like a shitty parent

for being an alcoholic

instead of taking care of my kids.

Now I know about 90% of you reading this are confused or felt like you wasted your time reading this. Well you are lucky because I was going to make a riddle where I was going to make you fill in the blanks lol

But anyways this poem is a short story of me describing my four friends, my dog, and my girlfriend.

With my four friends and my dog, I’m either using a double entendre describing either their personality or their interest in things. With my girlfriend, I’m describing our sex scene between us using double entendres.

Now the way you must read this poem, every line connects with the line before and the line after one way or another but that’s on you to figure out. 🤔🤔

What is a Double Entendre

A double entendre is a literary device that can be defined as a phrase or a figure of speech that might have multiple senses, interpretations, or two different meanings, or which might be understood in two different ways.

Some examples of a double entendre

1)”My girlfriend knows not to ask me for a penny since I’m broke so a sniff of my cologne is the only way she will get a scent from me.

What does this mean? Scent means smell but as well scent and cent has the same sound so since I don’t have a penny maybe she can sniff my cologne because thats how she can get a scent from me. Remember a ” scent” and a “cent” is pronounced using the same sound.

2)”I told my girlfriend that salad is healthy so I will always eat it and I will never toss it.”

What does this mean? I love salad and salad is healthy so I’m talking about how I will never toss it in the garbage and as well I’m talking about how I will never eat my girlfriend’s ass all in the same line. Remember, toss the salad means to eat ass.

3)”My girlfriend wanna play tag but I am too tired and full to chase her since I just drank some hard liquor without a chaser.”

What does this mean? I just drank some liquor straight without a chaser. I didn’t add no pepsi, tropical juice which are examples of chasers. So the hard liquor got me drunk faster and I become to dizzy and sluggish to play tag and chase her. Remember the keywords “chase” and her” are only 1 syllable so I combined them and together made a 2 syllable word “chaser” .

4)”My girlfriend battle raps but I told her not to battle Remy Ma because Remy Ma will end my girlfriend’s career like Ja Rule’s and Remy Ma is willing to destroy it for only 50 cent

What does this mean? Remy Ma will destroy my girlfriend in a battle rap competition for only 50 cent. I use “50 cent” on purpose because 50 cent is all the money Remy Ma needs to battle and 50 cent is the rapper that destroyed Ja Rules career. Remember 50 cent in this line is refereed to as money and as a rapper.

Okay so now that you know what a double entendre is, re read the poem below slowly and see if you can make the connections.

I am brave like a knight

for not being afraid

to walk the streets at night.

My best friend “Corey White”

loves to wear white.

I prefer black because

white gets dirty early.

My other friend “Earle Lee”

is trying to accomplish his dreams

like he is Martin

but my other friend “Lawrence”

resembles the celebrity Larenz Tate

and thinks negative like the charge of electrons.

Gotta get him to come outta his shell

like he is a valence electron.

The day that happens, that moment

would be shocking like electric.

My other friend “Carmen”

loves southpark and her favorite character

is Eric Cartman

because he is off the wall like Denis Rodman

and Carmen will defend for her friends like Pippen

and my Scottie dog as well come to my friends defense

like an American army in ww2 helping Russia.

Plus as man I have girlfriend, I am gentle with her and I never try to rush her.

In the morning with her hands,she feels my Woodie poking through my sweats

and now she feels horny

and the mood is intense like a setting in a erotic story.

I’m excited like Andy playing with my Woodie.

I pull out the sex toys

but she grabbing the head of my penis

screaming out “fuck me”

I am gentle with her as she catch the strokes.

Rub her breast and I lightly start to choke

her as I pick up the speed of my strokes.

Giving her a workout I’m sweating and the sweat from my forehead drips

all the way down to my sweats.

Her legs up in the air

while I’m whispering in her ear,

talking dirty while giving up

full custody of my kids

and I felt like a shitty parent

for being an alcoholic

instead of taking care of my kids

Can you figure out what I mean by this line

“talking dirty while giving up

full custody of my kids

and I felt like a shitty parent

for being an alcoholic

instead of taking care of my kids”

This might be the most difficult line in the poem so comment below and tell me if you know what this means. I give you a hint, you might to use urban dictionary to figure the line out. If you figure it out, comment below what it means!

Also, for those of you that are lost and still don’t have a clue, just leave me a comment saying you need help and on my next post, I will upload a sound cloud recording break down this poem line by line.

For those of you that are double entendre experts lol, write me a difficult double entendre in the comment section for me to figure out 😎

Have A Good Night And Please Rate This Poem

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Valentine’s Day Poem

Watch this video first before reading the rest of this post! This is a good video to watch on Valentine’s Day!

This one is for all the bloggers on wordpress. I dedicate this poem to every blogger because it takes hardwork ,dedication, passion to blog. Blogging by any means is not easy. Staying up late night, thinking of ways to improve your blog, figuring out how to relate to bloggers, trying to be creative. Some of you may relate, but blogging can be an addiction when trying so hard relating to others. Comparing to other blogs and feeling like your blog isn’t good enough. Sometimes you want to give up blogging. Or you could be in the position where blogging is the only time you feel at peace because you are depressed in life. I read a lot of depressing, heartbroken blogs. To those of you that are miserable in life but still continue to blog, keep writing because I am here to support and provide feedback and I love your work. Never be afraid to express yourself because I always love to hear what’s in a person mind and heart. For those of you that know me, Ya know I don’t give a fuck, I wrote some of the darkest shit such as rape, murder, suicide, heartbreaks, perverted shit, sex poems, poverty, rage, and hate. I won’t lie to you, my dark poems is reality. This is the stuff that goes on in my head but you know what though, I’m not afraid to talk about it because no matter how hard my life gets, I love God and when I think of Valentine’s Day, I think of God. God is more powerful than anything.

The lord is love

Power from above

Is enough

And more powerful

than 1000 hugs.

I almost shed tears

When seeking 2 love birds

Appear

On my WordPress

Madly in love.

Marriage and relationships

Is always tough.

Times get rough.

Arguments are always guaranteed.

Sometimes we don’t always think

Before we speak.

We hurt feelings

We cause problems

But only a few create solutions

Solutions rise above

And problems fall at the bottom.

Prior to 2018,

I never gave a fuck about Valentine’s Day

But I am more mature today.

Valentine’s Day is not about money and materialistic things.

It’s about celebrating friends and family.

I am not affectionate

but I have a girlfriend and I love her dearly.

After viewing some of the lovely Valentine’s day posts

About spouses and significant others

I just want to tell Tiffanee

That I love her dearly.

I will do whatever I got to do

To protect her from everything.

I know that sounds impossible

I will damn sure make the impossible, possible.

I love you and I always will.

For my long term bloggers that been following me

Since day 1,

You know that I write some very dark shit.
I admit my mind can travel in dark places

And I can get very personal

But I have a big heart

And I love each and every one of you

For supporting me.

Ya give me the strength to write.

Ya give me the strength to fight.

Ya give me the strength to be a better poet.

Ya give me the strength to expose dark places.

In my mind.

I’m one of a kind

And one day when I shine

I will never forget my followers.

Each and every one of you deserves flowers.

For my male followers that have wives/girlfriends,

Treat your lady like

The way you want your daughter to be treated.

Protect her and be a leader and provider.

Tell her why you fell in love with her.

Tell her that you will always love her.

For my female followers that have husbands/boyfriends

Treat your man like

How you want your son to be treated.

Support him and appreciate him for being a provider.

Being a man that’s a provider and protector

Is a big responsibility

so be his helper and help him lead.

To all the single people,

Love don’t come from a relationship.

Love is provided to from Jesus

A significant other is not needed

For happiness.

I want single women to love themselves

And impress and spoil themselves.

Stop settling for situationships

From men that use devious tactics

And false disguises

Pretending to have feelings

when in reality treat your vagina

like an inmate that’s state property.

I want single men

To not let women with extreme high standards

Make you feel less like a man.

You are a man

And focus on your plan.

Don’t let pussy be a distraction

And stop letting women trick you into tricking

If you and her are not committed.

Because money attracts

But true love slowly contracts

The love that gives roots towards evil

True love is plentiful.

To everybody reading this

God bless you

And I love you!

My next post will be poem called “My Seductive Next Door Neighbor” and I looking to upload this by Sunday or Monday

Poetry Saved My Life

Haven’t wrote a deep poem in a minute.
Got me in the zone while listening to music.
I have these emotions and gotta express it.
More than a poem, I’m lonely and desperate.
This like a movie, based on a true life story.

I’m in search of the perfect poem and words form
This was written before I wrote it, daydreaming in the zone.
Racing with time and this poem fell in my lap.
Losing the race ,the dust particles landing on my face.
Eager to hustle, but forced to struggle.
Regrets, I have everyday of my life.
Poetry is my life when I lose the fight
of my real life battles.
War zone in my mind and this poem is a bloody towel
that wipes the flood of the fluid that keeps the heart pumping.
War zone in my mind and this poem is a band aide that cover the scar and keep the skin healing.
This poem saved my life, damn near close to suicide.
The fear of hell kept my soul from being sent to the ground
I was saved like money in a savings account
Life is bitter like hard liquor, but this poem is a chaser and it chased my liquor
Now life sweet like tropical juice and it respected me and influenced me
to write this poem since everything in my heart
now feels right.
Negative thoughts now get left and I move
toward the right
Towards my life goals and the demons trip
while trying to catch the soccer ball.

Single Mother

Whispering in your ear, the minute we open the double doors

Finger you in the theater, drop the panties to the floor

I beat it hard like its drumline, Nick Cannon in the front row

Cocky attitude, can’t read, and yet hitting it like a pro

I never look down, my strokes are profound,

cover your mouth so you don’t make a sound,

bitting your lip, pound after pound

Hardcore and you feel it deep in the core.

Calling me daddy, like Eddie Murphy on Daddy day care.

Irnoically I will take care of your body as I’m pulling your hair.

I’m telling you keep you voice low, don’t want nobody to hear.

Grinding and I be lying if I said I wasn’t in my feelings.

Every ounce of cum from your pink pussy, I’m feeling.

Pussy pink like the energizer bunny.

Bitting down on your night gown with your two front teeth.

You are so horny it’s actually scary,

I’m dumbfounded like Uncle Phil when conversing with Hillary.

I always had hour power, but you reduced me to a minute man.

Nutting inside you was not part of my plan.

But times up, time for me to scram.

Always remeber, don’t let nobody judge you because you will make a wonderful single mother

and I will love you forever

Prosperity

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Long period of prosperity

will define me

and my poetry

will lead me to safety

and give life eternally

I will suffer now because eventually

I will seek success

before I am put to eternal rest

Poetry is what I love and respect

and it will lead me to prosperity

Poetry will define

my prosperity.

To do what I love

will increase currency.

No rest, no breaks

Be the best, learn from mistakes.

Poetry affects me mentally

Opens me up emotionally

Spoken word is therapy

that subtracts negative energy

and adds prosperity

Is Life More Than We Can Bare?

Laziness

Very contagious

but can’t help it.

Giving me a headache

while struggling to get out the bed

this morning.

Need to be studying

but yet get easily distracted.

2 jobs during the week

plus landscaping on the weekends.

I be so exhausted when the week ends.

The older I get

the more my patience get weaken.

Pressure made me nervous

to the point I feel like living is overrated.

Life is not what it seems

when it’s difficult to accomplish dreams.

Dreams is a star in the sky

that I will never reach.

I tried to concentrate when teachers teach

but success to me is beyond my reach.

Is it because my patience

is too short that’s why I can’t reach?

When I climb the ladder

I am still looking down

Is this why I fell to the ground?

Since I’m on the ground

Should I fight to get back up or just go to sleep

and live inside my dreams

and enjoy like watching a Disney movie

enjoying the fantasy.

So much things I want to accomplish

but so much time and effort

to be put in

I am only human

Is living in the world

beyond the human comprehension?

Beyond our level?

Living in this world

is like putting a first grader

in a fourth grade class

and expect him to have

a fourth grade reading level.

Is this why he struggle.

We are handle situations

too difficult and in life

we are tested then

learn the lesson later and I keep failing

falling harder.

Do you see why I’m so bitter?

Life is my enemy

that I want to conquer

but I have a war in my mind

I’m having a 2 front war.

Twice the energy wasted

which result me in having headaches.

Struggling to keep up

like a short man dancing wit a taller girl