Determine Your Destiny By Controlling The Mind

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I am the master of my own mind.

I am disciplined

Keeping my thoughts in line

like students in the hallways

or like soldiers on the battlefield.

I take deep breaths

to give each thought space

to constantly build them into shape.

Thoughts run like water down the sink drain

Sometimes I may speak soft and gentle

Sometimes I may speak loud and complain.

But as you listen to me

don’t take what I say to you personal

I am just articulating the thoughts running in my brain

How I Really Feel And I Won’t Lie(Part 2)

Before you read this, I highly recommend you ready How I Really Feel And I Won’t Lie first. I share my very personal thoughts in poetry format cut and dry and I don’t give a fuck. Through out this poem, I will have some sentences in bold in this poem because those are the quotes that are most powerful lessons that I learned

I can write for days

while you observe

the pain on my face.

Plus I’m poor

like a report card

with bad grades.

“Myself, I choose to isolate

and use to do it

to keep my heart safe

but it just increased the rage

and I write poetry to release frustration.

to keep my head straight.”

I can snap at any given time

and space

and I’m sure some of you can relate.

I mean how much can a muthfucka take?

It’s sad when you ain’t

comfortable at your home base.

I zone out and stare off into space

wishing somebody else can take my place.

I use to wonder why I never had so many dates?

As I got older, I was like fuck a date,

paying for sex was the way.

For those of you that follow me,

I mentioned this in so many ways.

So many ways I can express my hate.

I hate a person that always thinks he/she right.

Thinking their opinion only matters in life.

I hate a person that’s tight

with money in their hand.

“I know people that will help a stranger

before a family member

or friend.

Loyal to the wrong person

until they are betrayed

and now back to family

they complaining expressing their hurt

and this is how life works,

the ones that don’t have it like that

will give you their last

and the ones that got it like that

are tight with it.”

It hurts because money rules the world.

I said over and over

“Loyalty push to the side when the price is right

and it been like this

way before Bob Barker’s time.”

Judas betrayed Jesus

for 30 silver pieces

way way before social media existed.

“Performing miracles isn’t impressive

because money is the real magic.”

Mind is playing tricks

falling victim to the devil’s wish

selling him your body and soul

and you just became his trick

and he pimps

you out to be worldly.

“Is worshiping God boring?

If the answer is yes

is this the reason

why more people go to hell then heaven?

How can we make worshiping God more exciting?”

Excitement comes three times,

when the dick is hard,

when the pussy is wet,

and when money involved.

Its an addiction we can’t stop.

If money was promised

to every person

that go to church on Sunday,

more people would be worshiping God.

Wouldn’t you agree?

See how this is fake pretending?

People only around to seek cheese

until you speak up and say no.

Behind your back

they make fun of the way you speak

after they take your money.

A few post back I said

“Same niggas they say

“Money over pussy”

put

“Pussy over family””.

Mothers out there fucking their son’s

right hand man to receive money in their hand.

Some mothers fuck for free.

If one of my friends

fucked my mother he dying for free.

“But I don’t have friends,

I have family.

So another words,

never trust a friend

because they can never be family.”

Friends are temporary like the temp agency.

We chase the wrong ones,

chasing the popularity.

“As a kid in high school,

was told talking to bitches

was what make you popular

because niggas want bitches

and bitches want niggas

that are popular

and being around fine bitches

is what make niggas popular.”

“High school is popularity chasing and chasing

something is a full time job

which is time consuming

and chasing too hard for something

will get you nothing”.

“Chasing too hard for something

will have trying

to pretend to be someone you not”.

It will make you look eve more corny.

Like a comedian trying to hard to be funny?

“Sometimes good things will come naturally

but we hate patience with a passion

and this destroys us spiritually

and we disconnect with God

and feel empty

like being in a relationship with somebody

w/o the chemistry.

But we get comfortable in solitary

so avoiding communicating

leads to cheating

and looking over your shoulder

to make sure you don’t get caught.

But we just students and bad experience

is the teacher but some students

don’t listen

so we try avoiding

getting caught

but being lucky isn’t guaranteed”

I will reiterate that

“Sometimes good things will come naturally

but we hate patience with a passion

and this destroys us spiritually

and we disconnect with God

and feel empty

like being in a relationship with somebody

w/o the chemistry.

But we get comfortable in solitary

so avoiding communicating

leads to cheating

and looking over your shoulder

to make sure you don’t get caught.

But we just students and bad experience

is the teacher but some students

don’t listen

so we try avoiding

getting caught

but being lucky isn’t guaranteed”

What is guaranteed?

Taxes, death

but what else is left?

Never guaranteed life

but we guaranteed

we will die the moment

you planted inside a woman.

Not guarantee to see life

some cells never make out the vagina

Some lives die inside but did God do those lives a favor?

Life is not sweet like candy

you’ll either will learn this now or later.

Either way it don’t matter

because I’m still bitter.

This is more than a long poem

I’m expressing true life emotions

and I’m doing ya a favor. I

tell the cold hard truth

and the amount of people that lie

you’ll see that the crowd is wide

like an angle that’s obtuse.

Lies we get so use to

we don’t believe it

when we actually meet a person

that tells the truth.

My poetry might not be great

but it speaks the truth

even if it embarrasses my personality.

So much to say

I have alot to say

I can write for days

while you observe the pain on my face.

My hidden emotions is my excuse

to how I became a talent poet

and I can tell a life story better than fresh prince

But what happens after I finish telling my life experiences?

So my question is, will I have another poem left in me

after this get uploaded?

I will upload a part 3 and maybe a part 4 .

My Purpose

I scrutinize the face and human eyes
and analyze.
Some say I look hypnotized.
I concentrate to see the disgiuse behind
to see if people are mystified.
To see if they provide for what they lack inside.
Skeletons and devils choose to hide.
I verbally don’t express my right
as I watch from the side
and prepare for a plan to lead to their demise.
My lips are sealed but the music amplifies my mind.
I purposely choose to remain shy
but yet mind can be dark like the clouds
in the sky
during a thunderstorm.
I’m unique and I choose not to conform
to the norm in society.
So I constantly keep my mind reformed
and my brain cells is plenty
like the semen that brought me life.
I refuse to allow the world to put me in a frenzy
but like a roof I have moments when I
decline
since procrastination can be deadly
like venom
which spreads becuase of snakes in life,
but I stand tall and fight
and remind myself it’s all mental.
The intellectual process in my mind
in which I describe is clear-sighted.
Well read and intellectually nimble
Some say I’m related to a gerbil.
Non-social but yet curious about my environment
is what the ordinary person is describing
when observing me as a person.
The people in the vicinity is what I’m inspecting.
Jealously and hate I notice and always expecting.
Comprehending the disloyal helps
me to appreciate those that are loyal.
My personality so distinguished
and I learn to relinquish the grip
that made me hate myself.
It’s hard to tell at first
but watch me closely
and you will see I choose to excel.
One step at a time as I inhale and exhale.
Worst feeling is feeling guilty as hell
for failing
when you was trying to do well.
Lord would speak to me through dreams
painting a picture of whales
to expose how I was gifted with intuition and awareness.
My sense of spirituality will overcome darkness
like the light that separates from darkness
for a solution due to the war in heaven.
For every demon, I surround myself with 2 angels.
I live life according to the 2:1 ratio
which God will annihilate the Devil.