Are We Meant To Be Happy?

Why does a heart so warm
can have such a guilty conscience?
Why does the negative
have to outweigh the positive?
Why does the potential
have to become wasted talent?
Why do good people
choose to be dishonest?
Why is it so hard to use logic?
Why can’t we control our emotions?
Why do we achieve accomplishment
after accomplishment
but still feel worthless?
Why do hearts get broken
when we are the ones
that made sacrifices?
Why do we learn the real lesson
after rejection?
Why do a honest mistake need
lots of criticizing?
Why is the demons existing
when we are on our knees
praying?
Why is it when we die,
we take our secrets
instead of exposing it?
Why do employees
provide rude customer service?
Why does a spouse have to go
through a sexless marriage?
Why does masturbation
have to be so addictive?
Why is motivation and subscription
a 1 week vacation and misery is a
lifetime subscription?
Why can’t relatives
we barely hear from
can’t mind their business?
Why is it when we post a blog,
we can’t get comments?
Why do nice men don’t get appreciated
by women?
Why do men fail to protect women by becoming abusive?
Why do we still have sex unprotected
when there are so many diseases?
Why is it when we become teenagers, we
argue with our parents?
Why is it so hard to get the book
that we spent sleepless nights writing
about so hard to get published?
Why do people that quit everything get criticized when quitting is simplistic?
Why is it so hard to take your own advice
but we expect others to listen?
Why is it so hard to follow our passion?
Why is it so hard to be dedicated?
Why are we still having children, when earth is becoming more overpopulated?
Why are so many entry level jobs require years of experience?
Biggest question of all,
Why did Adam and Eve choose to disobey God and listen to the serpeant?
Why are we meant to be happy after reading all of these questions?

If heaven was guaranteed this minute, would you still think life is worth living?

Lessons Learned in my 20’s

I will be turning 30 on June 22nd and I must says my 20’s was my most stressful times. I pray that my 30’s will be a lot better than my 20’s. In this post, I will be making a list of all the tings that I have learned over the past 10 years.

 

Lessons Learned

The top three things, people will judge you by is how much money you make, where you live, and who you having sex with.

  1. What I learned about money is making a lot of money is the goal but saving your money is more impressive because a lot of celebrities that were in their prime in the 80’s and 90’s are broke now.
  2.  Being from the hood don’t make you tough, and being from the suburbs don’t mean your safety is guaranteed at all times. Some neighborhoods are worst than others but crime is everywhere.
  3.  Sex is your personal business, so never volunteer to tell people how many people you have sex with, who you having sex with, and how many one night stands you had. Don’t let other people make you feel guilty about your sex life because most of the time, people that judge you and criticize you are usually jealous of you.

 

Parents and a lot of your elders will tell you that you are too young to be stressed or you don’t know how good you got it.

  1. Nobody loves you like the way your parents do. Your parents are older and wiser than you so you should always respect their advice but you have to do what makes you happy.
  2.  In this generation, it’s harder to find love, the cost of living is more expensive, and the requirements/standards to find entry level jobs are much higher which makes it harder to find good career jobs.
  3. Parents can be the biggest bullies and hypocrites. Parents will try to live through their dreams through their children but all this does is make your children resent you more. Parents should be good parents and treat their kids with respect because your kids might be all you have when you get old.

 

I have always been taught that black people are the most divided race and black people never stick together

  1.  Black people are only noticed for their violence and ignorance, but there are hardworking black people, that find true love, get married, have children and live happily ever after.
  2. Big difference between black people and niggas but every race have the people that demonstrate class and people that demonstrate ignorance. Ignorance is not based on a person’s skin, but on a person’s character.
  3.  Interracial relationships and marriages is a beautiful thing  because I love to see people being happy by following their hearts. So always follow your heart, listen to your mind, and use common sense and you will find the right person.  Never judge a person that dates outside their race and never make a person feel bad for only wanting to date within their race. Love is an emotion without color.

 

Things that I learned in my 20’s that I didn’t understand as a child

  1. I learned that reading can stimulate your mind but you won’t truly master your craft until you can apply what you read to experience.
  2. Fast food is addictive but it does harm to your mind and body because it can decrease your sex drive, make you body tired, and possibly lower your confidence.
  3.  Popularity is a phase and is only overrated if you only became popular by trying to be somebody your not. Once people get use to your presence, as time ages, people forget your presence existed in the first place. Being popular by being yourself, working hard, and helping people for the right reason will make your popularity last a lifetime. It is possible as well to be popular just by being yourself.
  4.  Boring and lonely is the new trend in this generation. Even the most popular people feel lonely and goes through depression.
  5.  Being a celebrity feels like the life from a distance, but up close and in person, being a celebrity is one of the biggest pressures you can go through because not living up to the expectations of your fans can end your career.
  6.  When you watch porn all the time, sex in real life feels so overrated.
  7.  Believe it or not, women are freakier than men, and in this generation women are more straight forward and honest and not afraid to express their opinions regarding sex, but still women hate perverts lol.  I use to be surprised whenever I met a girl that was so straight forward expressing her feelings on her sexual needs because as a child, I was always thought that women didn’t like sex.
  8. You don’t need to go to college become successful. Some of the most successful people were high school or college dropouts.
  9.  Being a teen parent is not a goal to achieve as a child growing up, but never judge a teen parent because some of them still work their asses of to make something out of themselves. You have people in this world that have no kids and still make all the excuses in the world do not do anything with their lives.
  10.  No matter how old you get, you will always make mistakes. You will always have a weakness, and ten years goes by fast.

 

 

 

 

 

Please God

The side where light is absent.
The first demon of lust is present.
The second is hidden
like materialistic items inside
a box.
This demon is hidden like secrets
and clever like a fox.
A poison that can dismantle a focus
that’s meant for greatness.
Precious like Eve’s nakedness,
lose its value
like Adam’s place in the Garden of Eden.
Lust will place me in conflict
like R kelly in 96.
I’m on the downlow and no I’m
not homosexual.
I have a secret, that one day I will
open up to the world and expose it.
My mind is an overloaded circuit.
My choices is why my life
is like a circus.
My circuit breaker is tripping
like a clumsy kid with untied shoelaces.
My world is darkness with no emotions.
A heart of stone, like corrupted politicians
that abuse power and criticize those in poverty.
Lost like odyessus in the Odyssey.
Finding my way home damn near
almost an imaginary
This is year 2 of a 20 year journey.
A punishment that has my world blindness.
Fires, cannibal giants, seductive women, hinder
my path to reach heaven.
Why is life defined like learning lessons
in physics?
All I ask for is to reach home in peacefulness.
I just want skip life like an intelligent child
skipping 1st grade,
and make it to heaven.
God, if you can hear me, can you please, I’m not asking to be rich, or for a big house.
Can you please destroy the two demons
because they block the path of me
from achieving greatness.
I do not want to burn in hell with Satan.

Poetry Freestyle

This is not a test, it’s complexity

Imagine closely, hear this slowly

I write poems, that leave minds numb.

These words stick, in heads like gum.

I’m the true poet author, as I age

my mind is sharper, like gillette

blue razors. I respect my elders,

of both genders, since my heart is tender.

So I’m humble with my endeavors.

Smart, but never clever.

My love is pure, I’m a savior.

The mechanism of me as a writer,

is similar, to the Manhattan Project.

Ready to explode like nuclear weapons,

but keep my composure

by thanking Jesus for helping me discover,

my true nature of unique metaphors.

The immortality of my poetry,

heals the sickly mentally.

Bitter without discipline, put limits

to positive emotions.

Angriness, lead to mistakes because of hastiness.

The measure of toture takes place

when the truth is not heard, but viewed.

Hatred of the truth, is a marathon and your endurance doesn’t improve.

What ripens is your skin, becoming thick

like smoke, from memorial day barbecues.

Feelings are intangible like souls, emotions are buried like gold.

Forced smiles stretch like rubberbands, snaps your heart, when the body gets old.

Poetry don’t dissemble what’s real, life is ungentle, crime is intentional, the blueprint,

of success is confidential, alot of lives are accidental, the outcome is unpredictable, when sins vicious like pitbulls.

There’s no sequal, souls will burn beneath you.

No crossing guard whistle to guide you, the road’s narrow with a beautiful view.

Be lead by the archangel, carrying souls above you.

The Devil(Part 1)

The devil is a preacher
The devil is a prophet
The devil is a teacher
So what does this mean?
It means that the devil
use disguises.
Why is evil in a disguise?
Deceit is more astonishing
than any magic trick.
Its extremely secretive
like Alex Mack power.
Can slide under locked doors
at any given hour.
The devil time is coming to an end,
so life for the millennials is getting harder.
My struggle is against the spiritual forces of evil.
When I solve a problem, it’s always a sequel.
Many many more issues and I’m only human.
So sometimes I think about God’s victory
over Satan and believe the light is overrated.
Life, I’ve been hate it because of Satan.
Demons were once angels, so kindness is always overrated.
Nobody is safe in this world, safety is overrated.
The technique to solve problems aren’t demonstrated
until you fail the life lesson.
This is why I believe college is bullshit.
Student loans and tuition balance are expensive charges
and make stress charge at you mentally like a bull.
The curriculum for majority of the courses is full of shit
because after graduation just empty pockets while receiving minimum wage payments.
It’s a tease and confusing like your best friend of the opposite sex giving mix signals.
Sometimes I wish life was simple like making a wish before blowing birthday candles.
I wish miracles were automatic deposits in your life like directed deposit in a checking account.
Days, hours, minutes, even seconds I count.
I count since I am closer to death, I can almost taste her.
She is brutal like the winter in 2015 in NYC.
I define her characteristic as being petty for holding grudges against me.
She celebrates my misery, blocking me from accomplishing my journey.
The nickname I gave her was Poseidon because I feel like Odyessus in Odyssey.
She stalks me so I wonder if death has schizophrenia.
Should I have mercy due the disorder?
I mean, she turn 151, 600 bodies cold a day of all ages.
That’s 105 people a minute, so that everybody from people locked in cages, millionaires in mansions, homeless on the streets starving, babies in garbages, innocent victims during school shoots.
This 105 excludes the abortions that didn’t need coffins.
But what scares me is the 250 births a minute because think about it,
how many of these babies will be possessed by demons?
How many of these babies are will burn in hell with Satan?
Now people always say stop being so negative
and you should always think positive.
Well in Matthew 7:13 – 14, it says “Enter by the narrow gate.
For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find are few.”
So now after reading this bible scripture, is this a positive or negative?
So after reading this, I believe hard work doesn’t pay off, it’s really about the connections.
Think about it like this.
Christmas lights, electricity, technology, or with anything equipment with a plug don’t work
unless you connect it to a outlet.
So in order to see the light, it’s not about hard work, it’s about connections.
Let’s be honest, when we think of the ‘light’ most of us Christians think of Jesus.
Jesus is who we worship.
The spirit of Jesus is used by many for a selfish benefit.
We follow the laws of the bible and do right by God until money involved.
Money is why we cheat, money is why we lie.
Love of Money is the root of all evil, so money is a curse in disguise.
Corruption reaches its peak when the price of selling your soul began to rise.
Rich is greedy for seeking attention of wealth
but the poor is cold hearted looking to empty your pockets.

 

After reading this, do you think the devil’s power is underestimated?

I Am Nothing

Won’t lie

Wish I could sleep

My life away

until I die.

Being stuck in a world of confusion,

make me have hallucinations.

Creating a happiness that doesn’t exist,

this is how I give a sight of bliss.

This is another way of me running from

the past instead of facing it.

I refuse to accept myself and my life the way it is

so bizarre imaginations is a demonstration of what I have been missing.

Everyday I pray to God to release me from the is prison called Earth and take me to heaven.

I have dreams of perfections

and every morning, I wake up to nightmares of destruction.

My brain is like the apocalyptic skies,

the location of the afterlife, the fire rise.

The torture in my brain is underrated, but to loved ones, that view of me is not too blatant.

They believe in greatness, but I know my soul

is too corrupted, covered with dark stains like a smokers lung.

Feel like I’m on crutches, but I’m still young.

My soul need to catch some rays, to paint over the ways of darkness on my frame.

A description of life for me is trying to lift myself to heaven with drug money.

I want the fast and easy way out since the fallen angels committed a robbery.

I was disarmed, and my only peace was my Beretta

ready to shoot.

I am nothing like Peter when Ironman took his suit.

Life Is Hard

Life in split second decisions.

A division of situations.

Life is not a broken toy

so never a replacement.

It’s only one shot, and we have

to take it.

We either aim and hit the target

or miss by a long shot.

A miss shot can kill us when

life shoots back.

Blood leaks from a wound

that defines mistakes and excuses.

It’s always easier said than done.

Dreams don’t lie, it can reveal a ton.

I made a mistake or did I?

I am more miserable or am I?

I believe in myself, or do I?

How to realize when you are control in your life?

A dream is a secret wish in a disguise.

Do you ever wish a dream can last forever

when real life feels like it got much colder?

Logic and emotions are like cats and dogs.

Mixed emotions is the fog that make it difficult to view.

A dream was a preview of tomorrow’s news.

A message of hidden clues, to tell you what to do.

We try our best, but fear doesn’t take a rest.

It disturbs someone’s rest as a distraction to steal peace.

Little by little, it takes a piece of your peace

until you got robbed of everything

that gave you peace

so now you become desperate just for a moment of peace,

it turns you into a selfish being.

Drugs and alcohol all of a sudden

becomes a great reason

to subdue the overthinking.

But yet it’s still a lose lose situation

because somebody’s heart could get broken

for the time wasting.

Unpurposely you are guilty until you don’t know who you are anymore and this feeling hurts.

Raised well but yet, felt like you committed every crime that exist, and yet you have a clean record.

True Meaning Of Popularity

Popularity is potent,
but commonly identifies 
itself as a form of poison.
Angel with wings on the surface,
but deep within, the angel transforms
to a demon.
Popularity gives off a vibe
like its Christmas morning,
but stay long enough 
and you see pitch forks 
like its a Halloween evening.
Good looks are deceiving 
and fade away 
like the sun in the evening.
Even though popularity 
feels like a nice warm welcome
like birthday hugs,
As it’s time ages, 
you realize the moments were wasted,
trying to fit in
like an over weight grown women
squeezing into her prom dress
to look exquisite for her high school reunion.
Problem we can’t seem to solve
is that inner beauty is within 
the soul of a human.
Lucifer was beautiful
like a wedding dress 
but the person in it was Dennis Rodman.
Popularity is pleasing from a distance
but up close and person,
hideous like restroom toilets
without flushing.
When perfection is the goal,
when you kick, you will miss
every time.
Picture it like this;
popularity is a huge  bicep.
The main attraction, the main focus,
but your true character is your legs,
which gets neglected, since women
only focus on the top half of your body.
We will do anything for compliments and attention honestly
to the point we lose our integrity,
taking credit for accomplishments
that we didn’t accomplish.
We love others reactions more than our own decisions.
No gun pointed to our heads to make a forced decision, we just addicted to somebody’s reaction.
So basically, we have bear arms and chicken legs.
This means we search for power in the wrong place
because power really comes from your legs.
We realize this too late and now we can’t bare to stare at our arms.
The right to bear arms, work against us and do self harm
with our own arms.
Lethal affliction is hidden within, but eventually comes out when the lungs fail to bring oxygen.

Life Lessons

Consequences is the affect since sins are committed by the innocent.
I thought of this from lion king when scar wanted to devour the little rodent.
Sometimes those people think there’s no choice based on the lives they’re living in. Everyone alive is physically living,
but decisons will be foreced upon,
when living careless, or when lacking the characteristic of being dominant.
Being dominant is just an excuse for people to live reckless.
That trait has nothing to do with making a hit on others going from check list to check list.
But as well, you must understand this world is survival of the fittest.
Recklessness leads to accidents
but tell me this, what can you accomplish by being passive?
Being passive certainly is not the answer, no one would hear your voice.
But making sure you accomplish your dreams and that you stand out is all up to your choice.
Some dreams stay dreams, some dreams come true.
I always say pick the apple highest on the tree
since its healthiest for you
Couldn’t agree more with reaching high for what you want.
It’s better to work hard than just taking it as many have been taught.
Hard work is honored but only if working smart comes with hard work like a warranty plan.
Hard work is like a brand new laptop, but meaningless once it break and there is no warranty plan.
Now time is like wasted money thats spent over again
for not using intelligence when carrying out the main plan
Warranty implies when something is broken you have somewhere to turn.
With life there isn’t a back up plan and it’s unfortunate that people don’t understand that when they’ve been warned.
Life isn’t make believe nor is it a joke so hard work is the recipe to staying woke.
Well life itself is something that we only have once chance,
but each day, we go through situations
like a twlight zone
where some may be similar compared to others.
A unfamiliar situation can lead to a mistake that becomes a lesson, but that a situation can arise again like the sunrise,
so would it be foolish to make same mistake like last time?
Never a failure always a lesson.
This is true that a mistake can lead to an open door.
Stumbling into situations that one has never endured before.
Fool a person once, shame on them, fool a person twice and they may need to look into what’s going on with them.
It’s possible to make the same mistake twice but, it’s advised to use caution with ice.
Yes make sure to take the ice with you when approaching a open door and walk in slow.
But the door could suddenly slam in your face and make you feel low,
but don’t let that closed door stop you from achieving your ultimate goal.
Find a key, or lock pick that shit and get it open.
Do whatever you have to do to cross the finish line safely and preparedly.
You might open it but, what lies inside it you may be ready for it barely.
However what’s on the other side should never prevent you from going forward.
Take deep breaths and move onward.
To move forward, sometimes we go backwards to start over and I’m living proof.
So many choices to make in split seconds, so what do I choose?
Life lessons aren’t taught in school
because the way I learn is through fail examinations
and I learn the lesson after.
Every failed exam, have made me to adapt better and at a faster pace.
I will acheive all of my goals before gray hairs crowd around my face.

Now after reading this poem, If you had to think about your life, off the top of your head what was the two most important lessons that the elders should teach the youth?

For me, I say that young teenage males should be taught on how to put on a condom to prevent an unwanted pregnancy and young teens should also be taught that college is an excellent experience, but college alone will not guarantee a job after you graduate so therefore make connections, apply for internships while in school, and take certification exams that are required in your field of study.

Comment below and tell me what you think?

Also I want to say thank you to Tiffanee Charles for helping me write this poem.

Does Success Define Happiness

Learn from the failure of others.
Don’t burn bridges if you
can’t swim in the river. 
Making connections increases the chance
of success.
Mistakes makes us great. 
Do whatever it takes 
to not repeat your elders mistakes.
We live life once.
Failure will run you over like a truck.
We all get dirty, but don’t stay dirty, clean off the mud!
Hard work is effort and taking responsibility of your actions defines you as a man.
At 21, you become a man, but at the age of 21, do you really feel like a man?
What  is your long term life plan?
Can you reach success without a plan?
Can you reach success without a backup plan?
Once you become successful and the bank account is more than plentiful, 
does life suddenly become paradisaical?