Are We Considered Normal If We Don’t Fear Anything?

What we can’t predict, we fear.
We fear what we can or cannot hear.
We thank God when the fear in us
is no longer here.
When I say ‘here‘ I’m talking about the heart.
How does a fear start?
Most know the answer to this; its simple.
When a past situation made the experience difficult
to the point its stuck in your head
and now that particular thought
makes your mind fearful
and the hands shake, legs quickly trembles. Like a fist to the temple, feels like death,
or something trivial like a pimple on a dimple.
The steps are sequential, when fear has potential
to store negative energy in your mind and body.
Fear is typical, slightly increasing like hourly wage when working for night differential.
But what if you fear nobody or nothing?
Ready for today; the minute death decides to take visit,
entering the building through the back entrance.
Attacks when you are unprepared, silent
or talking in the middle of a sentence.
But some choose to face the back entrance
and embrace it.
Is it karma or is it just the apple from the tree of good and knowledge,
disguised as a spirit?
No matter what, I face it as if I’m staring at my reflection.
I’m fearless.
I live on earth and fear nothing in it.
I ready to accept death and harm.
I’m in the moon position,
looking at earth most fearful challenges,
preparing myself to face it.
Some say I behave erratically,
but I’m doing exactly
what the bible tells me.
He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.
I memorized this verse from the book of Deuteronomy.
But some say I behave erratically
for miscalculating risks constantly.
Fear is an emotion and some say I’m avoiding,
but I tried hard for years to fear something
but the one thing I feared for years
have been disregarded through my apathetic mind.
Does my apathy affect my daily living?
Is Having to overcome my fears made me apathetic?
The one thing I once feared is omnipotent,
but yet I belive I am a dedicated Christian.
I can bare any punishment
for consequences of actions I committed
without thinking.
The laws in the bible make consequences predictable
and we fear what’s not predictable.
Besides God, I have never feared anything.
The news articles and crime reports are oblivious;even the crimes against women and kids that are committed.
Life in prison, a STD that’s life threatening, it don’t matter, I fear nothing.
Some say I behave erratically, but I’m following the bible precisely.
So the verse in Deuteronomy, is it contradicting
or am I the hands and use the scriptures as yarn to twist and turn
to manipulate you into thinking I am not afraid
when In reality, I fear everything around me?

My Feelings On Having Children

The true meaning of fear.
A risk
like a kid in the 90’s playing double dare
but much more severe.


The generation is headed for destruction
and I pray for the children
since they are the future,
but what’s in my future?


I have the power to create life
but how can I raise and protect
a child’s life
when I fear mine?


Children take up a lot of time
and I love my alone time.
Will I be ready for when a child disobey?
I can’t punch a child in the face
as I think to myself does discipline
and punishment in this generation
actually work?


Should I make my children go to church
when I barely read the bible myself?
The seed is expected to grow
but can I provide the water to help the seed grow?
Tell u the truth, even though I’m 27
I question myself wondering if I’m grown.


More sleepless nights I predict
since I can’t understand the unpredictability
of kids.
We pray for what we want
until we receive it.
It’s like a young girl wanting a man with
a big dick.
What we want is not what we expect when we receive it
because we receive more than we can handle.


God can use the same blessing he gave you
to punish you
if you don’t thank him for being there for you.
So always remember to put God first
and hope whatever you are praying for
when you receive it
thank God first.


Question to think about?

Based on reading this poem, when was the last time you felt this type fear? If you come across this type of fear again, will be able to handle this situation differently than the last time you felt this specific fear?

My Thoughts

Last few years, shit got deep.

The mountains got steep.

Nobody knew what I was going through

Real life problems

and I didn’t know how to solve them.

felt like I was under pressure

trying to disarm a bomb.

Ever felt so miserable

you hate the sound of the alarm?

In the morning

heart was constantly beating

at a fast pace rate.

Ignoring my stomach growling

because I felt like I had no escape

out of a bad situation.

The frustration and hate

intensifies only more

when you accept misery

instead of trying to change it.

Mind was insipid.

I kept quite

I held my composure,

but on the inside

I was livid.

I seen the ones I loved

as role models

turn into hypocrites.

Ever got hurt so bad by the opposite sex

you thought all women are bitches?

Ever got so hurt so bad by the opposite sex

You thought all men ain’t shit?

What keeps myself going?

Remind myself everything happens

for a reason.

But felt like I was lying to myself

because the humble ones

receive the most attention and drama

without any explanation.

The day, week, month and season changes

but the pain remains constant.

Stuck on bullshit

I felt constipated.

I compare myself to a mouse

in a house.

Ever heard the term

“quiet as a mouse”?

Cartoons portrays mice

as if their innocent

but in reality at midnight

behind the walls

they make loud noises

all night gnawing and clawing.

I am quiet, minding my business

but up all night overthinking.

Overthinking so much

for a second I thought

I was nocturnal.

I refused to invite company

when facing misery.

I refuse to bring anybody

in the lake of fire with me.

Thoughts were bigger than a grizzly.

Beer kept me from doing

something crazy ironically.

One at a time I started

devouring beer bottles a minute.

Instead of the bible

Heineken was my weapon,

Corona was my idol,

Budweiser was my hero.

On the dresser nothing but empty bottles

and this was the affect

since there was nothing on cable.

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I shed a puddle of tears.

My bed received more rainfall

then the month of April.

I wished stories of people

getting their hearts broken

were only fables.

The ghetto is filled with people

with real talent

and most politicians are ignorant,

sucking d*ck to make it.

In this world

You have to fake it

until you make it.

Then when you make it,

you have to fake it more.

People make it difficult

for you

When you are completely honest.

Now think about it

I respect the truth more than deceit

but honor and loyalty can

End you up in a cemetery.

So is honesty overrated?

I don’t know, maybe

Fear in your heart

Will have lying

So much

That you think it’s a blessing

and the truth is a sin.

Some people won’t admit it

but to some, the devil

Is feared more than God.

We underestimate God’s power

and refuse to cower.

Rumors on social media

receive more attention

then family members.

Technology is the slave driver

to today’s generation.

It press its feet on the minds

of the innocent

until the innocent is out of gas

and now stuck on stupid.

but no excuses.

Technology is not the scapegoat,

because people always been ruthless,

The only difference is because of social media

We are exposed quicker

but the demons been exist.

They were once angels in heaven.

However, here is a question,

Can someone describe the view

of heaven?

What if everybody living was aborted

and every baby that was once aborted

had a chance to live life?

What would be the outcome of life?

What would be the percentage of crime?

When is the end of time?

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This Is A Cold World 

This is real
and time kills
The stress is
what I feel.
Living in a nightmare
since birth
I ask myself
“Am I cursed?”
Things just got worst
Overthink shit
becuase life is a bitch.
Walk and walk around
all over town.
Contemplating and imagining
wishing things was different
My mind and personality is insipid.
Failed to take leadership
of my priorities.
Tired of responsibilities
Time to take the easy way out.
I need a cheat code
to defeat the boss of each level.
In the mirror I see devils
whispering in my ear
telling me
“God don’t exist here”
I’m tired of working for
a boss
I want to be my own boss.
I’m lost.
Who am I kidding
I been lost,
mentally and spiritually.
Should I turn to Jack Daniels?
Devour liquor like sharks
devour people.
“All men are created equal”
This is hysterical
becuase the man that wrote this
is on Mount Rushmore.
I will never go to visit Mount Rushmore
becuase I don’t look up to slave owners.
Freedom in America is overated.
It’s hard being a man,
especially a black man,
darkskin or tan
most lack funds
to carry out the plan
to live the American dream.
I blame America
for bombing Nagasaki
and Hiroshima
Later on our sercets
we’re stolen from russia.
One day in the future
there will be another
world war.
More blood and gore
then a mortal combat
game.
Violence and pain
is more common
than peace and happiness.
Slavery existed since ancient days.
From Egyptians
to Babylonians
to Persians
to Greece
to Romans.
Picking cotton in the 1700’s
and 1800’s
Jim crow laws existed
between late 1800’s to mid 1900’s
If you think about it,
humans were easily
living past 100
back in ancient days
Humans were twice
the size back then
compared to the humans
today.
Where did black people come from?
Where did Spanish people come from?
Where did Asains come from?
If Tupac and Biggie Smalls were white
do you think their murders would still be a mystery?
Why do we have black history?
Why can’t white and black combine together
and just be history?
White and black is always a label.
I missed days when I watch Disney movies
and fairytales.
I thought happily ever afters was guaranteed.
That’s all a big dream.
The older generation think we’re lazy
That might be true maybe.
Technology makes life more complex.
Owners of businesses will work you to death.
They don’t give a fuck about you
or your kids.
They still expect you to come to work
while your sick.
In high school, kids and even teachers
prejudging you every minute
Now days beef gets personal becuase niggas will bring your kids into it.
This what happens when you mix family
and busniess.
Kids robbing and killing their parents over Jordans.
As a kid, Michael Jordan was my hero, but now to me he is a asshole.
He don’t give a fuck about the poor.
His sneakers the poor can’t afford.
Why can’t he lower the prices?
We have a president that clueless
and he don’t respect women.
A man will kill another man over a women.
A woman will be a side chick to man
and wear the title proudly
becuase of jealousy.
Humans are the crack
Humans are the cocaine
Humans are the acholic beverages
Humans are the HIV/AIDS
Humans are wicked
Guns aren’t evil,
but the person that pulls the trigger
is the real devil
A man can take your life without
pulling the trigger
by stealing your wife.
But is it really called “stealing”
If your wife is voultnerairly cheating?
Being deceiving, sending nudes
behind your back
while you break your back
providing her a lifestyle
and yet she fucking another man
with out using a Trojan or a lifestyle.
Men are just as bad and it’s sad.
A man will live a double life,
get his girl pregnant
while all along he had a wife.
Lie about his name and age
just to get pussy.
Taking advantage of a girl
that’s naive.
She gets heartbroken
when she find out the truth.
The truth hurts becuase the
facts are rude.
Imagine if you was this girl,
would you trust another
man in this world?
Life is cold,
when you gotta get an abortion
and kill a baby that you wanted
becuase you love a man
that promise you
that you are in his future plans.
Ya takes pics and you post them
On Instagram.
Brag to all your Follwers
and friends
until you get pregnant.
He telling you to get
the abortion
and he don’t
take you to clinic.
Now you tell your parents.
Mother is ashamed and disgusted
Well maybe it’s her fault
for being too strict and not understanding.
Saying No to everything is not
protecting you daughter.
It’s pushes her futher and further
away from her mother
and closer into men that are abusive
mentally or physically or both.
Video games are addictive
I remember when I was a kid
They said it poisonous to a kids mind
They say video games is a waste of time.
Parents act mature around their children
but around other adults they don’t like,
they act immature ,some act worst then
the children.
Sometimes parents can be the biggest hypocrites.
Sometimes as an adult, you can learn from children.
Sometimes we fail to protect our children
from the rapist and it makes me sick to my fucking stomach when muthafuckas say victims are the scapegoat.
Listen I don’t care how tight her dress or how short her shorts are,
nobody deserves that.
People have issues and through their anger and issues animals get abused.
Torture and slaughter of animals is evil.
Dog fighting is common and this was not God’s intention.
Wealth imbalances, Famine, Diseases, War and terrorism, Addictions, racism and unemployment
having me fearing the future
worrying I’m going to die young
or be a bum searching for crumbs
for not taking school serious.
I do take education serious
but I’m delirious
without my therapist
becuase I keep over thinking
for a hundred different reasons
and I’m addicted to over thinking.
I hate giving advice when people
ask for it because I feel like a hypocrite.
Everything in this poem I mentioned
is what I think about over and over.
One day I fear it will be my last
day
and a voice says to me
“Game over”
Beginning of November I posted
a “Meaning of Fear” post
but that wasn’t a third of what
I really fear
I don’t know what’s in my future

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Meaning OF Fear


Can you picture my anxiety?
Mind is full of misery, nobody is helping.
Receive 3 curses back to back for every blessing.
Pure stress is what I’m receiving.
The truth is what I believe in , but life is deceiving.
Having me constantly dreaming of heaven
and patiently waiting for the battle of armagedon.
Handgun on my waist for  power and protection.
Killing is evil but self defense is an exception
Since the inception  of earth murder been existent
Sometimes it’s better to mind your business then to be an eye witness if you wanna make it to Christmas
 because a criminal will protect his life by canceling your christmas.
So we become so oblivous when afflicted  which makes us into drug addicts.
Addicted to the bad habit can turn a straight man to a faggot.
Sometimes we blame the parents but the most  fucked up kids are raised by the strictest parents.
Punishments and beatings was unbearing
but yet parents  wondering how fundamentals were lacked
Disrespectful behavior from peers is what attracts the  naive female adolescents to grown men sitting on their laps.
So I fear of having daughter and afraid of her growing up without no order.
Innocence  of kids fade when they get older.
Now went from crying on your shoulder to uploading twerk videos on social media now a full grown  diva who evolved from being a junior school cheerleader
Shedding a  tear because of what she wears.
Breast just popped up like pop  ups on computer screens.
Seeking attention from men is her American dream.