Are We Considered Normal If We Don’t Fear Anything?

What we can’t predict, we fear.
We fear what we can or cannot hear.
We thank God when the fear in us
is no longer here.
When I say ‘here‘ I’m talking about the heart.
How does a fear start?
Most know the answer to this; its simple.
When a past situation made the experience difficult
to the point its stuck in your head
and now that particular thought
makes your mind fearful
and the hands shake, legs quickly trembles. Like a fist to the temple, feels like death,
or something trivial like a pimple on a dimple.
The steps are sequential, when fear has potential
to store negative energy in your mind and body.
Fear is typical, slightly increasing like hourly wage when working for night differential.
But what if you fear nobody or nothing?
Ready for today; the minute death decides to take visit,
entering the building through the back entrance.
Attacks when you are unprepared, silent
or talking in the middle of a sentence.
But some choose to face the back entrance
and embrace it.
Is it karma or is it just the apple from the tree of good and knowledge,
disguised as a spirit?
No matter what, I face it as if I’m staring at my reflection.
I’m fearless.
I live on earth and fear nothing in it.
I ready to accept death and harm.
I’m in the moon position,
looking at earth most fearful challenges,
preparing myself to face it.
Some say I behave erratically,
but I’m doing exactly
what the bible tells me.
He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.
I memorized this verse from the book of Deuteronomy.
But some say I behave erratically
for miscalculating risks constantly.
Fear is an emotion and some say I’m avoiding,
but I tried hard for years to fear something
but the one thing I feared for years
have been disregarded through my apathetic mind.
Does my apathy affect my daily living?
Is Having to overcome my fears made me apathetic?
The one thing I once feared is omnipotent,
but yet I belive I am a dedicated Christian.
I can bare any punishment
for consequences of actions I committed
without thinking.
The laws in the bible make consequences predictable
and we fear what’s not predictable.
Besides God, I have never feared anything.
The news articles and crime reports are oblivious;even the crimes against women and kids that are committed.
Life in prison, a STD that’s life threatening, it don’t matter, I fear nothing.
Some say I behave erratically, but I’m following the bible precisely.
So the verse in Deuteronomy, is it contradicting
or am I the hands and use the scriptures as yarn to twist and turn
to manipulate you into thinking I am not afraid
when In reality, I fear everything around me?

Questions About The Bible

  1. If Adam and Eve were the first two humans on earth, why is there five categorizes of races such as American Indian, Asian, Black or African American, Native Hawaiian and white?
  2.  As far fornication, in the bible days I understand why sex before marriage is a sin. In those days, condoms nor birth control existed. Now in this present day, since sex before marriage is a sin and God’s purpose is for us to be fruitful and multiply, is condoms and birth control a sin?
  3. It says in the bible that wives must submit to their husbands authority. I have a hard time understanding this, so what’s an example of a wife submitting to her husband and what if the husband dies, will the wife be head of the household? Also why can’t the husband and wife lead the household together?
  4. Since in the bible, it’s stated that men are the leaders, how do you feel about having a female president?
  5. From I was told, I was told when man marry a woman his wife comes first, does this mean that man is suppose to love his wife more than his mother?
  6.  Not sure if this is in the bible or not but I was told that your spouse comes before your children. Now why does your spouse comes first? Don’t your kids need your attention more than your spouse does?
  7. If the bible didn’t exist, do you think the divorce rate  today would be much lower?
  8. Does the bible condemn slavery? “Slaves, obey your earthly masters with deep respect and fear. Serve them sincerely as you would serve Christ”  and also “Masters, treat your slaves justly and fairly, knowing that you also have a Master in heaven” now I think most would agree that slavery is wrong. So in these two scriptures was slavery legal? How can you treat a slave fairly when a slave is forced to do work for a higher authority? Does these two scriptures contradict itself?
  9.  In church, you hear members say that the devil is a liar. Now if you read genesis it says “You will not certainly die,” the serpent said to the woman. “For God knows that when you eat from it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.”When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it. Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they realized they were naked;now if you carefully read this verse, after Adam and Eve ate the apple, they knew they were naked. The serpent told Eve that her eyes would be open and she would know good and evil. Now in this present day we know the difference good and evil and we know what it means to be naked, so technically in this verse, did the devil really lie to Eve? He did lie to Eve telling her that he won’t die, but did lie to Eve when he said to Eve that she would know the difference between good and evil?
  10. Now lust is a sin but it is encouraged in the bible to lust after your wife. So before you are married, you can’t lust after your girlfriend. If lust is a sin before marriage, how will you automatically be able to lust after your wife if you trained your mind to not lust. Your mind is set on something, its hard to change your mind, sometimes it’s impossible to change when you are use to do something for so long?

 

Overall I do believe there is a God, but I believe the bible is not perfect. I also believe the new testament oppresses women. The bible is man made and man the bible is written a variety of men.  Also the bible is told in a man’s point of view, why couldn’t the women at the time write any verses of the bible. Are men and women created equal?

Will You Pray Or Make Excuses?

Time runs

He levitates towards the sky.

Some say he shy,

but yet arms are wide

ready to make a scarfice.

Legs stretched out far apart

He is spry

Does he do gymnastics

to keep his body active?

Do you wonder how he keeps his mind active?

Does he read the bible?

Or does he make excuses?

What do you think his excuse is?

Do you want a hint?

Well here it is.

You see the clock?

The clock stopped

but time never stops as

long as we live

keywords

as long as we live.

But nothing last forever so time won’t tick any longer.

So souls leave human bodies

since souls remain forever

while bodies get buried.

Every human is different but after life,

we receive judgment.

The sky opens up for worthy souls

to enter the kingdom of heaven

but only a few will seek it.

Lord accepts a few souls

then close the gates

on the large crowd of souls

surrounding the gates.

Souls banging on the gates saying

“Let me in” Lord says

“I don’t have time to let anybody else in”

This boy in the pic

is one of the ones that didn’t make it.

While living his soul needed saving

Parents beg him to go to church

but his parents, he kept ignoring.

When stressed out, instead of praying he kept smoking.

When he got his girlfriend pregnant,

instead of telling his parents

he forced his girlfriend to get an abortion.

Whenever he sinned, never asked for forgiveness.

So everytime

when his parents asked him

if he thanked the Lord this morning

for winning

the gold trophy in gymnastics, he said

” I forgot”

When his parents asked him

“when do you plan on going back to church?”

He said

” I don’t know, I’m grown, I don’t have time, I got school and gymnastics”

 

The Lesson In This Poem

Life is temporary

so be careful how you live it.

Time is constant like a heartbeat

but they both will stop eventually.

Prayer takes a little more than second.

Lord never asks for perfection

but he wants us to seek forgiveness

for sinning.

So remember everyday you don’t pray

and make excuses

lord is always watching.

One day closer

until your heart

will stop beating

and eventually time will stop ticking.

We have many paths to take

when we live each day

but the many paths

will lead to only two final destinations.

So will find time to pray

or will you make excuses?

 

Another Great Story to read is Don’t Worry; The Person Next To You Is Flawed Too

Where Have You Been?

I normally write thought provoking poems but his is one of my more painful and darker poems. Before you read, if you are curious to know more about me, click on this link Who Am I?

Shit felt like yesterday when I was looking for you.
Alot of painful thoughts, late nights praying to you.
I was going thru scriptures in the bible trying to find answers.
A non-response from you left me drowning in deep water.
Now three years later, I now understand what it feels like
Overthinking during the sleepless nights and you was teaching me to hang tight.
Inexperience had me at a disadvantage, almost felt worthless when got my heart broken.
So instead of praying, I looked at every woman as a enemy.
I hated bitches and thought they wasn’t shit and was only worth dick.
I had the wrong type of thinking, at first I tried praying to you but you wasn’t listening.
Your distance has me wanting to seek revenge
so paying for sex was my healing.
The orgasm was addictive and even to this day I still need healing from masturbating.
The more I kept praying, the more I kept overeating.
My heart was like engine that was overheating.
It stopped beating and operating.
It was broken and dead and I held a grudge against you.

Why did you abandoned me when she destroyed me?
Why did you allow her to?
Everytime I look in the mirror I cried tears of pain?
I was really starting to hate you?
You said to cast our my anxiety since you care for me
but you left me drowning in the pool.

I made plenty of mistakes but my heart was in the right place.
Needed help since I experienced love a little late.
I prayed for the right path, but I fell in love at the wrong time and place.
Before I knew, I wasn’t doing things that I shouldn’t.
My only concern was to obtain a proper ejaculation even if it was premature.
Lack of erections had me feeling like a politician losing the election.
A gentleman but yet felt like a loser.
Got tired of this feeling, so went to the doctor
for Viagra.
Felt good to satisfy her needs, but dependent on a pill and I was only 24?
I blamed myself and hated myself.
I had thoughts wondering if I was corny?
I had thoughts wondering should I be lonely?
I had alot of potential in my personality
but you made me antisocial.
I feared being laughed so till this day
still don’t know how to be sociable.
Every time I think about it, made me sick.
I was ashamed of my dick.
I fought this battle alone
and you didn’t defend me.
The klove songs no longer lifted me
It made me empty.
Strippers were the remedy.
I just wanted easy women and hated women
that were classy.
But this wasn’t the proper thinking.
I looked up to but then I started to hate you like an enemy.
Because of the summer of 2015 was my worst memory.
I think bitches are the enemy.
I became a selfish because I don’t care to satisfy a bitch needs.
Now I’m quick to tell a bitch to cheat
if my dick can’t stay hard
I don’t give a fuck.

Why did you abandoned me when she destroyed me?
Why did you allow her to?
Everytime I look in the mirror I cried tears of pain?
I was really starting to hate you?
You said to cast our my anxiety since you care for me
but you left me drowning in the pool

To get the Full Story please read I Will Never Forget My 25th Birthday (Part 1) and I Will Never Forget My 25th Birthday (Part 2) This is a very long blog personal blog

The Art OF Music

Music touches your heart.
Music touches your soul.
Music is a work of art.
Music in your life, plays a role.
Music is like the bible.
Music makes you think about real life situations.
Music is believable
Music comes from words of an actual person that been through difficult situations
Music gives you an explanation on why things happen
Keep listening to music and one day, you’ll may receive a blessing towards your situations.

Whats Unforgivable In A Relationship

My plan

is to kill a man

that fucked my spouse

in my house.

It hurts my stomach

as I picture him

taking off her blouse.

Quiet as a mouse

as watched

from the windows

from outside

covering her mouth.

Giving it to her good

I can tell by the looks

on her face.

I felt ashamed.

I felt the pain

and I’m crying

by the window frame.

 I pull out the pistol.

Revenge need to get out

of my system.

I try to subdue

my resistance

as I converse with

my bullets.

They thought I was foolish.

The dragon was whispering

and provided me

with  hollow tips.

I aim at the window

Pow Pow

I shoot two bullets

to stop the movement

of them having sex.

The feeling felt like the best

I ever had.

I went in the house

but become more sad.

This was really bad

I thought to myself.

I made a mistake

and it’s too late

to take back

I looked down at the dead

bodies and what I thought

was my wife

was actually  my daughter.

Holy Shit

I killed my own daughter.

This was really bad

I thought to myself.

I made a mistake

and it’s too late

to take back

Death makes no mistake

Or does it?

 

1 Peter 3:9 –  Do not repay evil for evil or reviling for reviling, but on the contrary, bless, for to this you were called, that you may obtain a blessing.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Have You Ever Thought About These Questions?

For the month of June, I will be posting a blog everyday. I plan to post as much as I can uploading my poems.

These first two questions are for parents that have kids in their teens?

1) How would you feel if they had an blog account on WordPress without telling you?

2) How would you feel if your teenage child became pregnant or got a girl pregnant?

3) How important is family to you?

4) As a parent, have you ever embarrassed your children?

5) As a child, have you ever embarrassed your parent?

6) Do you think it’s okay to lie?

7) What benefits does art provide in society?

8) What do you contribute back to society?

9) For parents with adult children, if your child was over 21 and your child quit their job and kept it a secret and didn’t tell you, how will that make you feel?

10) Is it right for parents to keep secrets from their children?

11) What do you think is the biggest waste of human potential?

12) What is something that overwhelms you?

13) Comapred to life 40 years ago, why is it so hard to get married?

14) Is it okay for Christians to date a non- Christian?

15) What physical proof is there that God exist?

16) What is something that everybody looks stupid doing?

17) In one sentence, how would you sum up life?

18) In one sentence, how would you sum up the internet?

19) In one sentence, how would you sum up why the devil is a liar?

20) In one sentence, how would you sum up life in America?

For those that want to answer one of these questions, comment below and ask me a deep, provoking question for me to answer

What Was My Greatest Compliment I Received?

For those of you reading this, what was the greatest compliment you received?

James 1:17

Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.

This verse relates to the poem I wrote. God gets all the glory because God blessed me having a friend that helped me to discover my talent for writing poetry. I’m not perfect, I’m not a super religious person, I do sin everday, but my heart is in the right place. So every poem for now on will be dedicated to the lord. For those of you have trouble finding success with blogging, put the lord first in everything you do becuase only the Lord’s opinion matters.

My most challenging poem
as I stare in the mirror alone.
Lone wolf all my life
as I have this pen in
my hand trying to write,
closing my eyes
trying to find a memory
where I received compliments
or when I accomplish something.
At 17 getting my driver license,
At 18 hearing my family cheer
at my high school graduation.
My parents told me
they was proud
but I thinks it’s an exaggeration.
To me those are average accomplishments
To be honest I don’t brag about my acheveiments
since I hate being center of attention.
Been told I am an over thinking
at age 24.
I’m logical but when it comes to thinking
I know I over due it for sure.
My thought process is like long division.
Mind is balanced like an equation,
before I make a serious decision
I focus on one thought at a time.
I take the whole paragraph of thoughts
in my mind and divide.
Sometimes thoughts don’t evenly
equal or connect to each other.
So I keep searching deep for thoughts
and dividing my thoughts
until I eliminate the remainder
of left over thoughts that won’t balance,
complicating and preventing the situation
from arriving a solution.
The way most people think relates to solving
division on calculator.
My thinking relates to solving division on paper.
It takes me longer to find an answer to a
complicated solution
and some will say my thinking is useless
and some may even say I am brainless
but the difference between
me and others
is I don’t rely on technology
to expose how talented that I am.
I will reiterate that
It takes me longer to find an answer to a
complicated solution
some will say my thinking is useless,
some may even say I am brainless
but the difference between
me and others
is I don’t rely on technology
to expose how talented that I am.
In the inside, my smile is brighter
then Sam I Am with green eggs and ham.
Technology make you way of thinking lazy
and technology becomes replaced
with new technology
but hard work and natural talent
will always follow you like a shadow
everytime you leave your house to travel
This is the greatest compliment I received
from staring at my reflection.
I am motivated by self motivation.

Compliments are words
as I think of images
of the past
of being told
I was unique.
I remained humble
when I received
the compliment.
My everlasting pain
momentarily turned
into pleasure.
Weight on my shoulders
became light as a feather.
I wonder if compliments
stab deeper than criticism.
Criticism will have you feeling
like your at the bottom of the prymaid.
The compliment I received
lighten the path to prepare me
for a better future.
I’m a consumer and a carnivore
and negative words is the herbivore
I devour for energy and power
So I can look forward into thanking
God for waking me up tomorrow.
I control my own thinking
so think of me like pest control
killing negativity like exterminator
exterminating rodents.
Or think of me like a snake
that rattle rodents,
Or a dolphin swimming in an ocean
of compliments
that I’m receiving
Heart is warm like the temperature
in Florida
and I don’t fear the hurricane
and my thoughts is Florida houses
that I can replace
when my mind collapse on a bad day
like a California house
during an earthquake.
Today is tomorrow’s yesterday
and I celebrate when I stare at my face
in the mirror
every morning
to remind me that
the biggest compliment
comes the God almighty.
Sometimes we act like desperate side chicks
not knowing what our mind and heart is worth.
We get sucked in by demons
for allowing our nightmares affect us from sleeping.
From fetal, to the stomach, to the back
we can’t find a comfortable position.
So we remain restless.
But for every skill we lack,
someone will be there to give you an compliment.
This was my greatest lesson,
and this lesson will be the most potent
until I reach heaven.
My life’s meaning is the number 7
like in the book of gensis
becuase God told me
I am one of his greatest creation.

My Friend And I

Psalm 91:4

He will cover you with his feathers. He will shelter you with his wings. His faithful promises are your armor and protection

This verse from the bible and it gave me motivation to write this poem. Everything I do, I put God first and for now on, every poem that I write, I will add a bible verse that relates to my poem.

When the sun rose this morning,
I looked up but felt chills and my arms are slightly shivering.
Today is a cloudy windy day,
but yet I feel so great,
like its a clear sunny day.
The sun represent the brighter side of our lives.
Our hopes will forever be high with my Friend and I.
He speaks but don’t give me eye contact.
His words I choose to listen to and they attract,
me and gives me faith.
Two minds think alike and we can relate,
to each other,
like identical twin brothers.
Like a hidden fossil, I discovered,
him. He is my friend and I am his.
He is not on top of my list,
He is my first and only gift.
He is my solar energy he reminds me of the wind.
He has no voice, but can be heard if I listen.
The sound traveled through my ears as he speak to me indirectly.
No one can’t hear him except me.
With my imagination, he stands besides me.
To others it’s insanity,
To me its the way of life,
for my Friend and I.

1) Have you ever had an invisible friend when you was younger?

2) Do you have a friend that is no longer with you that you think about every single day?

3) Do you talk to yourself on a regular basis?

4) Do you have that type of friend that you love to be around no matter how bad your day is because your friend brings so much joy, happiness, and confidence?