Devil’s Politics

Devils politics

Technology and musical instruments

Artist perform and articulate lyrics

that help build their image

but destroy human population.

Women became thots and bitches

Symbolized as sex images

Sexual conduct is promoted

and girls are idolizing

the artists and videos

on television

and becoming sex objects

A bad bitch, a gangsta bitch

a baby momma and a diva.

We glorify these sexual personas

Gain friends and popularity

through the use of weed smoking.

That loud, that reffer, that purple haze,

orange kush

Different slang name, but it all does the same

damage in the brain.

Cells leaking out the head like semen

which leading women to abortion clinics,

children being neglected and a growth of single parents.

Husband and Wife is conservative

Baby momma and Baby daddy is the alternative

and over the years it became repetitive.

Shit sometimes a life is created out of a situationship

since marriage is damn near facing extinction.

Marriage is the bald eagle

Situationship is the pigeon that shit on relationships like car windows.

Peak inside the window at a isolated area

and you’ll see weed smoke and foggy windows.

Foggy windows could be viewed on porn sites.

The site that turns making love into a foreign concept.

Regular intercourse we overrate for focusing only on the body

instead of the intimacy.

The bonding hormone released at orgasm is released during masturbation ,when no one is present

so the bonding hormone we was all blessed with, stop having it’s effect.

Now privacy and safety is at risk and exposed to children

for falling victims to sexual offenders

and a quarter of teenagers been bullied through the internet or texting

and a select few have participated in sexting.

Devils strategy is to create a false sense of reality.

Schemed demonology mislead the population strategically.

Evil rarely detectable, its defined as a malicious tactic in stealth mode like a fighter plane.

Devils is the president that’s winning

every election

and fallen angles are the corrupted politicans in the house of Congress

utilizing musical instruments and technology.

Comment below if you can think of ways how music and technology affect society?

How To Save Your Marriage Part 3

Please read How To Save Your Marriage? and How To Be A Better Husband for real marriage advice.  Statics shows that 1 out of every 2 marriages end in divorce. I plan on writing a book about saving your marriage and being a better husband. In the bible, it says the man has to listen to his wife and love her. But sometimes we as men lose sight of that so below I will list a few things that can help your marriage prosper.

 

  1. When having sex with your wife, only worry about your own orgasm if you as a man pay the mortgage.
  2.  As a husband, never be the first to apologize.
  3. When your wife tells you I love you, don’t say it back in return because she already knows how you feel.
  4.  If you and your wife get into an argument, if you are paying the mortgage then tell her she has to sleep on the couch.
  5. If your wife won’t have sex with you, then don’t get mad, just watch porn.
  6. If your wife want you to kiss her, tell her no and kiss her on the cheek.
  7. Tell your wife that holding hands is not necessary and that’s only in the dating stage.
  8. Tell your wife that during basketball finals that she can go cheat because during NBA finals you will be only focusing on basketball.
  9. As a man if you have problems obtaining an erection and your wife think you should see help, tell her no and that sex is no longer a priority.
  10. Tell your wife that you love her but your mother comes first since your mother gave you birth.
  11. Tell your wife that celebrating anniversaries are overrated and you rather stay home and save money.
  12. Tell your wife that she don’t have to submit and that you rather have her lead the household.
  13. Tell your wife to not dress to impress you as a husband and recommend her not to wear tight clothing.
  14.  Tell your wife that her father comes 1st not matter what so tell her that if her father needs her, she is more than welcome to attend his needs.
  15. Tell your wife that there is nothing wrong with being addicted to porn and that sex is overrated and it looks better on porn.
  16. Tell your wife that its perfectly normal to check out other women and its perfectly normal. As long you don’t check out other women nothing wrong with checking out other women. In fact encourage her to check out other men
  17.  If your wife cheat and had sex with another man, to be honest as long as she wore a condom and did it in a hotel and did not give him head, this is absolutely  fine and reward her with a vanilla shake.
  18.  Tell your wife that she is not allowed to moan during sex and that sex will be a maximum of five minutes
  19. Tell your wife that it is disrespectful to receive blowjobs from her
  20. Tell your wife that being honest destroys the marriage faster
  21.  Tell your wife that dedication is more important than passion so as long as you are loyal and dedicated to her, tell her that you don’t have to be romantic to her.

 

I just gave you a sample of my book that I plan to publish in January. The name of my book is “101 Ways To Save Your Marriage” Marriage is like chores, it is not suppose to be fun, it’s suppose to be a lot of work and something that has to get done.

Comment below if you think marriage is worth it or not?

 

 

 

Sight Like Coke Sweet Like Cherry

When I see you
I see a pretty black face
with a nice shape.
Color of your skin
represent strength
With words your outspoken
your mind is open
and I admire your confidence

When I see you
I see curvy hips
just below the stomach
where the skin is flawless
smooth like a boat ride
in the ocean.
You look extraordinary
like the pyramids in Giza

When I taste you
I taste a sweet flavor
Sweet like sugar
With my tounge
I dig deeper.
My tounge is a shovel
and you are the treasure
and I dig in deeper.

When I taste you
I taste the juices
so delightful
while I dance around
inside of you
Inside your mouth
like a washer machine
tounge automatically cycles

Black like Coca-Cola
and sweet like cherry
sweet like soda
Black like Pepsi
Black like pasta
Sweet like tea
Sweet like a bell pepper
Black like coffee

Courageous like Black Panther
Beautiful like Kenya
Sweet like Cherry
and Black like Coca-Cola
A strong, independent woman
like yourself
makes me proud
to be an African American

It Was Only Suppose To Be A Simple First Date Only

Everything seemed normal until I laid eyes on her.

Swear the most gorgeous figure and her hairstyle is most what I adored.

Definitely have caught my attention for sure.

I approached her, got her name, number, and I wanted to get to know her

some more.

A week later I took her to dinner and we conversed.

She told me she was a school nurse and on

Sundays she goes to church.

A beautiful working woman that’s God fearing, what more can I ask more.

I admire her curves as we talked for a while.

The round hips on her, and the dimples when she smiles.

Something was happening to me while she speaks to me.

The flirtatious look on her face turned me on and had me blushing.

I got a little embarrassed when she noticed that because I like to keep 

what’s on my mind a secret.

But truth be told it was obvious even to a first grader that I was catching feelings.

As usual she had to say “Aww you look so cute when you blush”

I started to giggle a little and I said “Okay now that’s enough.”

A little while later, the waiter brought the bill.

I pulled out the 50 dollars and left a 10 dollar tip on the table 

and asked her “Did you enjoy your meal?”

She said “It was cool, even though I didn’t finish it”

I wanted to invite her to my house, but I couldn’t form the sentence.

Finding the rights word at that moment was nonexistent, I guess I was nervous. 

I been on dates before but  I still felt like a novice.

So instead I played it safe an drove her back home in silence.

So I pulled up to the curb in front of her house and put the car in park.

I felt the tension between us like where in a horror movie and it was after dark.

She said “So what are you about to get into now?”

I said “Nothing much then I started daydreaming imagining her in a sexy gown.

She said “I didn’t expect to get home so early now”

I was caught off guard and I was thinking hard.

I was almost certain she was throwing out the clues.

Like  a game of chess, how do I start, how do I make my first move?

What do I do?

She started touching my arms admiring my Sean John sweater but felt my body tense up.

She really had to push her luck and now at that point I already know wassup.

She began to cares my neck and armpits and tickle just to hear me giggle.

This moment was definitely official because I knew I was soon going to yell checkmate.

But I didn’t make any move yet I choose to play it safe

by saying ” What do I have to do to get you to stop?”

She pulled me closer and said “come here” we  kissed and I didn’t want to stop.

After thirty seconds I stopped and I pretend  I was shocked even though deep down

I knew ahead of time what she was gonna do.

I waited for a few seconds then I went in for the kiss full force and aggressive. 

I kissed and touch her with a little bit of lust and affection.

She felt the bulge between my pants and I anticipated on what she was about to do next.

I reclined my seat back, close my eyes and she was giving me some neck.

Five minutes later just when I was about to cum, she asked me ” Do you have a condom?”

 

To Be Continued!

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How should I continue the next part of this story?

1) The guy has a condom in his pocket and get his groove on and sex her good?

2) The guy has a condom and get try to get his groove on but can’t obtain an erection?

3) The guy doesn’t has a condom and the girl just has sex with him anyway and they both have a pregnant scare?

4) The guy doesn’t have condom and she told him I can’t have sex with you without a condom but the guy gets angry and decides to rape her?

5) The guy doesn’t has a condom and the girl just has sex with him and she catches an STD?

 

 

Pussy Makes You Evil If Not Handled Right

An internal organ
that makes you lack
concentration
of whats important.
In a heartbeat
pussy can collapse a marriage,
relationship, or a friendship.
Sexing your friend’s wife
behind his back because
the pussy is tight.
Pussy so addictive
makes you loose your mind
and make you blind.
Can’t see your mistake
until it’s too late,
with the cold sweat
pouring from your face,
when looking at your dick
realizing, the night
before you penetrated
unsafe when you
released the mayonnaise
inside twice without thinking
twice
of the consequences.
Unwanted pregnancy,
now trying to figure
out how
to remain conscious.
Child support is gonna
kill those pockets,
since home girl
don’t want an abortion.
Looking at that minimum
wage check
and home girl is about
to get 17% portion.
Now thinking
“I should of used
my hand and bottle of lotion.”
Life is suddenly moving
in fast motion,
since you didn’t use
no Trojans.
Should of followed the commercial
slogans,
and use a latex.
Now in regret, you do
something seriously that
you seriously regret.
Not ready for that responsibility
since you was thinking irresponsibly.
Hire a hitman to kill
home girl and the unborn baby.
He wraps his hands(wearing black gloves)
around her neck,
and strangles her to death.
She coughing up blood
until there is nothing left.
A homicide committed.
Hitman leaves fingerprints
and the evidence
is prominent.
Now hitman arrested and
interrogated
he snitched
on you and now you
are arrested.
Looking at murder
and conspiracy charges.
Now you facing a long term
prison sentence.
On the bus ride to your
new home you ask yourself,
was it worth it?
A deep question,
is it better to just become
a deadbeat father than
to murder a baby to escape
this type of responsibility?
Be careful when it comes to pussy,
because pussy that shit kills

No Title Yet

I didn’t plan on posting anything until May, but I have been doing a lot of writing for the past 6 weeks. I haven’t uploaded anything on here since December 31st, and I can’t lie I do miss uploading blogs but I still do be around from time to time to give feedback on other people’s blogs. Now I’m still on break so I won’t upload anything else until May but I have wrote this story I wanted to share with my bloggers. I need your help and I want to get you involved with this story by helping me come up with an ending.

You don’t need to answer this question in the comment section, but why do you think I wrote this story and what is the lesson behind this story?

For those of you that have Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, etc, when you see a picture a bad chick, thick in all the right places, caramel complexion, sexy pose, how many likes and comments do you think she get based on her picture?

A lovely woman with a nice shape
and a gorgeous face.
Want to take her on a date.
Bring her back to your place.
Have sex on the 1st date
with a condom to keep you safe.
Most men think of looks
but I see beyond the pretty face.
The vagina is a snake
gifted wrapped as a present
on Christmas Day.
This lovely woman is a celebration.
Smile is bright and gorgeous
like Christmas decorations
in a white neighborhood.
Proud to express your manhood
as she aggressively takes
charge of your wood.
Cooks and clean,
rubs your back,
and massages your feet.
Affectionate in all the
right places.
Sending you nudes
only a daily basis.
A lady in public
but a freak in private
which really means
a bunny rabbit in public
but a rat in private.
Seems all innocent
in the front
but hiding the fishing rod
behind her back
to reel you in.
Trapping you in her bullshit.
She starts off with
“Your different compared to the assholes
I been with!”
“I’m so lucky to have you!”
“What do you think our future kids would be like?”
“It don’t matter what we do, as long as I spend time with you.”
This is how it is in the beginning.
Sounds lovely but for every beginning there is always an ending.
As time is moving, mood and tension is changing.
My mom and I got into an argument and she kicked me out.
Can I stay with you for a little while?
You don’t really want to but you allow her to stay.
Make some closet space
for all her outfits and high heels,
but at least she says
I will help you with the rent and any other bills”
Start to feel a little better, because you can use
the extra cheddar.
Helps out only for the first month.
Home cooked meals on the regular.
Without being asked, she packs your lunch.
Good sex and blowjobs, you receive a ton.
In fact receiving so much, you barely get to sleep much.
One day you come home and she is on the couch crying.
She just got laid off , “What am I going to do?” She won’t stop complaining.
You feel bad and tell her not to worry.
You being all charming, telling her that
she is smart and sexy and how she will
one day land on her feet.
You also tell her not to worry about paying rent
so she could focus on looking for a job.
You have sympathy for her because you know life is hard.
Never enough flashcards
to prepare you for when you loose your job.
Next day you come home and she is
on the couch watching TV.
Day after she isn’t home because she texted you she is at the library
and she didn’t tell you she left a lot of dishes
in the sink.
Day after she isn’t home again and she didn’t leave you a text message.
Your bedroom is a mess, clothes all over the bed,
perfume all over the dresser, lipstick all over the chester.
Now pissed off, you head to the bathroom
and it smells like marijuana .
So now you call her and leave a voicemail “Where the fuck are you, get your ass back to my apartment I need to talk to you”
She comes and says “I heard your voicemail, why do you have an attitude?”

I will write a part 2 and continue this story but I was thinking of ending this story in three ways

  1. Have the ending where this guy eventually gets her pregnant but find out the baby isn’t his and he kills the baby
  2. She sets him up to get robbed by some street guys
  3. They get into an argument and they get into a fight and he accidentally kills her and now trying to cover up the murder

I want you to comment below and either choose between the three on how I should end this story or if you have another clever way to end this story comment below. I am open to all ideas.

After I write part 2, I will edit this and add a tittle. I purposely didn’t add a title to this story yet. I will upload part 2 in May. I have a lot of good poems coming in the future.

It may take some time before I reply if you choose to comment below because I’m so busy so I apologize ahead of time for late responses to comments

See you all in May

Chase The Money Not The SEX 

I am not talking about all women in this poem

 

 

 

Money and sex is our satisfaction.
Making money is our passion  but having sex is a infatuation.
Money attracts girls but the broke men  don’t  understand this,
So instead  they seek what’s between the legs and chase it.
This is time wasting.
More money you obtain  the more you’ll seek  pretty faces,
with the tight curves exposed thru the tight dresses.
But money comes 1st so don’t  mix pleasure with business
because pussy  can be poisonous  like the tongue on a python.
Hustle hard and stack bread and let the paper grow long.
Paper grows long then the women  come along.
Women aren’t so simple but yet they aren’t so difficult.
Chasing paper  minimizes   female issues.
Paper is the key to using reverse psychology  to breaking down a pretty young lady easily.
Women minds are complicated like a Macbeth novel, keeping a simple man up all night like a night owl.
Paper  will simplify a  woman’s  mind  because  paper   is like spark notes.
Women will understand your language  when you provide them the c-notes.
Paper is their  dictionary to understand a man word for word,
because women  can’t  comprehend the mind of a man who’s poor,
but this is absurd.
Broke man  and a wealthy man talk to the same girl exchanging same words.
Broke man can be intelligent with excellent  vocabulary but  she will ignore him completely.
Wealthy men can be ignorant with a first grade vocabulary but she will let him smash in a heartbeat.
Chase after the wealthy to be 1st place like she sprinting in a track meet.
So lesson is don’t  chase the pussy, chase the dream because  the dream provides the money and money provides the pussy.

 

I want to wish you all a Merry Christmas tomorrow and family always come first. Sometimes family will get on your damn nerves but in this world family is all you got, remember that 

I have been uploading for 24 days straight and tomorrow I am taking a break from uploading.

My next post is December 26. If anyone of  you want to send me a link of a post of yours, send me the link in the comment section and tomorrow I will gladly read and give feedback on your post

Also comment below in quotes if you have a deep question that you think about constantly that you want me to blog about and I will upload it in January.
Also comment below if there was a line in the poem you didn’t agree with or want me to explain

 

 

 

I Will Never Forget My 25th Birthday (Part 2) This is a very long blog personal blog

I sure some of you have noticed  I have been posting a lot blogs for the last 3 days. For the month of December I plan to go all out with my blogs and I will be posting a lot of rel – eatable  content. Tomorrow  I will post a poem “Suicide thoughts” and it’s a deep topic to discuss. Now please for those of you that don’t know me, please click this link Who Am I? . It’s an autobiography of me to learn more about me so you can understand this story. Also please, please read I Will Never Forget My 25th Birthday (Part 1) before reading this blog. I hope you all enjoy.  This is a very, very long blog so I will understand if you get bored but I wanted to share my story because I know a lot of people been heart broken before and I like to break things down for you bloggers to picture what I went through. Also this is a very long blog, so if you don’t like reading long blogs you will get bored reading this.

April 2015

Next day is Sunday and I’m still thinking about the previous night. She text me “Good Morning” and I replied back but I wasn’t in the mood to communicate with her. Throughout the day she kept texting me and I just kept replying back but I wasn’t really feeling the vibe after what happened the previous night. After a while, she noticed that I wasn’t really in the mood so she asked me “Are you okay?” I replied back “I call you later” When she got off work, I called her and I asked “Do you still have feelings on me?” she was a little hesitant and said” On certain days I do, on certain days I’m not in the mood.” Now that I’m wiser looking back at it now, I should of just wished her luck and moved on, but you live and you learn. So anyway when she told me that, I asked her “Well what’s gonna happen between us in the future? She responded “I’m not sure” So I said “We can’t remain friends forever tho, either one day we will get back together or we will go our separate ways.” Now I don’t remember what her response was because this was like 3 years ago but I said what I said to her because I guess I was trying to put the pressure on her so she can really figure out what she wanna do. I felt like she got too comfortable with receiving relationship benefits on a friendship level. I also asked her over the phone why she didn’t want to kiss me and if she was uncomfortable and she told me “Oh no I was just tired and I wanted to go home.” I felt like she was bullshitting because even if you tired if you really into somebody even if your tired wouldn’t you still kiss that person?(just a question to think about)

                                                                     May 2015

Fast forward to May, me and this girl still are communicating but probably like 2 or 3 times a week. At this point I’m focus because I started working 2 jobs so I was busy everyday. At this point I started talking to other girls to get my mind off my ex because at this point I didn’t know what was going to happen between me and her. My ex and I would text about 2 or 3 times a week. I won’t lie I still had feelings for her. Now back in April when we saw the fast furious movie I did tell her we were going to see Avengers age of Ultron in May but after I tried to kiss her and she slammed the car door on my face I was like fuck that (for those that don’t know what happened when we saw fast furious go back to the top of this blog and click on the link and read the 1st part). So it was the beginning of May and we texting back and fourth. I mentioned I couldn’t wait to see the avengers movie. She said when do you plan to see it” I said maybe this weekend”
then I asked her “Do you plan to see it?” She said ” I thought we planned on seeing it together but I guess you don’t feel like driving to queens.” Lol I played it off and said ” Lol my fault I forgot you know I’m a old man I forget simple shit”. She called me an old man. I didn’t forget, I was playing it off because you see, this girl barely kissed me, and we haven’t had sex in months. Now me and her are just friends at this point so I wasn’t really chasing the sex but at this point I’m like if she comfortable enough to hang out with me, comfortable enough to her allow to pick from work, I even gave her money twice(now this was my fault because I volunteered to do this) but whenever I try to make a move or bring up my feelings she goes cold. So now I’m like you know what, I ain’t going out my way for her no more unless she gives it up. So later when I was in school, we was texting back and  fourth. Don’t remember how this started, but I said to her “You can’t say my name lol ” but we just joking. She said “Yes I can lol”. I said “You can’t say my name unless we having sex and I know you not trying to take it there” She put “Lmao but can still say your name”. I said “Lol why well are you going to have sex with me?” She said “No, but I can still say your name” I said “Alright fine, you can say my name while having sex with another guy” She said “No that would be very rude of me to say that” I said, ” Well it’s very rude for you to say my name”, I don’t remember her response but after I left class I gave her a call. I decided that either we get back together or I go my separate way.  So called her and told that. I asked her if she wanted to work things out and get back together. She said she wasn’t sure so I told I will give you 2 weeks to think about it.  The following week she got the nerve to ask me for a favor,something to do with her car. I made up an excuse though, I didn’t do it. Some other things happen during the month of May but I can’t remember everything because it’s been so long. This took place over two years ago.

                                                                June 2015

So now we fast forward to June. Both of our birthdays were in June. Between May and June we barely spoke. I was on the verge of just cutting her off. At this point, I still had feelings but I was starting to get use to not hearing from her. I felt like I started healing. I felt like I was getting stronger or at least I thought I was. So anyway it was  the middle of June  and it was her birthday. It was 9AM and I was contemplating on rather or not if I should text her “Happy Birthday”. So after 10 minutes of being in deep thought, I decided to text her “Happy Birthday” and she said “Thank you!”. From that day until June 22, we slowly started communicating here and there but not often. So now fast forward to about 4 or 5 days later this girl texted me ” You okay?”. Once in a blue moon she would text me this if we haven’t spoke in a while. So anyway, I texted her” I alright wbu?” So she “I’m good” I said” Is there anything you wanna talk about?” She said” Are you seeing new friend?” I said” New friend? do you mean if  I’m dating somebody new?” She said “Yes!” I said “No, but why did you ask me that?” She said “No reason” I said” for real stop playing why you asked me that?” She said” I just want to see you found someone to replace me that’s all”. Now I  don’t know why I said this looking back at this now but my response was” Nah, nobody would ever take your place”.
She responded” Aww 😚😚
So she asked me” How is work coming along?”
I said “I’m just busy you know staying focus working two jobs?” She said ” That’s a lot, but if we was to get back together, how would you have the time?” I said”Good question, but I can make time.” Now I was just thinking to myself maybe she does want to get back together but I still was on my guard because I still didn’t trust her. I somewhat had feelings for her still, but I was healing little by little.  So fast forward to June 22, she texted me ” How you doing?” I said” I’m good!”  We was going back and fourth and she I told her that my supervisor was letting me leave work early. She said” Why?” I said “because it’s my birthday” She said “Omg I’m so sorry Happy Birthday!”  I’m just like “lol thank you”. One minute later, she gave me a call and said she apologizes for forgetting my birthday then she said let’s hang out. I said I’ll let you know. I wasn’t sure if it was a good idea. So  I asked a co-worker for advice. The co-worker said I should let her take me out for my birthday. So I took his advice(looking back now I should just went with my instincts instead of taking this advice)

                                                                   July 2015

For those of you reading this, if you don’t like what your hearing and if you feel like this is a fucked story then I wouldn’t recommend reading the rest of this story because it does get worst. So now it’s July and I wanted go to a buffet. I picked her up and we went to the buffet. I swear I was not trying to make a move or anything I just wanted to be a simple date that’s all. So we at the buffet, and we are talking. She seemed really excited to see me. Around this time, I was listening to K love trying to change my ways and become more positive. So anyway, I can’t lie, my feelings started coming back, she seemed really excited to see me, plus she just got her license so I was excited for her. She wanted to register for college (now what I am about to say was so foolish, so stupid, so navie) and she owed the school 1000 dollars.  I was working two jobs, I had money, plus I was listening K love radio station, so I was feeling positive and I felt like God was looking out for me. I love helping people so I offer to help her pay for college and I told her she only have to pay me half back by December. She really appreciated it. So after the buffet I was planning to take her home, but  she said she wasn’t in a rush to go home. We decided to go to the mall to pass time. To my surprise, she started holding my hand while in the mall. Now that’s what got me because we haven’t done that in months.  Now think about this, 3 weeks prior, she asked me if I was dating anybody else, if we got back together how would you have the time,  and she started holding my hand, now wouldn’t this lead you on?  So we head back to the car and I was feeling the moment and I tried kissing her. She started pulling back harder. So I’m thinking like alright she just playing hard to get. It’s been a while since like months since  I got close with a female and I feel like this was a good opportunity. This time I didn’t care I was coming on to her. But when I got closer the second time, she said “I  don’t want to get turned on , it’s been a month since I been turned on” I paused for a second because I’m like what the fuck that got to do with me and why you telling that. So I asked her “You had sex a month ago?”  she said “Yes”. Let’s think about this, all along for months I made effort to show her that I care, I gave her money like twice, picked her up from work, went to church with her family, contacted her on a daily, never pressured her for sex up until this point, and she fucked someone else like wow. I was shocked because I let my guard down. In the back of my mind since April I had a feeling she was messing with another guy. I knew it and I tried my hardest to move on but she kept leading me on and I tried so hard to give her the benefit of the doubt. Now I can’t remember what my response was, but I drove her home in silence. I went home pissed of. For the men that’s reading this, I’m sure you can understand how I felt.  So anyway she texted me “I’m sorry I didn’t mean to get you upset” I called her and told I think it’s best we don’t talk for a while.  I couldn’t even go to sleep that night. Every day I kept thinking and thinking about this bullshit. I couldn’t focus at work , I couldn’t focus at school , I just kept replaying this shit in my head. I could not let it go.  So I went to God and I prayed. I too realized  that back in October I broke up with her through a text message and I will briefly explain that at the end of this blog. So I prayed and I talked to my mom and she started praying for me. After about a week , I decided to text and ask her why she did what she did?(I know I should of just left her alone) When you love somebody it’s very hard to move on. In fact, when the person you love breaks your heart, you blame yourself and that’s what  I did. Now I can’t remember everything but since I was trying so hard to forgive her, praying to God still,  I decided to forgive her and I texted whatever happened on my birthday let’s leave it in the past and just move on. Now at this point I wasn’t trying to get back with her anymore, but I thought at least we can be civil and move on. The reason why I blamed myself because sometimes I feel like I overthink a lot of things and I create situations and problems  in my head worrying about every single thing and I was trying hard to change that at that time. So I figure maybe I’m just thinking too hard and I should just let this go. So anyway, after I texted her that, she told me thank you. So we started talking a little and I’m slowly letting go what happened then she got the nerve to text me ” You still going to lend me the money?” In my head I’m like you gotta be fucking serious. I’m like what the hell. I should of cursed her ass out. I responded “I don’t know I will think about”. I didn’t plan on lending her money. I thought about it and  I asked myself, why should I lend her money?

Before I continue with the story, I will briefly explain something real quick so you can understand my though process at this time. I apologize for this long blog, but I am trying hard to break everything down so you can understand this. I am going to be completely honest and this is not easy for me to admit this but I think it’s important for you to know this. When me and this girl got together, this was my first relationship and I was inexperienced in all areas. I repeat, I was inexperienced in all areas. So we got together and I was embarrassed by my inexperience and I felt like I couldn’t keep her with her. I had problems staying hard. Truth was I never admitted to her, but I didn’t know how to put on a condom. So I couldn’t maintain an erection. I was extremely embarrassed. So I decided to go unprotected. Still couldn’t keep it up. This shit was in my head all throughout the day. Since I was inexperienced, I use to compare myself to other guys. I was felt like she was going to leave me because of that.  I went to urologist and he gave me cialis and it worked for me. Since I didn’t know how to put on condoms, I just went unprotected. I got addicted to having sex unprotected and I hated condoms. So anyway there was guy she use to date before me and I thought she still had feelings for him while she was with me. Let’s just say because of my lack of experience was the reason why I felt like she still had feelings for the previous guy before I came into the picture. There’s a lot more to say but I feel like I probably already gave you guys a headache so I will leave it here.

 

So back where I left off with the story,  I was thinking about lending her the money but then I thought to myself, what if the guy had sex with was a from the past? Next day, I texted and first thing I asked her was “If I lend you money, will you promise me to pay me back in December?” She said “Yes” Then I asked her ” Remember when you told me you had sex a month ago, was that guy you had sex with a new guy you just met or a guy from your past?  She said” Someone from the past” When I heard that damn, I can’t describe how painful that felt.  The reason why it felt painful because here I am, nice, respectful gentleman, doing everything in my power to be there for this girl and yet she fucking somebody from the past when she clearly tells me that all the guys from her past were trash. W got into an argument and she told me ” I don’t know why you making a big deal, it’s my life and I wasn’t even dating the guy, it was just a fling thing.” I wanted to punch her in the fucking face.  I can’t lie, I went to the bathroom I called my mom and I was in tears.

 

 

This experience changed me. To this day I haven’t been back to church ever since. I stopped listening to K love, I lost respect for women. I was hurt for months until I went to the strip club and I just started paying for sex. Real talk. Believe it or not , the strip club was my healing factor and I was watching porn like crazy. What happened was strip clubs and porn desensitized my mind. I didn’t trust any girls. I only wanted strippers but I wore a condom though I didn’t smash a stripper raw, I ‘m not that crazy. I realize that strippers make bad decisions but they are friendly people that accept you for who you are. A few of them I was getting to know them and I realized that they have a lot potential to be great. Now some people judge strippers and think they are stupid hoes, let me tell you something, strippers make poor decisions but they are warm hearted people(most not all) trying to earn a living and even though they caught a lot of bodies, they will make sure their clients use to protection because they want to catch nothing. A lot of these girls out here getting pregnant fucking every nigga raw, they ain’t no better than the strippers. But eventually I did get bored with the strip club but it did help me though.  As time move on, I started to talk to other females and I realized I had more in common with other females than my ex.  I realized my ex wasn’t for me. This was all a learning experience and you know what, I thank her for breaking my heart. She taught me a lot and I forgive her now. If we was still together I would eventually been miserable. I accept myself for who I am and that I am just an over thinker. Not giving a fuck healed me. Now if I don’t get hard in the bedroom, I don’t give a fuck, if a girl gets upset and think I’m lame then go fuck another nigga it don’t bother me. I realized that being single was the best decision ever. Someone on twitter use to tweet everyday ” I’m glad that I can wake up and not get cheated on” lol I don’t know why but that’s funny to me. I started saying that lol. Now for women reading this, I know there are some good women out there I know,so I didn’t take my frustration out on all women but some of you are fucked up, just being honest. Another lesson I learn is you can’t always trust a christian that lives by the bible day in and day out(no offensive). Some Christians are good people so I’m not placing all Christians in this category, but be careful because some of them will hurt you in the worst. Some of them will just receive from you and will not give you anything in return. I respect church members and it’s a great honor to see them worship God but the one thing that use to annoy me with them was they are so nosy. Like they would always try everything in their power to  try to get me involved in the church activities , they don’t accept no for an answer. For example, they say, “come to the Friday night service, you said you don’t work on Fridays you not doing nothing so come on down” it’s annoying when they do that because it’s like they trying to trap me into coming but all this does is push me away further and further. Like I said I wasn’t perfect because I broke up with my ex through a text message so I’m not trying to appear innocent.  If you would like to hear more about why I broke up with my ex, through a text message and the events take took place then comment below. If you read this long blog from start to finish appreciate you because this took a lot of thinking to write this. I love relating to people that been heart broken because I know how it feels.   I heard this in church once

 

“We all have gotten hurt by somebody and we all will hurt somebody”

 

“we can’t change the world unless we change ourselves”

I had no intention on uploading a post today but after reading It’s just another choice …. comment  on my post Do I Perfer Strippers?Women Got Me Fed Up  it motivated me to write this post. Her comment was so sincere and so honest so I give her my appreciation for writing this blog . I am going to be straight forward and truthful in this blog and check out her blog when you get a chance. Now the quote “We can’t the world unless we change ourselves” came from biggie smalls in the Notorious B.I.G. movie that came out in 2009. I applied to this quote to women. In this blog I am going to talk about the women’s mindset in this blog and I am not placing all women in category.

Now before I talk about women, I just want to say I already wrote a blog What About Men? in which explains my definition of men that are trash so I’m not being biased in this blog. I came across a few blogs and some tweets on Twitter for the past couple months. Now I notice this trend about men being in “Men are trash”, “Men ain’t shit”, “Niggas ain’t shit” category. I have read blogs ,tweets, and other stories on social media explaining the reasons why men are placed  in the “Men are trash” category. Now in my honest opinion, I honestly think  this is very useless when women do this  because complaining about men on social media does not solve anything. I don’t  get offended but it’s just why go on social media and complain and start a trend “Men ain’t shit” because someone broke your heart? Social media don’t give a fuck about your problems but I get it, you upset and you want to express yourself and that’s fine. But when women say “Men are trash” some men will get offended because that trend make it seems like men as a whole are all trash that’s why some  men actually respond and say “not all men are trash maybe you messing with the wrong guys”. Now what get’s me annoyed though is when women say “Men who say not all men are considered trash because real men understand we are not talking about them”. This logic make no type of sense whatsoever. I will break everything down.

The reason why I think it’s useless when women complain on social media because majority of them are doing that for attention so other people can comment on their post, tweet, etc. Now when a female gets her heart broken, I understand how she feels and yes its going to be natural to say that “Men are trash” I get it, but still no reason to go on social media and promote this throughout social media. Complaining about your problems does  not do anything but make the problem worst, its how you go about solving them. To solve a problem is to learn from your mistakes. Now this is where the “We can’t change the world unless we change ourselves” quote come into play. A lot of women  will complain and expect to receive some type of sympathy when a man breaks her heart but just like how men hurt women, women hurt men too. I’m a man and I got my heart broken before, I’ve gotten ignored before, but how would you  women feel if I was to go on social media and say “Women are bitches”, wouldn’t you get offended? Wouldn’t you think I was talking about women as a whole?  I’m gonna be honest, some women are bitches but not every woman in this world is a bitch and nor will I ever call a woman a bitch. When I got my heart broken I was angry and yes I did say “These hoes ain’t loyal to my friends”, I did say “Women are fucked up”, I did say “Never trust a bitch” but I did not go on social media to complain about my women problems because, 1) social media don’t give a fuck and 2) not every women is a bitch, not every women is a hoe. I spoke to close friends about my problems, I went to a therapists, and most importantly I thought about all the mistakes I’ve made and realize that I didn’t use good judgement. So another words, I was trying to learn from my mistakes. Women should do they same instead of starting this “Men are trash” trend. Now I know some of you are thinking “Well its different with women because women don’t get the type of respect as men do” and that’s true I understand that. But if you women want they same type of respect, if you want men to respect you, ya have to learn to respect each other. Men do call women bitches and it has to stop, but women as well call each other bitches. Hell women refer to themselves as bitches. You know how many times I heard women say “I’m a bad bitch” when referring to themselves? A shit load of times. Another thing that women do is slut sham. Men as well slut sham, but women do it more. To be honest, it be the sluttiest women that be quick to judge other women. Women have  to raise their standards a little higher and use better judgment. Majority of women seek men with men with money,popularity, and fame.  Now there are a select few of women that do want a honest, working man that will treat a woman like a queen but majority of them will ignore the good guys. Most women won’t admit this but most of them think good men are lame, boring, cornballs, etc so that’s why they seek the popular guys. Women will string the good men along, use him,  and ask him for advice regarding men(this is a big one). I swear women do this, they have that one guy friend that they not really into but will call him or text him as soon as she needs advice regarding the man she is chasing.  The man she is chasing as usual is playing games ignoring her and she calls and ask for advice  to the good guy. The good guy obviously knows the type of guy she is chasing doesn’t have good intentions. So good guy gives advice to this girl and she listens. She even goes as far and say that she appreciates the advice that was provided, thanks the guy  saying she appreciates him, and says that she is done with the guy she is chasing. But guess what, like 2 weeks later, her and that guy that she supposedly said she was done with are talking and  hanging out again. For those of the guys that’s reading this and wondering why this always happens? Well I won’t go to deep into the reason I am going to provide but a lot of times  good dick will interfere with a woman’s judgment in a negative way.  Another thing I don’t understand is women will give up the pussy to the worst type of guys in a heart beat. Women will give up the pussy to a guy she never been on a date with, but yet expect him to commit. Now why would a guy take you out on date and spend money on you if you already gave him some pussy? It’s one thing if you just want some dick which is not a problem, but if a guy calls you out your name, doesn’t spend time with you, haven’t claimed you as his girlfriend, never took you out on a date, why would you give him pussy? More than likely he will eventually end things with you, telling you that he seeing someone else or he will just completely ignore you for good. Let me tell you a little secret,  8/10 times when he said he started seeing someone else, the person he seeing was his girlfriend before he met you. You was just a side chick all along. But a lot times side chicks don’t know that they are side chicks until it’s too late. So yes women get hurt bad because of this. But if women use better judgement, a lot of them wouldn’t be in this situation. But anyway the women that do end up in this situation, only a small portion will move on and learn from their mistakes. Majority of them, make more bad decisions. Some women will get jealous  and try to destroy the relationship between the fuck guy and his girlfriend by blowing his spot up. Usually they not blowing up the fuck guy spot up because they are looking out for is girlfriend, they blowing his spot up because they are jealous of his girlfriend.  Some girls won’t even mind being a side chick anyway and will purposely try and get pregnant by the fuck guy to trap him or hoping her getting pregnant will make the fuck guy wanna leave his girlfriend.  Some girls will try to find a new guy to talk to ,to make the fuck guy jealous and this is stupid because the fuck guy don’t care. Besides even when the side chick gets a new man or string somebody else along, more than likely she will still let the fuck guy smash.  Another thing is(and this is a problem for both men and women) a lot of ya are having unprotected sex. Now yes I know unprotected sex is better than using protection so yes I get it, an unexpected pregnancy happens or you catch an STD, shit happens nobody perfect, but a lot of women don’t learn their lesson and will still fuck guys unprotected. These type of actions is why some women have a hard time finding Mr Right. Usually(not always) these are the type of women that go on social media and say “Niggas ain’t shit”. Another thing I have to add, when women finally do get a good man, they give him hell sometimes. Like he can do everything right, be a gentleman, spend money, take her out on dates, all her friends like him, he’s intelligent and it still won’t be enough.  These type of guys have a harder time and go through more bullshit. These be the type of guy that gotta wait like 3 months or more to get the pussy. Now everything is not about pussy, it’s not  I swear. One  more thing is, if a guy treats you like a queen, make sure you having a good day, knows when to give you space when your having a bad day, knows when to communicate with you, compliments you, somewhat attractive, and shows that he wants to be in your life, why do you got to think about it? Why does he got to be in the friend zone ? Why does he got to wait forever just to have sex with you? You see ya too busy complaining about the trash men, but ignoring all the good men. Now do you understand why good men say “Not all men are trash” because good men go through so much bullshit.  Here’s another thing, a lot of men that are trash were once good men. What happened was your typical good guy got his heart broken really bad which turned him into a savage. When a man gets his heart broken it’s because he didn’t see it coming because the girl he was dealing with seemed like a sweetheart that changed and switched on him. With women, a lot of times the guys ya deal with that break your heart, he gives obvious signals that he is playing games or cheating but sometimes ya do ignore the signals hoping that he will change or that you can change him. Let me tell you something, you can’t change a guy that’s not willing to change himself. Another thing ya complain about is fuck guys just wanting to fuck and fuck guys  being disrespectful and I understand where ya coming from. So why is it when you find a guy that has a good job, respectful, eloquent speaker, not afraid to make decisions, plans ahead, affectionate, and not afraid to brag about you to his friends and family, why would you leave him or cheat on him if the sex is not good? Now as a far as leaving him this one is tough one because I know nobody don’t want to settle with somebody with wack sex and sex is important so I kind of understand why a woman would leave but at least give him time to improve and see if he is willing to get better first. But a lot women will break up with a guy in a heart beat if the sex is wack. Women do judge men harshly if he is a one minute man or have a small dick. But truth is  some of these women ain’t  all that that in the bedroom neither. A lot of ya can’t even handle a guy with a big dick, some of ya aren’t the best when it comes to giving head, some of you aren’t all that developed. Now imagine if your boyfriend broke up with because you can’t give good head? Imagine if a guy broke up with you because your ass and breast are small? Doesn’t that sound very shallow? At the end of the day it’s like this, Good sex will make a unhealthy relationship stretch, and bad sex will healthy relationship crumble. As fucked up as it sounds, this tells you how powerful sex is. Sex should not be more powerful than loyalty and commitment. Another thing that I heard is they say the best dick come from a broke man or a man that ain’t shit and a nice guy always got wack dick. I don’t know how many of you heard of this, I heard of this  quite a few times. This logic is a little ass backwards. The only way you can tell if a man is good in the bedroom is to actually have to sex with him and get to know him and understand him in that department. Another way you might be able to tell(and even this is not guarantee) is if he knows how to dance or if he exercise. Sex is about rhythm and dancing is about rhythm so more than likely he probably knows how to move and have control of his rhythm providing spectacular  strokes. That’s why Jamaican are very good in the sex department lol.  A man that exercises makes his heart healthy which will increase blood flow to his penis which gives him firm erections that can help him to last longer in the bed room.

I’m provide an example of a TV show. For those of you that watch Power, you know James St Patrick AKA Ghost and Tasha St Patrick. Ghost cheated on his wife and he was wrong no doubt. A lot fans criticized him for cheating and called him a dumb ass for cheating. Now a lot of people think Tasha is a ride or die. Tasha is not a ride or die I don’t care what nobody says. Tasha cheated too. In fact she technically cheated first. Look at season 1 episode 1 and you’ll see what I’m talking about. Ghost is a drug dealer that’s trying to go legit but Tasha doesn’t want him to leave the drug game. She isn’t loyal to Ghost, she is loyal to his money but yet she is a ride or die which makes no sense. I won’t go too much into but if you watch season 1 of power you’ll see what I’m talking about.

We do have trash men such as Donald Trump and Bill Cosby. But what about Black Chyna? What about Scottie Pippens  wife? In fact I gonna say something reckless. For those of you that watch porn(don’t judge me lol) it’s a lot videos you’ll see women blowing another guy while on the phone with her boyfriend. Quite a few videos.  On the Maury show , some women come on the show swear they know who the father of her baby is but get sad when she finds out the dude she thought was the father is not. Now I’m not trying to judge but why would you have unprotected sex with more than one man at the same time? At least wear a condom.  Just another thing, I gotta question for the men, have this ever happened you know where you was speaking to a female for a little while and  ya was getting close then all of a sudden she stop responding to your text, then all of a sudden like 4 months later  she text you “Hey stranger”? You see what they do is they string you along until her ex start acting right again so she’ll forget about you, then once they stop talking, they hit you up and think they can just come back to you like nothing ever happened.

My point of this blog was to show you that just like men, there are trash women as well. Women play games as well. The problem is society portrays men as trash but never bring up the dirt that women do. This is for the women that say “Men ain’t shit” when men say “not all men” it’s not because we are guilty(not all of us) it’s because we know the bullshit that good men go through. When ya say “men ain’t shit” it does sound like you are speaking about men as a whole. How would you feel if men started a trend and said “Women are bitches”? You know goddamn well you would not like it.  Just to say this, yes I know women aren’t treated equally like men and it’s unfair. But there are times when things do work in your favor and men are at a disadvantage.  Court for example, the judge normally favors the women over the men as far as child support.  Single mothers get  a lot of credit and they deserve all the credit because being a single parent is hard but what about single fathers? Single fathers don’t get as much credit as single mothers do. Females are coldhearted  just like men. In fact I know females that told me they rather be around guys because it’s too much drama with females. Women are spreading this “Men ain’t shit trend” but females don’t even respect each other. Females don’t get along with each other. Now men should uplift women, but how do you expect men to do that if women don’t uplift each other? One way is on March which is women’s history month, both women and men should uplift each other. Women want men to uplift them but it women have to uplift each other as well. Women need to hold fuck boys accountable and stop making it easy for them to get pussy. Women need to acknowledge and admit that women hurt men too and that both men and women are trash. Stop blaming men for everything.  I highly wouldn’t recommend women spreading the “Men ain’t shit” trend over social media because the trash men aren’t the ones that say “not all men” , they are usually (not all) liking your status agreeing with everything your saying or just laughing at you because he know he gonna get pussy from somewhere else so he don’t care if you think he is trash. As I stated previously, you are not wrong for feeling like men are trash when your heartbroken, but seek therapy,  allow yourself to heal, mentor to teenagers to not make the same mistakes that you did, realize that a relationship will not give you happiness if you not happy with yourself, when on these dating sites try to focus for one guy at time, maybe even two but not highly recommended to talk to more than 3 different guys at once, stopping depending on the online dating is the only solution to meeting people, learn to be more friendly in person, and put God first in everything you do. Think of all the choices you made, now ask, if my daughter made the same choices I did, would I be proud of her? Remember “We can’t change the world unless we change ourselves.”