Keeping things bottled up inside
Some say its suicide
Some say its how you survive
All I know is I try
Just want peace before I die
so I keep things inside
to subdue the tears from my eyes
but running out of room
on the inside
so one day I may explode like a dynamite.
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Does The Storm Last Forever
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The storm is temporary
Pain is something
I don’t plan to make hereditary
I will be a legend
the day people visit my cemetery
I’m weak now
but the load is something
I force myself to carry
Was once freezing and pouring
Now it is just chilly and drizzling
One day it will be sunny
and God’s light will shine
on me but for now
I have to concentrate on the demon
inside me
Listening to my life story
is a sad story
It’s like expressing your heartbreak story
but yet trying to remain strong
and pretending your mood is ordinary
but deep down
you are hoping your past love
call you and tell you that they still care.
The words we are hoping to hear
lead to disappointments
when the truth is what we see
and the truth is rarely what we hear
Accepting criticism is not easy to bare that’s why our
private life is something
we don’t like to share
Judgmental is what makes us scared
like Chuckie
when he sees the guy on the oatmeal box
The heart is a door
we might just for once leave unlock
for a robber to steal everything
we got
We learn the hard way, the heart hardens
Our personality received the life sentence
and the key is thrown away
The heart is forever locked
for us being afraid of opening up again
Being afraid is
wishing you can start over again
but refuse to
Regret being miserable and hating yourself because starting over
is what you refuse to do.
So when you die and loved ones
visit your cemetery
they will always remember that you could not handle the truth
Just Another Nigga
Tough times never last
It’s all in your mind
I am living luxurious
It’s all in my mind
when I dream of dream
so marvelous
like a shooting star
This is what I wish
when my dreams are shot down
Being black in the wrong town
I’ve been told I am just another nigga
Freedom is not a blessing
Freedom is luck
Difference between blessings and luck
Blessings are miracles provided by heroes
Luck is just a demon telling in your mind
“you are not safe,
I just haven’t had the time to kill you yet
and when I do, I will piss on your grave
You are just another nigga
and will always be
I don’t care about your accomplishments
I don’t give a fuck about your dreams
Until I kill you
I will haunt you in your sleep
Why do think ghost are white?
Ask yourself that
everytime
I tell you
You are just another nigga”
This Is the World We Live In
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That’s what’s wrong with the world
Men want to improve their circumstances
Men aren’t willing to improves themselves
We disrespect our self-respect
for a greater addiction
Moments of a broken elevator
and the lights goes out
Stuck in the same spot, demons attack behind closed doors
A world of darkness,
blood and gore
But what we fear is too prideful
for our acceptance
so we receive the weapons
like a recruit going a war for
but for the wrong purpose
We kill those we love
because we hate the truth.
We rather look cool
so the power of addiction do what it do
Turn blind to a light
that was suppose to help us seek
and worship a dark world
that lacks form and void
and hate are the words we speak
Fallen angles control our mouths like translators
to force a language so that can slay the weak
instead of improving those that are fragile
we take the advantage of the inexperienced
Life is prison on the outside
Its about adaption and survival of the fittest
Crime rate increase in areas
where it feels like its impossible to find a meal ticket in a way that’s legitimate
But how can we conform with society
when racism exist
Contagious like covid
and killed so many lives
and some were innocent
The master of slaves
get jealous of the
slave that don’t even have a third
of what the master have
but one small accomplishment of a slave
will form rallies of KKK
A thin line between love and hate
on a deeper level
Its a thin line between Jokes and Jealously
Some say jokes is really jealously
in disguise
Jokes is a serpent, jealously is the dragon
So is love really pure, or is love really hate?
Do you come on social media
express how you grateful for life
and your accomplishments
and then go to the mirror and cry yourself
to sleep because you can’t stand the sight of your face
It be the people with most prettiest faces
that does the most hatred
So if racism was a neighbor hood,
it would be Centreville, Illinois
disguised as a beautiful attraction
so another words just pictureMidtown Manhattan
with all the riots and that’s the world we live in
If you had power to destroy one or the other, would you destroy racism or covid?
I Will Never Go Back
I don’t resonate with old me
Too many dark paths
To many demons in me
It took years for me to conquer
To make it this far I’m honored
and I will never give the past over me
I plan to accomplish my dreams
If I bleed
I won’t die
It’s a scarfice for a better life
Would You Want Somebody To Read Your Autobiography?
“If you don’t learn to write your own life story, someone else will write it for you”
This quote is remarkable to someone like myself trying to increase my wealth.
I took heed of the many voices that led to many choices. Staying patient, trying to remain focus The accolades to celebrate the daily grind, I know I deserve it, but yet still not where I want to be.
“Some dreams stay dreams, some dreams stay true.” The line has been attached in my mind since the age of sixteen.
When I was a teen, I had dreams of accomplishing everything, Losing my virginity at 17, Having a car at 17, moving out going away to college at 18, having a bachelor’s degree at 21, going to clubs and partying at 21.
At 17, I graduated high school a virgin, damn near didn’t lose my virginity until 21.
At 18, I had poor SAT scores plus I was a B- student, so ending up going to a community college.
At 21, I was attending farmingdale state college while contemplating becoming a police officer which failed miserably due to failing the oral psychological test, plus I didn’t get my bachelors degree until 27 due to me switching careers at 23, but I did finally get a car which was four years overdue.
What happens is as you age, you come to the realization that Welcome to reality is not Welcome to Disneyland.
Everything does not happen according to plan.
Reality is allowing yourself to be the scapegoat and never forgiving yourself while in actuality the scapegoat is someone else utilizing demon tactics to paint you as one.
The end goal is to wake up the day before you die and hearing Michael saying that you won.
But how do you win, how do you become a winner? How do you get a good night sleep, knowing you don’t make enough money? How do you get a good night sleep when you have to make a choice rather spend money or stay hungry? How do you get a good night sleep when you try to find the root cause of why black lives don’t matter in America?
These are complicated questions and my answers to each don’t remain constant.
So when I hear “If you don’t learn to write your own life story, someone else will write it for you” this poem that I have written is the true definition.
I feel like Jesus starving after 40 days and the people that give advice are the devils, tempting and pressuring me to see the light.
I write this to let the ones know that are proud of me to don’t tell me how to feel.
This is a preview of an autobiography that shows the misery, but in 10 years when I turn 40, hopefully I will write an extension with something more positive.
My poetic disorder
My poems are bipolar
500 poems written and I’m diagnosed with a poetic disorder.
I can write something romantic one minute.
I can write something very frantic,
it makes my mother panic
the next minute.
My poem can make a turtle come out its shell
My poem can make a heart melt
My poem can break a woman down.
My poem can break a heart so bad,
can have a person go missing
like keys in the lost and found.
My poem demonstrates my sexual abilities
about me boasting about my stamina and agility.
My poem also describes why pussy is too easy
that sex is
barely pleasing.
I can be a tease.
I just do enough to make her knees weak and cum all over the sheets
just with my words.
My pants, they zipped up and that’s my word.
My poem describes misery is a devil that tricks me,
into thinking life was made to be easy.
Devil tactics are drastic.
Smoking weed is the habit
to just be poetic.
But yet , I wrote at least 20 poems of how Jesus is my greatest weapon.
I wrote a poem about how teachers and pastors are the biggest hypocrites.
My mood swing in my poem goes up and down like a stock exchange
My poetic words taught me to take chances ,
when I have a shot close range.
But I’m a sniper rifle, so I don’t want a relationship unless its long distance.
My poem is a sniper, because when in deep thought, I can go for long distance
like a female pastor that’s long winded.
My poem is joyful like Nickelodeon shows, just PG rated
Or my poems can be more destructive than the coronavirus,
which is demonic rated.
Thank God For Another Day
Thank God for another day always. This coronavirus is deadly and anybody can catch this virus at any time. Please pray to God everday because any day can be your last. No matter, God always have a plan so this coronavirus is a lesson to appreciate your life, to save money, and to always be concerned with your health.
I pray that God shows the doctors the way to heal and contain the coronavirus. Please allow the virus to come and pass so people can travel, kids can go to school, and parents can go back to work. I ask God for forgiveness and I ask God to forgive those that sin as well.
If there is a cure, let the cure reach out to us quickly so we can move on and learn to appreciate being clean. The world will be ending soon, but I always pray that many people can make it to heaven as much as possible.
In Jesus name, Amen.
10 powerful Quotes
1.One of the many reasons we have fear in our heart is because we hate the truth.
- Hard work will never pay off if you don’t work smart because we put too much focus on the wrong area.
- Negative thinking have such a powerful impact in which you can have 364 good days and just 1 bad day which can have you thinking you had a bad year.
- Doing what you love for a living doesn’t guarantee a happy career if your co-workers and boss find a way you make you miserable.
- No race has it easy, but black people go through the most bullshit.
- Although black people go through the most bullshit, sometimes black people are at fault.
- The world is becoming overpopulated so make sure you pray to God before it’s too late.
- What’s scarier, being embrassed or never trying? Will you have a happier life for being embrassed for constantly trying or if your too afraid to try because your scared of being laughed at?
- Don’t mistake love for addiction because there is a big difference but when we think both mean the same thing, this is when we lose friends and family.
- No matter how hard life is, never give up but at times take a break. To win first place in a race, you have to train and train until your out of breath. When out of breath, you rest and recover and race the next day to build strength to make it to first place or die trying.
Out of the 10, which quote is most relatable to you?
Would You Rather Be Seen Or Heard?
Sound of a voice can hold weight, like a curvy woman.
But get neglected like the needs of an innocent child,
under the roof of an abusive parent.
The face and the skin is more obvious which define a unique blessing.
Too much attention towards an attraction like paintings in a art galley.
Being seen is the first impression(normally)
Being heard is the last impression(normally).
You will be seen by many, and will be ignored by many.
Silence is your best friend, but sometimes your worst enemy.
Silence break hearts like twigs, and annihilate families due to
mental slavery shackled to the brain.
The young and innocent commit suicide before arriving Junior High.
Bullies laugh while the principal mouth is zipped up like a body bag.
Parents are not notified and the victims of elementary school kids are terrified.
So silence disguise the inside which is being crucified.
The bullies are Romans that should be forgiven for they don’t know,
but yet still need to be held accountable for their actions.
Are the parents of these demons the scapegoat?
Only the lord knows.
Prejudgment is cold and do the most harm towards
the individuals without gloves and a scarf.
Prejudgment provides an affection that poison
the mind, body, and soul into thinking
life is not worth it
like a child that quit playing a sport that he only played in the first place to only gain the approval of his parents
that pressure and praise their son due to his athletic built.
How does this generation heal?
It takes skill to heal and it takes the appropriate tools to build.
The truth is shoved in white envelopes sealed inside a coffin.
Secrets are hidden all the time like miscarriages and abortions from parents.
So many similes and metaphors I can use to express my feelings on this subject.
Lets not forget about the victims of racism and sexism.
But here is the secret that is not so obvious to many.
The ugly truth is overridden by the curse of popularity.
Now not all popularity is bad, but it can move you ahead in life, like the fast lane pass in six flags.
When the ugly truth is not the popular vote or coming from the voice of an unpopular face, we do an about face and face the face of a popular figure with a nice figure wearing clothes from Tommy Hilfiger or whatever name brand trend that is popular.
A trail of currency have more followers on that path, than the trail that leads to Jesus Christ.
For 20 million dollars, would you sleep with another man’s wife?
For that amount of money, is that worth the sacrifice of betraying your own wife?
Sad to say, some wives would encourage their spouse to fuck another man’s wife since money supposedly provides a better life.
Money is the root of all evil.
Money is the root, the materialistic items is the stem, the followers is leaves, and popularity is defined as tulip in the spring time.
Spring time is only a season and the warm weather is only reason that attracts the people to come outside.
Bu what happens during the winter time?