My Purpose

I scrutinize the face and human eyes
and analyze.
Some say I look hypnotized.
I concentrate to see the disgiuse behind
to see if people are mystified.
To see if they provide for what they lack inside.
Skeletons and devils choose to hide.
I verbally don’t express my right
as I watch from the side
and prepare for a plan to lead to their demise.
My lips are sealed but the music amplifies my mind.
I purposely choose to remain shy
but yet mind can be dark like the clouds
in the sky
during a thunderstorm.
I’m unique and I choose not to conform
to the norm in society.
So I constantly keep my mind reformed
and my brain cells is plenty
like the semen that brought me life.
I refuse to allow the world to put me in a frenzy
but like a roof I have moments when I
decline
since procrastination can be deadly
like venom
which spreads becuase of snakes in life,
but I stand tall and fight
and remind myself it’s all mental.
The intellectual process in my mind
in which I describe is clear-sighted.
Well read and intellectually nimble
Some say I’m related to a gerbil.
Non-social but yet curious about my environment
is what the ordinary person is describing
when observing me as a person.
The people in the vicinity is what I’m inspecting.
Jealously and hate I notice and always expecting.
Comprehending the disloyal helps
me to appreciate those that are loyal.
My personality so distinguished
and I learn to relinquish the grip
that made me hate myself.
It’s hard to tell at first
but watch me closely
and you will see I choose to excel.
One step at a time as I inhale and exhale.
Worst feeling is feeling guilty as hell
for failing
when you was trying to do well.
Lord would speak to me through dreams
painting a picture of whales
to expose how I was gifted with intuition and awareness.
My sense of spirituality will overcome darkness
like the light that separates from darkness
for a solution due to the war in heaven.
For every demon, I surround myself with 2 angels.
I live life according to the 2:1 ratio
which God will annihilate the Devil.

Current Relationship

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A king is nothing without his queen.

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I’m a king with my queen
but yet I still feel nothing.
Love is there and I love her
and only her,

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but sometimes I feel like
for myself I can do much better.
I really wonder what was going
thru her father’s mind
when he was staring me in the eyes.

I was well alert
but he was studying me
like I was high as a kite.
Does he really feel I am the guy
for his daughter?
That was my thought at first
but I grew up in the church
so I know that only God comes first.
So I respect my queens father
but only God’s opinion matter.
Have you ever felt like
you found love but at the wrong time?

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I say that because I struggle still
trying to make dime.
Family members don’t know what’s in my mind
To them I live a secret life.
You can almost say I am living a double life.
I wonder how did I get into this,
this wasn’t even my fight?
Sometimes to seek happiness, you have to lie,
and most won’t agree
but you won’t understand until you bleed
like I the way bleed.

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Travel through my journey
and some of you will not even last a mile,
but vice versa I won’t last a mile in your journey.
I’m a King with a queen.
I an grateful for the queen
and she is more powerful then me.

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I admire her strength and curiosity.
Though I am not looking to marry
Out of all the girls I dealt with
I would pick her to marry
in a heart beat.

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She is so sweet
but sometimes its hard
because I have shackles on my feet
while chasing freedom
to escape the mental slavery in my mind.
Sometimes I wonder if I die today,
Hardest question to answer is,
did I die happy or miserable?
For those of you reading this
if you feel the powerful emotion
after reading this,
imagine what I have to go through.

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Am I Satisfied?

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Always asked good questions
but now I ask myself a great question
that arises in my mind
“Am I Satisfied?”
All my life
I found myself
staring at the sky,
asking why.
Been told I always been hard on myself.
Well I always think about my wealth.
Only if you knew the struggle I felt.
Parents were divorced at eight.
As a teen, I had pimples across my face.
I got rejected by most colleges
because of my high school grades.
It wasn’t until I was 23 when I had my first date.
25 was when I felt my heart snapped like a pencil
and tears were running down my face.
Imagine living thru your mid twenties
and constantly up all night
because pregnancies scares affected your life.
How can I be a father explaining to my parents that I don’t have a wife?
At 26 I got fed up with women.
I was paying for sex every minute.
I only wanted fast women
and at this time I learned to use protection.
At Friday night buying condoms at 7-11
so strippers can put Trojans over my erection.
Also at 26, was talking to chick,
who had a friendship
with my dad’s chick.
So another words, I met a girl through a mutual
friendship.
We was not in a relationship.
It was more of situationship
or a friends with benefits kind of situation
however you wanna call it.
But anyway be careful who you share your secrets with
because the gossip that was going on behind
my back
I was oblivious to it.
Life full of fucking hypocrites
so sometimes I have a hard time forgiving.
Forgiving to me is hard
like a teenage virgin trying to figure out
why he can’t get an erection.
But anyway this chick I was dealing with
was telling my business to her friend
and I stated earlier
this friend was in a situationship with my father.
Eventually I got a call from my sister
and she told me
“David, be careful what you say to that girl because dad thinks your talking about him”
Well I’m going to stop and I will continue this story on a future blog of mine’s.
Sometimes life shine, sometimes life is blind.
I imagine myself covering my eyes because the life is too bright
so I rather stay stuck in the cave
to play it safe.
Sometimes misery so addictive
u get comfortable
instead of trying to fix it.
So now for you bloggers that are reading this,
Do you think I am satisfied with my life?

My Thoughts

Last few years, shit got deep.

The mountains got steep.

Nobody knew what I was going through

Real life problems

and I didn’t know how to solve them.

felt like I was under pressure

trying to disarm a bomb.

Ever felt so miserable

you hate the sound of the alarm?

In the morning

heart was constantly beating

at a fast pace rate.

Ignoring my stomach growling

because I felt like I had no escape

out of a bad situation.

The frustration and hate

intensifies only more

when you accept misery

instead of trying to change it.

Mind was insipid.

I kept quite

I held my composure,

but on the inside

I was livid.

I seen the ones I loved

as role models

turn into hypocrites.

Ever got hurt so bad by the opposite sex

you thought all women are bitches?

Ever got so hurt so bad by the opposite sex

You thought all men ain’t shit?

What keeps myself going?

Remind myself everything happens

for a reason.

But felt like I was lying to myself

because the humble ones

receive the most attention and drama

without any explanation.

The day, week, month and season changes

but the pain remains constant.

Stuck on bullshit

I felt constipated.

I compare myself to a mouse

in a house.

Ever heard the term

“quiet as a mouse”?

Cartoons portrays mice

as if their innocent

but in reality at midnight

behind the walls

they make loud noises

all night gnawing and clawing.

I am quiet, minding my business

but up all night overthinking.

Overthinking so much

for a second I thought

I was nocturnal.

I refused to invite company

when facing misery.

I refuse to bring anybody

in the lake of fire with me.

Thoughts were bigger than a grizzly.

Beer kept me from doing

something crazy ironically.

One at a time I started

devouring beer bottles a minute.

Instead of the bible

Heineken was my weapon,

Corona was my idol,

Budweiser was my hero.

On the dresser nothing but empty bottles

and this was the affect

since there was nothing on cable.

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I shed a puddle of tears.

My bed received more rainfall

then the month of April.

I wished stories of people

getting their hearts broken

were only fables.

The ghetto is filled with people

with real talent

and most politicians are ignorant,

sucking d*ck to make it.

In this world

You have to fake it

until you make it.

Then when you make it,

you have to fake it more.

People make it difficult

for you

When you are completely honest.

Now think about it

I respect the truth more than deceit

but honor and loyalty can

End you up in a cemetery.

So is honesty overrated?

I don’t know, maybe

Fear in your heart

Will have lying

So much

That you think it’s a blessing

and the truth is a sin.

Some people won’t admit it

but to some, the devil

Is feared more than God.

We underestimate God’s power

and refuse to cower.

Rumors on social media

receive more attention

then family members.

Technology is the slave driver

to today’s generation.

It press its feet on the minds

of the innocent

until the innocent is out of gas

and now stuck on stupid.

but no excuses.

Technology is not the scapegoat,

because people always been ruthless,

The only difference is because of social media

We are exposed quicker

but the demons been exist.

They were once angels in heaven.

However, here is a question,

Can someone describe the view

of heaven?

What if everybody living was aborted

and every baby that was once aborted

had a chance to live life?

What would be the outcome of life?

What would be the percentage of crime?

When is the end of time?

More than welcome to comment and thank you for reading and please stop by and visit again!

I Sink

It’s been a while since I posted a blog on here so I just want to say to my followers that I am back and I have a lot of content to post.

For these last 3 months, I have been busy with school and work but now school is almost over and I have some free time.

So I plan to keep in touch with my followers and to meet more followers as well.

For those of you that missed me, I just want to say that I’m back.

Please read and comment below and I have questions at the end

You may try to build me up

and protect me with your sword

but like a burning building

I will burn and fall.

You feed me with words

You rescue me by default

but like a snowman

eventually I will melt and fall

Love and peace

is what you installed in me

The virus inside me

will delete the peace

inside of me.

Like a Windows computer

I will crash and fall

Like a caterpillar to a butterfly,

I began to rise

Like a whale in the ocean

I will jump up and rise

but only temporary

Just like a whale that dive

back in the ocean

I too as well fall

and crumble with confused emotions

Does my humbleness make you proud?

Do I stand out to you in the crowd?

As of now I stand tall

but eventually, I will fall.

1) What do you fear most in life?

2) When you read this poem, did this poem remind you of the way you perceive life?

3) What line in the poem caught your eye the most?

4) Do you ever feel people give you more credit then you deserve?

5) Have you ever tried to help somebody that was ungrateful?

6) Do you think that everybody in this world is ungrateful?

7) Between the rich and the poor, who is more ungrateful?

On Friday, I will be posting another poem

Hospital 3 Times Back To Back To Back

Time was almost
seven  years back
The flu attack
me like a rat
out the trash can
landing on a homeless man.
Couldn’t walk
Could barely talk
Strepthoart made it hard
to swallow.
“I will get better tomorrow”
I said to myself.
Worst and worst
my health
became more weak
could barely move my feet.
I was paralyzed for a week.
Hips was dealing with torment
without no explanation.
Doctors took blood and cat scans
but my hips
just couldn’t find nothing wrong with it.
Could barely eat
Could barely drink
Could barely sleep.
Uncomfort was misery
plus I missed a week
of college.
Yet doctors still
didn’t have the knowledge
or explanation
of why I am
In this hospital building.
Homework was piling
and I’m dying.
Without any explanation
I gradually restored my health
thank to the painkillers.
but I was still bitter
because now at home
I looked Skinner
eyes looked darker
school became harder.
I still couldn’t sleep
using the bathroom
interrupted my dreams
every hour.
I would be on the
toilet for an half an hour
The waste wasn’t solid,
it was liquid
like the process of water melting
I was not in the mood for college
wanted to drop my classes
Couldn’t concentrate like a kid
without his glasses
with 20/40 vision.
Being sick interfered with my mission.
Almost a whole month with this sickness
hoping I would get better with the quickness.
Little by little my virus vanished

1 month later

I went back to normal.
At this point
life was incorrigible
because at work
I got  sharp cut
by the elbow
so deep saw the white meat .
Definitely saw the vein,
but ironically I barely felt pain.
Back at the hospital again
to get stitches.
I was livid.
Confused since
my thinking became
ambiguous
try to comprehend
both hospital situations
within a month’s period.

2 weeks later

Another situation approached even
more perilous
but due to my stupidness.
Reactions from others
we’re “oh my goodness”
drinking
vodka on empty stomach
my insides were punished
and I lost balance
head spinning
like a washer machine
and sweating hard
as if my clothes came out
the washer machine.
This took place seven
years ago
Until this day I still
don’t know what I
was thinking

 

I Have More Questions!

Warning: This blog have a lot of tough, horrible, questions. So if you don’t like negativity what so ever then I rather you leave now instead of leaving a negative comment criticizing my blog. This is my blog and these are the questions I wanted to ask.
Purpose if this blog is to make your think and this contains a lot of bad situations and negativity. The reason why I wrote these  type questions is because a lot of these questions are real life situations where we can all end up. I believe when your stuck between a rock and a hard place, it makes coming up with a solution more difficult and I want you guys to really think about this. Again I did ask a lot of negative questions, but I also asked some good questions as well
When you answer theses questions, there is no in between, no I’m not sure, you have to pick an straightforward answer.  Yes I know these questions are not straight forward, but I am challenging you to come up with an answer and I promise if you  comment below answer that I will respond back with an answer as well

 

1) In the bible in genesis, the serpent gave Eve to eat the apple. Eve gave the apple to Adam and he ate the apple. Now curious question, God knows everything and he knew Eve was the first one that are the apple before Adam, now why did God approach Adam and question Adam first?

 

2)  If you was in a baby’s room and you saw the baby sleeping surrounded by two rats in the crib, what would you do?

3) If you was on the roof with your enemy, your enemy was on the ledge getting ready to jump off and commit suicide, which you try and convince that person not to jump and what would you say to enemy from committing suicide

4) Is life a reality or a dream?

5) Imagine if everybody in the world told the truth, would life be a better place?

 

6) If everybody waited until marriage to have sex, would the crime rate go down?

7) If everybody was broke, would the world be a friendly place?

8) If everybody was rich, would people be more anti-social?

 

9) If everybody waited until marriage to have sex, would there be any use for condoms?

 

10 )What would life be like if  imaginations were non- existent?

11) What is more frightening, a gun being pointed by your head by a loved one, or waiting for HIV results in the waiting room knowing that you had unprotected sex with 100 people in a year ?

 

12 )Would you rather be paralyzed or HIV infected?

13) Between Play station 1 and and Nintendo 64, which system would rather play?

 

14) What’s more embarrassing, walking in on your parents having sex or urinating on yourself on the first date in public?

 

15) Would you rather somebody embarrass you or you embarrass somebody?

 

16) If you was a billionaire could you honestly say that you could be the same as you are now or would the money change you in the slightest?

 

17) If you had the chance to win a 5 millionaire dollars and all you had to do was to trust me to write a poem once a day for a year straight and each line had to be 20 lines, would you take that offer?

18) Would you rather have Michael Jackson ‘s talent and Michael Jordan personality or Michael Jackson’s personality and Michael Jordan talent?

 

19 )Would you rather get in the ring with Mike Tyson in his prime or play a game in the NFL as a quarterback?

 

20) Would you rather make out(not just a quick kiss a full make out session) with your significant other in a crowd full of strangers or watch your parents make out in the privacy of your home?

 

21 )Would you rather go a whole year without no sex or go a whole year having boring sex with a person that’s just sloppy and clumsy?

 

22) Would you rather date somebody that is extremely shy or extremely talkative?

 

23) For the women: Now would you rather a guy take you out on a date and he pays for everything but one condition you have to have sex or would you rather play it safe but have to pay for the whole date?

 

24) Would you rather fall out of a plane with a para shoot or go scuba diving?

25 )Which one is worst, you paying somebody 200 hundred dollars (which is your kids birthday money) for a chain that somebody robbed from you, or you getting stuck with a flat tire without no spare in a blizzard?

26 ) What’s worst to watch a love one die in front if your eye’s or a loved one watching you die?

 

27) Would you rather bury your kids when they are young or commit suicide?

 

 

28 )Do female celebrities have sex with male groupies?

29 )Would you rather spent the rest of your life in prison for a crime you didn’t commit or have somebody to jail for the rest their life for a crime that you committed?

 

30 ) Would you rather be in jail and your ex spouse visits you through a glass and she is with your worst enemy and they are kissing and you are watching them kiss through the glass or would you rather have your mom/dad walk on you performing oral sex on their bed with their  boyfriend/girlfriend?

31  ) When Cain murdered Abel, how do you think Adam And Eve reacted to Abel being murdered?

32) Would you rather be trapped in the woods with Jason, or have Freddy Cruger appear in your nightmares every night, or be trapped in a dark abandoned house with Annabel?

33) Would you rather stay single forever or be with in a relationship that will last for 10 years but the person you are with for 10 years will break your heart in the worst way you can imagine after 10 years?

34) What’s a worst crime, murder or rape?

35) What’s harder to do, forgive when your hurt, or telling the cold hard truth to somebody who is sensitive?

36) If you had the power  choice, would you rather  take away cartoons from all kids permanently , or take away their birthdays and they won’t be allowed to celebrate their birthdays until they graduate high school?

37) As a parent, if you had  a choice, would rather your child become a parent, making you a grandparent at the age of 16, or to not have grand kids at all knowing that your kids want kids?

38) For men: If you are married, who comes first your mother or your wife?

39) The day before Tupac died, if you was in private one on one conversation with Tupac and you had one question to ask him, what would you ask him?

40) For those that have a high sex drive, would you marry somebody with a low sex drive  if they have everything you wanted in a boyfriend/girlfriend? For those that have a low sex drive, would you marry somebody with a high sex drive if  they everything you wanted in a boyfriend/girlfriend?

41) What’s more important in a relationship/marriage, passion or dedication? (pick one)

41) Would you rather marry somebody that is the complete opposite of you, or marry somebody that is exactly like you in all areas?(don’t say 50/50 lol)

42) For mothers, would you be disappointed if your daughter was a lesbian or if your son was gay? ( I have no problem with people who are attracted of the same sex but just curious to  here your answer )

42) What is the most difficult question to answer in your opinion in the world?

43) If you had a choice, would live in a world where have the power to read each other minds but none of us can’t speak at all to each other, or live in a world where we can all speak to each other but we can’t read at all not even a single letter of the alphabet?

44) Would rather  have knowledge on everything subject, every area possible  but no common sense what so ever or have all the common sense in the world but have no knowledge whatsoever to the point where you don’t even know elementary  stuff like reading on a first grade level?

45)What’s worst to lie in somebody’s face or to gossip the truth about other people’s business?

46) Would you rather be friendly with everybody with pessimistic thoughts or have an attitude with everybody for no reason but have  optimistic  thoughts?

47) If you could cheat on your partner knowing that you will get away with it and they will never find out, would you?(If you answer, please use the first thought that comes to your head and be honest I’m looking for a simple yes or no)

48) Now after reading question 47,  for those of you that are in a relationship/marriage, would you ask your partner this question? If they answered no, would you believe them(Be honest)?

49) Would your rather teach somebody how to count, or how to read the alphabet?

50) If you had the power, would you scarfice your child  and let you child rot hell after he/she so everybody can be in heaven(including yourself, all the evil, rapists, child molesters, serial killers) or would everybody on this earth from this day on would live forever, nobody dies but everyday somebody is born but nobody dies, another words would you rather live in an overpopulated world where nobody dies or scarfice your child to the lake f fire while everybody goes to heaven

51)Bonus questions, would you rather answer take the time the first 49 questions and avoid 50 or just answer question 50 and ignore all the other 49 questions?

 

With the exception of question 50 and 51, pick a question  from 1 – 49 and answer that question in the comment section, the one that was most difficult between 1-49, and when you do, I will comment back with my response. If you want to answer more than one question be my guest and  I will respond to everybody that comments. Please don’t answer 50 or 51, those are very personal but at least think about that.  Please pick the most difficult question to answer.  Also is there any other questions besides the one that you will answer in the comment section,  that you want me write a poem on and this includes question 50(I won’t upload the poem until January)  write the number in the comment section in quotes?