“If you don’t learn to write your own life story, someone else will write it for you”
This quote is remarkable to someone like myself trying to increase my wealth.
I took heed of the many voices that led to many choices. Staying patient, trying to remain focus The accolades to celebrate the daily grind, I know I deserve it, but yet still not where I want to be.
“Some dreams stay dreams, some dreams stay true.” The line has been attached in my mind since the age of sixteen.
When I was a teen, I had dreams of accomplishing everything, Losing my virginity at 17, Having a car at 17, moving out going away to college at 18, having a bachelor’s degree at 21, going to clubs and partying at 21.
At 17, I graduated high school a virgin, damn near didn’t lose my virginity until 21.
At 18, I had poor SAT scores plus I was a B- student, so ending up going to a community college.
At 21, I was attending farmingdale state college while contemplating becoming a police officer which failed miserably due to failing the oral psychological test, plus I didn’t get my bachelors degree until 27 due to me switching careers at 23, but I did finally get a car which was four years overdue.
What happens is as you age, you come to the realization that Welcome to reality is not Welcome to Disneyland.
Everything does not happen according to plan.
Reality is allowing yourself to be the scapegoat and never forgiving yourself while in actuality the scapegoat is someone else utilizing demon tactics to paint you as one.
The end goal is to wake up the day before you die and hearing Michael saying that you won.
But how do you win, how do you become a winner? How do you get a good night sleep, knowing you don’t make enough money? How do you get a good night sleep when you have to make a choice rather spend money or stay hungry? How do you get a good night sleep when you try to find the root cause of why black lives don’t matter in America?
These are complicated questions and my answers to each don’t remain constant.
So when I hear “If you don’t learn to write your own life story, someone else will write it for you” this poem that I have written is the true definition.
I feel like Jesus starving after 40 days and the people that give advice are the devils, tempting and pressuring me to see the light.
I write this to let the ones know that are proud of me to don’t tell me how to feel.
This is a preview of an autobiography that shows the misery, but in 10 years when I turn 40, hopefully I will write an extension with something more positive.