That Ain’t Me


Keeping sercets from you cost me dearly.
I never meant to hurt you, I offer you my apologies.
All this time lying to you and stabbing you
in the back
What’s done is done and I wish I can take back, as I reminisce the sexy sound of your laugh.
From laughing with me to crying about me
You was crying when you found out and I was too.
All the scarfices you made for me when I told you I loved you.
Now you in denial and leaving me is what you had to do.
I don’t blame you  because I am responsible  for putting you in foul mood.
Many times I lied to you but loving you was always the truth.
I was raised with the qualities of a gentleman.
I scarficed our relationship, I was being a selfish man.
Be trust me that ain’t me, I’m not a selfish man
and I regret the one night stand with the other woman.
She was the previous   woman and believe me I kept resisting 
but to her it didn’t make a difference.
One day she caught me off guard in the bar while I was drinking 
and I was only drinking to the subdue the stressing of all the child support money I was paying.
I kept praying and praying but from God I didn’t receive nothing.
so she knew my struggles and offer me to help with my troubles.
Before you, I was with her and she’s my child’s mother.
I really was in love with you but I had still had hidden feelings for her.
She tricked me into telling me she wanted us to be together 
and didn’t want our child to grow up with out a father.
That hit home becuase I know what it’s like to grow up with out a father.
We kept talking then one thing led to another.
She have a sexy laugh like yours and she starting laughing.
Next thing you know I was deep in my feelings
So at each other, we were just staring
Then from staring  we started kissing.
So then went to the car and I drove to a motel that wasn’t so far.
Now I swear to you from the bottom of my heart 
I crushed our symbol of love, I did this for my son.
Today I told my mom everything she said like father like son.
My dad cheated on my mom and left the family,
and yesterday you said your 3 months pregnant and we having twin babies
but you still don’t want nothing to do with me.
I am begging you please let’s be a family.
I don’t want be like my father and I don’t want my kids to grow up with a single mother and a distant father.
A dead beat was never part of my dreams.
My father is like that but that ain’t me.

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