Lonely and misery 
so I think of sucide
This is what I’m feeling
I believe I should die.
I love  heaven
so I should surrender my life.
I fear hell
so my life
should not yet be scarficed.
Angel on my right shoulder
Demon on my left shoulder
Part time job as a pastor
to seek forgiveness in sinners.
Also a part time music composer
on certain days my heart is colder.
Demons torture me like a run away slave
without no type of warning.
I should at least get warnings
like the kids on beyond scare straight
My pain I choose to hide
like a gun in a safe.
So I pray to God today
to help me walk straight